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ShadowLadyRaven Vice Captain
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 Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 5:24 pm
Vivian seemed to shake her head in her eyes when she looked to her sister. But once Amaya spoke, she turned her attention to her eldest sister, sheathing her sword as her sister pinned the assasin. Going over to Amy, she had narrowed her eyes a little. "Amy, you really need to stop thinking that you always mess everything up because you don't. When you replied to Roran first, I could practically see what you were thinking and I know what you thought was wrong. You felt guilty because you thought you dragged me into this. Well, you didn't. If I see someone threatening my sisters, I take action. I brought myself into that situation. Not you. Besides, its really more the assasin that messed everything up, eh?" Smiling, her expression had softened, her hands on her sisters arms.
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 5:28 pm
she forced out a fake smile, not really being convinced "yea.....but if i hadnt been so curious...o never mind" she said starting out, seeing the food 'god im hungry, but as punishment i shall not eat for 2 days...yes that sounds fair' she thought, looking away from the dining hall.
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ShadowLadyRaven Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 5:32 pm
Vivian's eyes sadened, sighing heavily. "Amy....why do you have to blame yourself for situations beyond anyones control? Does it make you happy or something?" She had heard her sisters stomach give a small growl, already knowing how she was going to punish herself. "Because whenever you do this, it doesn't make anyone happy. It makes me sad...especially if you are going to starve yourself or something." She told Amy, lowering her eyes and turning to go.
Pausing by Amaya's side, she looked up to her. "Should I stay here, or can I go to my room?"
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 5:38 pm
She turned around "i'm not gonna starve myself....and i only blame myself when it is my fault....and it ever so often seems to be..." she looked at the ground, and while turning back she whispered "im just not royal enough" btu she didnt look sad, she was indeed used to it, and accepted herself as that...she took one last look at the food and then sighed
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 5:38 pm
"You may leave, just make sure Amy eats something." Amaya said in a serious tone as she looked sideways to Vivian. She kept the assassin held down, glaring holes in his head.
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 5:42 pm
Amy looked at the ceiling, being fascinated by its decoration...."why do we not have cool stuff like this in the castle" she smiled "wonder what the town is like....maybe i should explore it" she thought for a second, then she smacked herself in the head "god you never learn do you...just out of trouble, and already planning an extension, you must have been born smoking pot" she said disappointed by herself "now i sound like a mental person, talking to myserlf" she mumbled while walking "there i go again", then she shook her head and thought 'snap out of it retard'
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ShadowLadyRaven Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 5:46 pm
Vivian nodded to her older sister, walking resolutely back to Amy and grabbing her by the arm in a surprisingly strong grip. "That is the worst load of BS I have ever heard you say Amy." She stated blatently, acting especially non-royal at the moment. She was dragging her sister to the dinning hall, forcing her to sit. "I mean it Amy, that is a load of crap. What just happened wasn't your fault, it was that assasins ok? Or better yet, whomever hired him. And it isn't your fault a lot of the time." Still keeping her sister trapped, she narrowed her eyes resolutely, "I'm not letting you leave this hall until you've eaten and are full. And I don't care what quibbling you do or anything, you need to eat."
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 5:50 pm
She got grabbed harshly "woa....hold it cowboy, i aint no horse" she said, being pushed intot he dining hall, and sat on a chair, she looked at the food ahead of her "um, i had food brought to my room actually" she said looking at her sister, then giving her a 'scuse me' look "besides your the little sister, im supposed to force you to do things, not vice-versa" she said half jokily, looking back at the food and getting up "the food in my room will get cold" she said attempting to leave as fast as possible
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ShadowLadyRaven Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 6:08 pm
"And if you'd said something sooner..." Vivian sighed, letting her go. "Yeah, yeah. I know already." She muttered to herself once Amy had gone. "You're the youngest so you have to listen to your sisters and do what they tell you. Their every command, and you can't complain or tell us what to do." She immitated her sisters from the various occasions that she was told this, making her voice sound nasaly and annoying.
Making a sound of disgust, she went to her room and slamed the door, locking and bolting it after herself. Pacing in agitation, she suddenly growled and punched a wall, not caring that it was stone. A little blood trickled down her fingers from her knuckles, but she didn't care. She was pissed and...hurting inside. "Always getting those looks, always ordered around, hell even used as a punch bag when they are being pissy...'Vivian, why can't you act like Amaya?' 'Vivian, why can't you be more well-spoken and less direct?' 'Why did you have to be so...odd? Why don't you look like us? Freak." She closed her eyes and sighed heavily, a tear rolling down her cheek as she got up and went over to the balcony doors, not caring about assasins anymore.
Standing outside, she let the air fall onto her, encircle her in comfort. "I'm never going to be good enough am I?" She whispered, her voice, or lack thereof when she spoke, sounding forlorn. Little droplets of red rolled off her fingers and falling down to the ground far below, like red tears from her heart.
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 6:16 pm
Amy was on the way to her room, but she was simply so fascinated by the ceiling, that she evn ran into a post. She got slammed onto the floor, and got up quickly, looking to see if anyone had seen, and noticing that she had past her room door. She saw the window opposite the dorr again, which she had looked through earlier "wow, that town is beautiful....maybe no one would notice if i was simply gone for one day....just exploring" she sighed, actually considering it "dotn be a fool" she whispered "royals cant leave the castle, you know that" she walked into her room "father always tied me down with that very sentence...'you are too special to be running around with commoners' but i actually care about them, there are so many poor people, and happy people., for crying out loud, normal people, i would love to live under them for at least a day, to experience freedom....that would be great" she said walking to her balcony "indeed it would" she sighed. then she rumfled her face "i havent even seen the other princes yet, that Roran guy was cute, Amaya is lucky, again" she smiled, she was always happy for Amaya when things went well...
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ShadowLadyRaven Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 6:38 pm
Vivian finally looked down at her bleeding hand, returning inside and dressing the small cuts, pausing before she finished. No, don't think thoughts like that Vivian. She told herself, feeling more and more like a caged bird at a carnival. Yes...one of the 'freaks' tents. A bird in the freak tent caged down, its life controlled by everyone except itself. "The only one I really will listen to with little fight is Amaya or father." Tears had risen quickly in her eyes, hiding her face in her hands. "And yet I find myself hating them! I hate them all..." Her head hidden in her arms, she cried, like she did almost daily now...
Remembering the words to a song she had made, she had calmed a little, the tears still rolling down her cheeks. (Sweet Sacrifice by evanescence)
"It's true, we're all a little insane
but its so clear
now that I'm unchained
fear is only in our minds
taking over all the time
fear is only in our minds but its taking over all the time
you poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
you know you live to break me- don't deny
sweet sacrifice
One day I'm gonna forget your name
and one sweet day, you're gonna drown in my lost pain
fear is only in our minds
taking over all the time
fear is only in our minds but its taking over all the time
you poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
and oh you love to hate me don't you, honey?
I'm your sacrifice.
[I dream in darkness
I sleep to die e
rase the silence
erase my life
our burning ashes
blacken the day
a world of nothingness
blow me away]
do you wonder why you hate?
are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?
you poor sweet innocent thing
dry your eyes and testify
you know you live to break me- don't deny
sweet sacrifice"
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 6:50 pm
Amy still played with the thought of going to the wonderfull town, but she pushed it away now and then, thinking of how disappointed everyone would be if she was gone, and cause them trouble to search for her.....but then came the though if she only left for a few hours "well it doesnt seem too obvious, i said i was in my room anyway.....i have to do something to calm down," she sighed, 'if i try to make it up to father, i let everyone else down, if i make it up to Amaya, i let Vivian down, if i make it up to Vivian, i let amaya down, and if i try to make it up to myself, i let everyone down.....' she sighed "how troublesome" she looked at the town, and the temptation grew, if i leave now, and come back the latest in two or three hours, no one should notice..." she said quietly, walking inside, she had convinced herself. She dressed less royal, putting a sheet around her to look poor, and over her head to hide her face, she took her bed sheets, and tried tying them together, but it was still a little too short, so she figured she would have to jump the rest. She satrted climbing down "please let me not be caught" she said to the sky, though she didnt believ in god.
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 6:54 pm
After the guards had finished with taking the Assassin away, Amaya went to Vivian's room. She seemed upset earlier, and she wanted to make sure that her little sister was alright. She knocked on her door and then opened it a little. "Viv. You in here?" She asked softly, not wanting to disturb her.
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 7:02 pm
Amy jumped down the rest, rolling over once or twice to catch the fall. She got up and sighed "came this far, no turning back now" she said as she started running off. Even though it was night, the town seemed to be filled with joyful people, the markets were open, and the people were far away from tiered. Amy smiled, she felt happy, she was in a place where she could shout like a mad person, and get away with it...she enjoyed it. There was a large round area where people were dancing in a circle, and Amy watched with joy, until she got pulled in too. She laughed and asked the person who had pulled her in "why is evryone dancing?" the woman next to her laughed "well its the evening dance, it happens every day" she said joyfully. Amy smiled "wow, this much enthusiasm evry day?" the woman looked at her as if she was about to burst out laughing "are you from around here? you cant be, if you dont even know the town's dance" Amy fixed her face "dont be silly, i was just testing" she smiled fakely. 'stop being so obvious' she thought. After a while she stopped dancing "wow, now that is fun" she continued to walk through the streets, enjoying the sight of evry unclean corner, and noisy sound, the chaos made her feel great.
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ShadowLadyRaven Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 7:04 pm
Vivian turned her head quickly, shrinking a little until she saw it was Amaya. Wiping away the remnants of her tears, she uncurled and faced her eldest sister. "Yeah, I'm here. What is it?"
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