Welcome to Gaia! ::

Dove heard Ryan yell out, he was too close to her, once he passed a few more trees he would see her and she didnt want him to see her crying again. She panicked, looking for somewhere to hide, anywhere, a hole, a shrub, a log, anything! The pond wasnt deep enough to hide her and if she made too much noise he would hear her and find where she was, GO AWAY! She said to Ryan through her thoughts, trying to convince him that she wasnt ready.

Dove sighed mentally, Its not your fault, its not even about you, you dont have to worry, i just have to work a few things out, thats all.... i love you and nothing will change that, its just so memories are bugging me and i need to think them through or i'll go insane..... She told Ryan. She needed to think a bit more before she told him another secret about her past, she wasnt sure how she would tell him though, If i tell him through my thoughts he'll feel all that i felt and i dont want him as messed up as i am... but there arent words for it... She though to herself.

Dove hung her head, shivering because she was still wet from the hotsprings and was still in her bathing suit, I'm sorry Ryan but you cant help, i know you want to but theres nothing that you can do..... She told Ryan. She knew he couldnt help but he could support her and thats something she needed so she stood up and walked through to bushes to see Ryan standing there, "Hi.."

She hugged him lightly, too tired to do much else. She looked at him wearily and then wobbled a bit, her body about to give under his weight, "I'm glad to see you too..." she said weakly and then pulled away from him for a moment, blinking strangely, and then fell to the ground unconcious.

Dove dreamed about all she had though about that day, triggered with the word Ryan used, 'Soulmate' He didnt know what that meant to her, what memories were brought up when someone said that. She wanted to tell him and after her dreams, when she woke to find him snuggled up beside her, then she would explain why she had acted so strangely.

Suddenly Dove's dreams of sad memories turn harsh. She dreamed about killing people, their blood all over her body, hot and thick. She was so angry and scared at what she used to be that she forgot that Ryan was beside her. And during all her rage she opened her mind and let her dream seep into his thoughs. She accidentally made him go through all her tormenting memories, the emotion overwhelming, she made him feel all the peoples pain as she did, she made him feel the same lust for their blood. She did all this forgetting who he was, forgetting who she was now. She drilled her most dark feelings into his mind, wanting to share her pain with someone, hoping to relieve a bit from herself, but it was too much for human minds and it soon started to tear through Ryans mind, "RYAN!"

"RYAN!!" Dove woke and realized what she had done to him. She ran over to him and pinned him up against a tree, trying to stop his body from shaking. She reached into his mind and tried obsorbing all the darkness and pain, she couldnt erase memories but her gift was to take peoples pain and suffering and inflict it upon ehrself. All the screams in his mind came into hers, all the pain and dark thoughts of blood-lust came back to her, feeling at home in her complex mind. When she did this, something inside her almost got out, the creature she used to be, her Blood Lust, but she held it back, putting back into the depths of her mind. Then she opened ehr eyes, trying not to cry, and looked at Ryan, his eyes returning to normal, "I-I didnt mean to..... I was just so a-angry.... I-I'm so s-sorry..."

Joy sat under the forests shadows,though the sunlight escaped the layers of the leaves,to make small patches of ligth on Joys tanned skin,it also made patterns on Ella's pale skin,and Giddys orange fur. Joy wore what almost looked like a black wedding dress,the dress was strapless,hugging Joys quite..impressive chest. Her hair was up in pigtails,help up by black ribbon,but small pink roses were woven in Joys long leaf green tresses. Her lips were red like the colour of blood,the same as Ella's.

Joy sat there,her back leaning against a tree,her yellow cat tail just layed on the ground,silently,no sound of a bell singing its sweet tune from a wagging motion. Joy looked like a doll,sitting there,hands folded in her lap,a red diamond ring on her left ring finger. A small Loli Gotic doll,whos wedding dress swallowed up her legs,and covered a large part of the grounhd around Joy. Red frills on the edges,skulls and unreadable signs in the pattern.

Ella wore just a trench coat,showing a bit of her belly button,and the tight leather shorts she wore. Her long red hair dropped to the ground,as Giddy just licked his large paw.

"Why did you bring me here Joy?" Joy didn't look up at Ella,she just looked off into the distance. "Joy...came here,when she was tired,tired of all her lies,she would sit here,and punish herself,scolding herself..all the while,wanting to cry,and someone to hold her. Joy..never really was hugged,she..needed human contact thats why she hugged evryone is sight,I never got that..when.."we" were younger. But then again..we didn't want that when we were home,too busy with our job. Your job... "

Joys face was pained,she thought of Sakura Ai,and how Joy would have to be strong,happy,for her sake. "B-But..I wanted to be held,to be loved.. its selfish of me to ask for that..but..I need someone to lean on.This pain is just too much!! But I have to be alone!!Stand on my own..so Joy can make everyone happy!!"

Ella rose an eyebrow. Though no sorrow,no pity,for this little cat girl. She had no emotions,which she did wonder,if Joy would want that,emotionless,a heart of stone. I wonder if that would make her happy though...if everyone is happy..if she did live,dying from what ever cause..a battle,overwork..or herself.