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DivineSaturn Vice Captain
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 Posted: Tue Jun 07, 2005 11:36 pm
DS didn't have to wait long for the boy's body to jolt underneath her hand. That was as good as an invitation, she decided, and slid another hand underneath his chest to try and help him sit up. "Are you okay Demare? You gave us quite a scare."
Clinging to DS's legs, Xue peered at the bed nervously. Friend okay now?
While he was relieved to see any kind of reaction, Karan didn't move. He wasn't sure everything was okay. In fact, he had the distinct feeling that it wasn't. Something was still very wrong. But that was silly, Demare was fine. Wasn't he?
"Dmah otay?" he asked, a bit of suspicion creeping into his small voice.
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Posted: Tue Jun 07, 2005 11:53 pm
Demare unwillingly accepted DS' help, too tired to fight it. He stayed quiet, however, slowly bringing his breaths back to normal. Gods, this really sucked... Clare sure picked a wonderful time to freak out today.
While he heard Xue's question, he didn't answer as his attention turned to Karan. His left eye was partially closed, his right narrowed like always in the permenant glare it was always in. Something was a little different, however. Upon seeing how worried the little baby looked just now, both eyes began to soften from their hard stare, unmoving as Clare's feelings wrenched at Demian's heart. He could put that kid through hell if he really wanted to, and it was just now clicking in his mind that he'd still care.
Karan wasn't like him. Karan wouldn't just take his trust and throw it out the window like he did. He wouldn't lead him to his death again...
A single tear escaped from his black eye as he spoke. "No... no, I'm not okay..." he whispered. "And I never will be... Not to a normal person's standards..."
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DivineSaturn Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Jun 21, 2005 3:28 pm
Aha! He was right, he was right, he- wait. In this case, being right wasn't necessarily a good thing. In fact, it was a very bad thing. The pleasure Karan got from being right disappeared faster than Xue's slice of pie. Now he knew that something was wrong, but he didn't know how to fix it. That wasn't good at all.
What made him feel better when he was hurting and crying? Sometimes his toys, or really yummy food. But even better was when there was someone else there, working actively to make him feel better. Someone who knew that something was wrong, and that even if they didn't know what, they wanted him better. Maybe this time he could be that person. Even if he didn't know how, he could try.
"Normalcy is highly overrated. It's also not nearly as normal as its name implies. We've all got our own muck to deal with, that's what's normal. When it gets hard, we just have to know we're not dealing with it alone."
As if in response to what his guardian was saying, Karan scooted himself closer to Demare and grabbed one of his hands, holding it tightly.
Xue darted forward to grab the other. Friend will feel better, Xue will make sure of it! 3nodding
"If you need something, you've got people to help you," DS finished, her voice soft.
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Posted: Wed Jun 22, 2005 11:44 pm
"But that's just it," he muttered, turning his bi-colored eyes toward the floor, "I am dealing with it alone, and that's the way it will always be. It's rare for anyone to be in the kind of situation I'm in, muchless for anyone to actually understand it I'm sure."
He didn't respond as Karan took hold of his hand, nor when Xue did the same. Instead, he grinded his teeth together a little bit at their guardian's statement. No... he didn't have anyone to help him. No one could possibly be able to do such a thing.
"He's not going to understand..." Demian grumbled.
There was no reply from Clare, which disturbed him a little bit.
"He's just a stupid baby. I doubt he'll even remember anything later."
There was only silence. ...Perhaps Fate was just making sure he wouldn't go back this time.
"Listen... I don't expect him to understand anything I'm about to say, but ma'am? There's something you and Karan need to know about me."
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DivineSaturn Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2005 12:22 am
Slightly puzzled, DS nodded.
Most of Demare was saying went right over Karan's head, but enough of it sank in for it to make an impression. Maybe it was Xue's loudly projecting worry and reassurances, or maybe it was the importance of the situation. Either way, it was painfully clear that his friend, his BEST friend, was hurting. And it wasn't because he bumped or scratched anything. It was more the sort of hurting that came when it was late and dark and everyone else was asleep, but he was still awake, all alone, and scared. And even though he knew people were still there- some even in the same room- it hurt all the same.
But this time he wasn't alone, it was someone else. And it wasn't late or dark, but the scared feeling was still there.
"Nah lone," he said emphatically. "Geher."
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Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2005 12:44 am
Demare hesitated for a long moment after Karan spoke, his blank eyes showing just how troubled he actually was. Even if he didn't understand it, someone had to know. Someone that would make a decision as to whether or not they'd want him around their kid again.
But how was he supposed to explain this? He'd been afraid of telling anyone for so long that it seemed difficult to just come out and say. However, ever since Wren had told him times were different... he'd begun to see that others we much more accepting than they used to be.
"I'm... not just split physically. Though, in all technicality, I'm not split only in the mind, either. I guess when... Clare and I switch places... this body appears to faint until one of use takes control of it again, as you just witnessed."
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DivineSaturn Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jun 24, 2005 11:28 pm
Karan's understanding of the situation had passed, and now all he could do was try his best to make his presence known by squeezing the hand he held tightly. He wasn't going to leave anyone alone, never!
The response didn't quite make it through to DS either, but she tried to make as much sense out of it as possible. There was a split. In body, obviously. And in mind. Switching places. Two people taking control of of one body.
Ah. So that was the story. It was an unsual one, but not altogether unheard of, especially not to her. Being the niece of a sorceress and a magic researcher had its perks, she supposed.
"That must be very hard on you," DS murmured. "Both of you. Do you have any idea how or why it happened? It takes something major for two minds to control one body..."
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Posted: Fri Jun 24, 2005 11:41 pm
Demare's white eye shifted as Karan squeezed his hand, his wings droping along his back as he lightly squeezed back.
"If we were merely two minds, that wouldn't be so bad, really," he said honestly, having known the situation of a body sharing a mind all too well from when he was by himself. After all, when he had been in full demon form, the only thing he could remember was Clare. Everything else was....
"This body... it harbors our two souls. This can't happen with any normal magic... It's possible for Gods and Goddess to do such a thing with ease, but for our kind, it's only done when necessary due to how much power it takes for it to be successful. I... I do know why it happened, and how, but I can't tell you yet. I can't tell you the reason we were reborn together until he remembers what happened."
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DivineSaturn Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jun 25, 2005 12:09 am
DS let out a low whistle. "I've never even heard of two independent souls in one body." Legends were remarkable, she knew that much, but something of this magnitude was beyond what she could imagine.
"You're right about one thing, Demare. I don't think anyone could fully understand what you're going through. But that doesn't mean people are going to let you deal with it alone. Even if they don't understand, they're going to want to do something. You haven't been alone up til now, have you? You have Neko-san and everyone at your house, your friends... and they won't just abandon you for no reason."
There was entirely too much talking going on, at least in Karan's opinion. Everything sounded long and confusing. Something about two people, and something about friends... friends were good, but why talk about them if they were right there? Or maybe Demare didn't want to be friends anymore because he got hurt?
That was silly. But... "Feends?"
It couldn't hurt to check, right?
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Posted: Sat Jun 25, 2005 12:30 am
"I wish... I could believe that," he said quietly, turning his eyes upward for a moment to look at the guardian. "You must understand, however, that our deaths were caused by someone we thought was our friend. Clare still has faith in this world, but that's not surprising due to his nature. I, however... I don't trus--"
Demare stopped, looking to Karan as the baby spoke. "...Excuse me?"
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DivineSaturn Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jun 25, 2005 1:06 am
"Feends," Karan repeated, this time more impatient. "Dmah feend."
"That's understandable. Just... don't let one experience ruin your view of life. I've seen that happen, and it's not pretty."
Standing, DS rubbed Karan's back before backing away. "I think I should check on dinner. Will you three be okay, or should I stay?"
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2005 10:47 pm
Demare was quiet for a long moment, just staring back at Karan as he seemed to merely think about that word. 'Friend'... He wanted so much to simply forget about the past.
"We'll be fine," he said to the guardian first, not turning his eyes from the baby on the bed. "I... should probably be going shortly, anyway. I'm of little use the way I currently am, and oddly enough, I'm not satisfied with that."
He closed his two bi-colored eyes for a moment, the two red ones opening just slightly so the faint glow could shine through his bangs, only noticable to Karan.
"Xue, I wanna speak with Karan alone for a minute. I really could care less if he doesn't understand me... I just want to talk to him."
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DivineSaturn Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2005 11:01 pm
Puzzled, Xue nodded and started for the door, hopes of more pie clear even after his departure. domokun
Why was everyone leaving? Weren't they going to keep playing? At least the boring talk was over, but now it looked like boring nothing. Nothing was even more boring than talk. And Demare still didn't answer. And he looked a little like when Xue made him scared that time he slept over. Was he scared? Of what?
Karan shifted nervously, though he kept his brip on Demare as tight as ever. "Dmah kay?"
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2005 11:21 pm
Once the two had left the room, Demare weakly lifted his right arm to call upon a small shadow, the small strip of darkness pushing the door partially closed. If he could help it, the child didn't want anyone else to see what he was about to show the baby.
"I want you... to be honest with me..."
As painful as it was, the Legend lifted his hand to his forehead, running his fingers through his reddish hair as he pulled it back a bit, enough to reveal his forehead, and to completely uncover the two red slits that seemed to grow a little bigger. Opening his blank eyes slowly, the two extra ones became full as he simply stared at Karan.
"Do I scare you...? Are you afraid of me at all?"
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DivineSaturn Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2005 11:36 pm
Karan stared. He didn't know exactly what he was looking at, but it didn't feel quite right. The fact that it was very red wasn't it, nor was it the scene's similarity to the picture that made Demare scared. Something about it was just wrong.
But Demare was saying he was scared? Or was he asking? It was hard to tell. But he didn't want his friend to be scared. After all, the last time he was scared, Karan protected him, right? And nothing bad happened. So he could do it again, and not be scared. Neither of them should be scared, since they could help eachother.
The last time scary things happened he was alone, and it was scary. But if there were other people around then the bad things didn't happen. So that meant that everyone would be okay. And even if bad things happened...
"No skerd. Geher. No skerd."
It was a statement meant to reassure the both of them. What Karan was seeing didn't frighten him in the least, but what he was feeling didn't feel nice. But it wasn't scary. As long as he wasn't alone this time, it was okay. And he couldn't let Demare be scared either, because Demare wouldn't want him to be scared. So they could be un-scared together.
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