Hey Sally!
I'm glad to see you posting, and of course I would like to see you rejoin roleplaying. However, it seems that you have a lot of trepidation and may not have even made your mind up yet about whether to come back. Your message almost seems like you're trying to talk yourself out of it.
You say you have a hard time getting your emotions across. The emotions I'm seeing in your message are worry, anxiety and fear. You seem worried that you're putting yourself into a "Me vs. Them" situation by even posting publicly in the OOC. The feeling of being teamed up on can be scary, and I want you to know that I don't want to see that happen.
I think the first question that needs to be answered definitively, is if you do want to rejoin the rp. I can't tell from your message if you do want to rejoin, or if you just want to put a resolution on the entire situation and walk away. I'm willing to work with you if either outcome is the case.
If you think, honestly to yourself, that what you'd like is to return to the rp, then let's start there and work on coming up with some ideas and resolutions that would make you comfortable rejoining. If, however, you want to walk away, then let's have a final conversation where you can air your thoughts freely, say what you need to say and head out with a clear conscience.
Once you've picked a direction, drop me a PM and let's discuss it. Thanks again for posting.
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