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 Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 8:32 am
asianretart (This thread was on the second page! First time I've seen that happen) I walk around and see people with best friends, close friends and acquaintances all around them. I just stare from a distance and look at them with slight envy. They actually have a full crowd of people looking around them, and they share their secrets, etc.
But recently for the last few days, I realise that all my friends are changing, opening up and finding new things to fawn over. But I'll just stay closed in my world, not letting anyone enter. I've isolated myself from the real world, staying up late, procrastinating and what not. I can't concentrate, I always look dead at school and some people care.
I'm just lost. I don't know where I am heading. It's like I'm walking my way over to one place, on a wavy road, often bumping into acquaintances who stay for a period and then leave. I don't know what's up with me. I just feel depressed whenever people are around me. I just want to be alone.
No one understands me. I just.... feel lost in this world and I always feel empty in a crowded room. I hate this feeling.
Plus, I don't know how old you are, but I know from experience that a lot of people sort of... grow out of those sorts of feelings.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 8:40 am
Tabihito asianretart (This thread was on the second page! First time I've seen that happen) I walk around and see people with best friends, close friends and acquaintances all around them. I just stare from a distance and look at them with slight envy. They actually have a full crowd of people looking around them, and they share their secrets, etc.
But recently for the last few days, I realise that all my friends are changing, opening up and finding new things to fawn over. But I'll just stay closed in my world, not letting anyone enter. I've isolated myself from the real world, staying up late, procrastinating and what not. I can't concentrate, I always look dead at school and some people care.
I'm just lost. I don't know where I am heading. It's like I'm walking my way over to one place, on a wavy road, often bumping into acquaintances who stay for a period and then leave. I don't know what's up with me. I just feel depressed whenever people are around me. I just want to be alone.
No one understands me. I just.... feel lost in this world and I always feel empty in a crowded room. I hate this feeling.
Plus, I don't know how old you are, but I know from experience that a lot of people sort of... grow out of those sorts of feelings.
I have no words to reply to this, but thank you. I have to try and move on from those friends, and I slowly realise now that I have to grow up myself. I'm going to have to try and pick up the pieces which will make my life better, and to start that, I should discard those habits and feelings; but at my age (being one of the youngest members of the guild), I will be experiencing these feelings yet again in my life.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 8:55 am
I'm hungry!
I mean, I'm normally a big eater, but lately it's just like...I can't stop. And my stomach always feels empty and growly even when I've just been stuffing myself. confused And it's really annoying. Based on other random things, I think there's some kind of gas buildup that's replicating the empty feeling with bubbles or somesuch and will go away soon, but...bleh.
I need fooooooooood.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 1:15 pm
Holy crap zcb!
I've been thinking of how a horrible person I am, and how I screw every reletionship that I can. NAturally m ade me think of my ex-fiancee alot lately. Of the good old times, and that I do miss her. And Now she sends me a message, saying that she misses me, wants to talk to me, and see me soon. eek
I'm affraid Im going to blow this up again DX
nd woohoo! no more death dreams!
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:06 pm
Being on depression meds (starting today) makes me feel more depressed. Probably 'cause I wasn't strong enough to get over it on my own. At least I tried for 5 years.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:08 pm
Kinxed Being on depression meds (starting today) makes me feel more depressed. Probably 'cause I wasn't strong enough to get over it on my own. At least I tried for 5 years. What on earth would you have to be depressed about? ........ Actually, if it could bring someone like you down, I don't wanna know. Might be a little overloading.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:09 pm
Divine_Malevolence Kinxed Being on depression meds (starting today) makes me feel more depressed. Probably 'cause I wasn't strong enough to get over it on my own. At least I tried for 5 years. What on earth would you have to be depressed about? ........ Actually, if it could bring someone like you down, I don't wanna know. Might be a little overloading. Runs in my family. The only ones who aren't on medication are my grandma (tho she was before), my mom (very strong person), and my brother (probably got more of my dad's side).
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:11 pm
Kinxed Divine_Malevolence Kinxed Being on depression meds (starting today) makes me feel more depressed. Probably 'cause I wasn't strong enough to get over it on my own. At least I tried for 5 years. What on earth would you have to be depressed about? ........ Actually, if it could bring someone like you down, I don't wanna know. Might be a little overloading. Runs in my family. The only ones who aren't on medication are my grandma (tho she was before), my mom (very strong person), and my brother (probably got more of my dad's side). Psssht. Yer probably stronger than yer mum.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:12 pm
Divine_Malevolence Kinxed Divine_Malevolence Kinxed Being on depression meds (starting today) makes me feel more depressed. Probably 'cause I wasn't strong enough to get over it on my own. At least I tried for 5 years. What on earth would you have to be depressed about? ........ Actually, if it could bring someone like you down, I don't wanna know. Might be a little overloading. Runs in my family. The only ones who aren't on medication are my grandma (tho she was before), my mom (very strong person), and my brother (probably got more of my dad's side). Psssht. Yer probably stronger than yer mum. I'm strong in my own ways but not for this. Not anymore. It wears me out.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:26 pm
asianretart Tabihito asianretart (This thread was on the second page! First time I've seen that happen) I walk around and see people with best friends, close friends and acquaintances all around them. I just stare from a distance and look at them with slight envy. They actually have a full crowd of people looking around them, and they share their secrets, etc.
But recently for the last few days, I realise that all my friends are changing, opening up and finding new things to fawn over. But I'll just stay closed in my world, not letting anyone enter. I've isolated myself from the real world, staying up late, procrastinating and what not. I can't concentrate, I always look dead at school and some people care.
I'm just lost. I don't know where I am heading. It's like I'm walking my way over to one place, on a wavy road, often bumping into acquaintances who stay for a period and then leave. I don't know what's up with me. I just feel depressed whenever people are around me. I just want to be alone.
No one understands me. I just.... feel lost in this world and I always feel empty in a crowded room. I hate this feeling.
Plus, I don't know how old you are, but I know from experience that a lot of people sort of... grow out of those sorts of feelings.
I have no words to reply to this, but thank you. I have to try and move on from those friends, and I slowly realise now that I have to grow up myself. I'm going to have to try and pick up the pieces which will make my life better, and to start that, I should discard those habits and feelings; but at my age (being one of the youngest members of the guild), I will be experiencing these feelings yet again in my life.
"It's completely natural for friendships to change over time"
Which means you can be friends with new people in life, so it's ok to put yourself out there for others to get to know you. I face that problem a lot seeing old friends, but I am still grateful for having them in a part of my life. We just walk by and say "hi" to each other now and then when we get the chance since life is pretty busy nowadays.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:33 pm
Kinxed Divine_Malevolence Kinxed Divine_Malevolence Kinxed Being on depression meds (starting today) makes me feel more depressed. Probably 'cause I wasn't strong enough to get over it on my own. At least I tried for 5 years. What on earth would you have to be depressed about? ........ Actually, if it could bring someone like you down, I don't wanna know. Might be a little overloading. Runs in my family. The only ones who aren't on medication are my grandma (tho she was before), my mom (very strong person), and my brother (probably got more of my dad's side). Psssht. Yer probably stronger than yer mum. I'm strong in my own ways but not for this. Not anymore. It wears me out. Taking medications doesn't mean you're weak.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:34 pm
I just don't like the idea of medication.
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:40 pm
I never understood that. I guess it's different for me because I've been on various medications since before I can remember, and I'm just so used to the idea that they're the best help available.
Why are you even listening to me? I'm nothing but a whiny little emo girl. This is exactly how I messed things up last time! Things would be so much better if everyone just rolled their eyes and ignored me until I went away!
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Posted: Mon May 17, 2010 4:48 pm
I'm also very against the idea of medication.
It's removing the symptoms, but not the problem. That's akin to removing your soldiers' pain in battle.
Sure, they'll give it 110%. But, at the same time, they'll give it 110%. Which means they're going to be destroying themselves in the process.
I'd much rather see actual solutions, rather then bullshit chemical alterations on whoever doesn't work properly.
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