She listened attentively as Kamo explained how they were born without hearts... Of course, it was the reason for the emptiness she felt, the feeling something was missing... As he continued explaining, how they didn't have feelings and how the mind tricked them, to thinking they could... And how they used facial expressions to express those 'would-be-emotions-if-they-were-complete', Xenros's words came to her mind,
It may feel odd at first, but you'll get used to it.
First I should warn you not to be surprised if you attempt to express emotions.
It won't be the same.
Yet her thoughts remained the same as before... Just how did Xenros, Kamo, and Xigukamo... come to that? Where their mind could trick them to feel something, when there was nothing? How did they do it? Whatever it was, it was missing too...
She listened on as he said she could see who they really were, no matter the numbers they were or the weapon they wielded. So they were labeled by the numbers they were given? His words made her think. Her light had indeed reached Xigukamo... She felt it. They had met beyond the darkness, beyond the nature of their forces repelling each other, where they could connect. And she was able to also connect with Kamo... That ' something' in their eyes was a reflection of their soul... And she had the ability to see that 'something'... Sadness? That's what Kamo called it. It hurt? She felt that 'hurt'... when the darkness had attacked her, it had burned. And then the burst of energy. She felt it, physically. It was pain.
"My light had harmed him... "she explained.
"I could sense it... When it had quieted the darkness... But It cast shadows then became a powerful flare... It harmed him... Both of us."She thought out loud."On the outside there were no marks imprinted on him, neither on the inside, as our auras connected... I didn't sense any sign of injury... Yet he fed the shadows inside him, with more darkness... To feel pain..."she blinked thoughtfully. "Sadness... The sadness in his eyes... It harms without injury? The sadness is one of the shadows that harmed him, one of the shadows he was feeding, with the flame of the darkness that binds him... I created that shadow... I made him feel, Sadness? "she asked questioningly, she still did not quite know, about the essence of emotions, how they affected one's being, the soul, and not the body. All she knew was the differences of light and darkness, how they felt physically, and the effects they caused, internally and externally, but physically.
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"Now that we are both here, let me walk with you. I'm sure together we can find our way. "
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Destination: The World That Never Was--->The Castle that Never Shall Be--->Training Room Mood/Status: curious/energized/reflecting/pondering Thoughts: sadness is strange... Company: Kamo
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My True Self sleeps...
Inara...
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OOC: ( The key is memory. The others are able to express themselves with false feelings because they remember feelings and emotions from their original selves. Those feelings aren't their own true feelings. Nobodies don't have any. They're just 'ghost feelings' they get, based on the memories of their past lives. Xinara doesn't have those memories. The only pain she knows for now is physical pain. It's why she flinched when Kamo fell on his face, she knew it must have hurt (physically) )
~Xigukamo from an alternate universe~ // NOBODY // "Aw. c'mon guys! Don't get it twisted, we're nothing to begin with."
Kamo listened to the girl explain the events that led to Xigukamo's sadness and sudden disappearance. She was going overboard with the whole thing so Kamo decided to put the blame on Xigukamo. He allowed for himself to feel sadness. I'm guessing he knew that you would cause him pain.. After this whole training session, did the idiot say something like "oh I knew what I was getting into" or something along those lines? Don't worry too much about that big baby Xinara-chan~ You've got to worry about yourself first alright? He said while patting down on the girl's head. After all, Kamo knew his alternate self better than anyone else would. Shifting the blame on Xigukamo was true in a sense that he would actually inflict pain and suffering to himself. Yada yada, why is that man so stubborn? Maybe I should just kill him so that he can return to his normal body! Oh, no.. That wouldn't be much fun now would it? Kamo knew a whole ton of things that this universe hasn't experienced yet but he kept those secrets to himself. For a happy person, Kamo is a mysterious nobody..
OOC: DUN DUN DUN! Is there more than meets the eye with Kamo? Well you'll find out in the next episode of Organization XIII xDDD jkjk. "The key is memory" indeed. *cough cough* that's a hint you should remember for later *cough cough*
Xinara stared at him again, not quite understanding his words that described Xigukamo as a 'big baby' and an 'idiot'... Or what he meant with advising her to worry about herself rather than worrying about Xigukamo. She did not know 'Worry'. Kamo really is something mysterious, and curious, she thought as she felt him pat her head, not understanding what was behind that gesture. It was odd, and fascinating. Just like how he had wrapped his arms around her when they met, and then when he spun her around...
"You're very curious, Kamo."she admitted.
"Its really strange, and interesting... your way is much, much different than the others. I might not be able to really understand it..."She said."but... Don't change that."
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"Now that we are both here, let me walk with you. I'm sure together we can find our way. "
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Destination: The World That Never Was--->The Castle that Never Shall Be--->Training Room Mood/Status: curious/energized/reflecting/pondering Thoughts: Kamo is strange... Different from the others... But very interesting... I like it... Company: Kamo
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My True Self sleeps...
Inara...
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OOC: ( xD lol. Kamo, that was messed up. Oh yeah and on a side note, Xinara did not show worry. It was just her thinking out loud. Piecing things together. : ) )
~Xigukamo from an alternate universe~ // NOBODY // "Aw. c'mon guys! Don't get it twisted, we're nothing to begin with."
Kamo laughed violently at Xinara's comment. You think I'm curious? AHAHAHA! I think you're the curious one! He continued laughing while rolling back and forth on the ground until he got dizzy and stopped. W-Well, it's always good to be different in this world.. Oh god, I'm so dizzy dude~ He said while mimicking a hippy. The nobody stayed on the ground and didn't peep a word for a good couple of minutes. He made his stomach hurt so bad he didn't want to risk throwing up. Well, that definitely backfired! Har har har... oh s**t. Kamo slowly crawled his way to Xinara. When he got to her feet, he brushed off the feeling of throwing up and posed like how a model would for a photo shot. Say kiddo, what's your favorite number from 1-13? I'm just curious about your answer, that's all. Oh, don't mind me, I'm just posing just in case all the hot nobodies come in and see my package. Meow~ Besides the fact that Kamo was acting strangely, he would decide what number would be hers. She hadn't been assigned a number yet so why not give her one now? Who cares what the grumpy boss-man has to say!
OOC: I gotcha, and sorry for taking a while to post :c I've been busy with a whole ton of other RPs BUT keep a lookout for Xigukamo's update in the alternate universe! I'll be sure to make a post about it soon, I'm just brainstorming what to write about razz
Xinara watched Kamo as he had a fit on the floor. What was that? He is so strange... Then he stopped and he was quiet all of a sudden.. Was that normal? She continued to watch him as he crawled back to her, then got up and posed. His posture was stranger still... why was he standing like that? She blinked at him when he asked her what her favorite number was...
"Favorite?..."she paused.
"I'm not sure. But, if it means anything, now that you asked, three numbers called to me from all the others."She said."two, seven and nine. "
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"Now that we are both here, let me walk with you. I'm sure together we can find our way. "
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Destination: The World That Never Was--->The Castle that Never Shall Be--->Training Room Mood/Status: curious/energized/reflecting/pondering Thoughts: hmm? Company: Kamo
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My True Self sleeps...
Inara...
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OOC: ( no problem! : ) I know ppl get busy sometimes, I understand. So don't worry about it.
Is the alternate universe the other rp in the love fantasy action guild?
Also! The numbers thingy was odd. I pictured them in my mind, and those were the three that stayed in my mind *shrug* Eenie meenie miney mo... X) )
~Xigukamo from an alternate universe~ // NOBODY // "Aw. c'mon guys! Don't get it twisted, we're nothing to begin with."
Kamo gasped as he heard the numbers Xinara told him. Well, out of all those numbers you chose, You'll be my number one! No way could you be my number two, seven, or nine! You're worth more than those numbers~ He gently poked the girl's nose and stopped posing. Kamo was strange but sometimes he really goes over the top. Now.. He said while clapping his hands together. I'm going to teach you a magic trick, are you ready? He asked while sticking his hand out. A small orb of light appeared on his palm and gradually became larger as he stretched his fingers out. The orb's size was equivalent to his whole hand before it stopped growing. Then bam! The orb dispersed into then wavy strands of light and ended with a small firework of sparkling colors. It was literally a small light show that could also be used as a weapon. Kamo jumped in excitement. I love showing people that! It's so friendly and cute~ He chuckled. The power of light is indeed a fun thing to play around with.
OOC: Yes and no, the alternate universe was started there but I stopped replying in that RP once I got Kamo into this guild. sweatdrop I didn't know which number I wanted to assign Xinara with so she's Kamo's number one personally c:
She was his number one?she only stared at him, puzzled... Kamo said a lot of strange things, she had yet to figure them out. To figure him out. It was kind of wearing her out.. She let her mind digress on the mystery of Kamo's ways as she watched him create an orb of light in his hand, that burst into a small display of colorful explosion. Warmth flooded through her, watching it. She could sense it also seemed to take an effect on Kamo, as she felt his aura brighten and reached to embrace her own. It was contagious, and she felt her aura brighten as well.
"the light... its.. magic..."she said thoughtfully.
"I could feel it... the light."She then held out her own hand, palm up."how did you do that? "She wondered aloud, as she focused and willed to shift the energy she felt to the center of her palm. In a heartbeat, the rush of warmth traveled from within her, down her arm, to her hand. Her fingers tingled.
In her palm, an orb of dim light started to take form and levitated over it. She focused to bring out more energy, the sphere of light gradually became brighter, and the light from Lunar Blossom became dimmer as she channeled more light into her palm, causing it to disappear.
She watched, awed, as it seemed like the small sun grew bigger and it's brightness intensified, contaminating the room with warmth. The high pressure inside the sphere caused it to burst like a bubble.The energy hit Xinara like a stretched rubber band. She gasped, feeling the pain and ached all over in that brief moment. However, as the sphere had shattered, the tiny pieces fell like sparkling glitter, seeming like falling stars, absorbing back into her palm, healing the ache, and restoring her energy. "I couldn't hold it..."control was something she had to work on.
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"Now that we are both here, let me walk with you. I'm sure together we can find our way. "
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Destination: The World That Never Was--->The Castle that Never Shall Be--->Training Room Mood/Status: curious/energized/reflecting/pondering Thoughts: hmm? Company: Kamo
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My True Self sleeps...
Inara...
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OOC: ( Aww. X) Softie. I looked up the numbers, because it was odd those particular three attract me, and I have no idea why. Anyway, I found something shockingly scary, yet awesome.
A dark corridor opened up and out came Xigukamo in his usual laid-back manner. The people and shops of Radiant Garden were hyped up as usual. Everyone appeared cheerful and at peace. No wonder Kamo acts this way around everyone in his universe.. Xigukamo made his way through the shops and headed straight for Merlin's place. That was the place where he always met up with Modoka when he came to visit. Quickly cutting the corner, Xigukamo watched as his friend watered the flowers that blossomed in front of Merlin's place. He couldn't help but smile. It reminded him so much of his past life. Xigukamo crossed his arms and leaned on a nearby wall, watching Modoka. Yo. He whistled at her. Modoka was startled then quickly turned towards the direction of the familiar whistle. Xigukamo! She gently set down the water pot and sped over to Xigukamo to give him a hug. It felt warm bubbly. The light was almost as same as Xinara's. Where have you been ya big dummy? She asked him. I haven't seen you in weeks! Xigukamo looked over to the side and brushed over his nose, trying to make a serious expression. S-Sorry, I've been busy with work. The boss hired someone new, so I'm in charge of showing her around and whatnot. He truly felt happy besides the fact that in this universe, Modoka knew him as Xigukamo not Kougami. Modoka slapped his chest, jealous that the person he was showing around was a girl. The new employee is a girl eh? I bet she's much prettier than me right? No wonder it took you so long to come visit.. You jerk! She released her hug on him and walked away, obviously jealous. Xigukamo remained leaning on the wall, he had nothing to worry about. Don't take it the wrong way Modoka, I'm just showing her around. Getting her use to the organization and stuff.. Modoka and Xinara were both strangely similar in appearance though, it kind of gave him the creeps. Yeah, yeah. Whatever you say Mr. cool guy! She giggled. Xigukamo laughed along with her but he wasn't here for fun and games, he needed advice about something.
((OOC: I knew about the first link but the second link is very interesting. It reminds me of back when I used to trip on acid and meditate ahaha. And this little Xigukamo & Modoka thing is gonna be 3 posts long. So after this post, I'll post as Kamo a couple times then back to the two c: ))
~Xigukamo from an alternate universe~ // NOBODY // "Aw. c'mon guys! Don't get it twisted, we're nothing to begin with."
Kamo agreed with Xinara she noted that the light is magic. Yes, yes. Beautiful magic kiddo. He watched in excitement as she attempted to do what he just did. Her orb of light gradually grew bigger and brighter, it hyped him up to the point that he began jumping up and down. Yes, YESSSSSS! You got this Xinara-chan~! The orb's appearance reminded him of a cute bubble and just when it was ready to be launched into fireworks, the bubble shattered. The energy hit Xinara but also healed her when the orb broke. Not only was it a light to attack with but also a light to heal with. If she were to master this technique one day, she could simultaneously heal herself while firing the energies of light. Impressive! She's always surprising Kamo back and forth. Hey, it's alright if you couldn't hold it together. It is only your first try! You see, not only do you have to focus the light into your palm but also on your finger tips as well. That way the light on your palm can build up while the light within your fingertips can guard the orb allowing it to grow. And once the orb is large enough, the light in your fingertips can be used as homing missiles for your fireworks. I know, I know. It all sounds confusing now but it'll all make sense soon enough. Kamo said with a smile. He loved being the teacher, he was wayyyy better than Xigukamo would ever be.
"hmm..."she considered Kamo's words, lifting her hand up again, and concentrated.
"I'll try it again."she said. She was determined to perform how Kamo had done. She was certain that he had begun like her at one point, so if Kamo could do it, then she could. She firmly believed it.They weren't so different, so she should be just as capable. She was eager to prove it. And that will, made it much easier to call and command her light much quicker.
The orb formed, much brighter and nearly blinding, taking less time to fully develop. It had taken alot more energy, and as quickly as it came to be, Xinara felt herself loosing her hold on it. She willed to reduce the amount of light she was giving off, before the orb would break just as quickly as it appeared...
There had to be a balanced amount of it within the orb in order for her to keep it together. She drew in a breath, and closed her eyes. As her aura relaxed, the light dimmed to a warm, comforting glow down to a candle light feel. She opened her eyes again after a few moments, focused solely on holding the orb as it was, floating over her palm.
Her energy was slipping away agin, she could only bear it for three seconds. Before it completely left her she hastily focused more energy into the orb, resulting it to grow and brighten just as before, and in a flash of light, as it left her, the outside of the orb absorbed to the core, disappearing into a small trail of light that shot upward above both their heads then suddenly bursting out of the empty air as an explosion of glittering particles of light that rained down on her and Kamo.
Her aura brightened, and her insides warmed, watching how the sparks fell all around the room. The explosion had been single, and much larger than Kamo's, the light caressed and eased and soothed as it was absorbed by everything it touched. She had failed to manipulate it to be exactly like Kamo's. It would take much more practice to master that. But she realized something else. She blinked over at Kamo as the sparks of light faded away."I was able to control how much light to put out this time... "She said. "It didn't hurt me this time. But I still have to work on its form."
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"Now that we are both here, let me walk with you. I'm sure together we can find our way. "
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Destination: The World That Never Was--->The Castle that Never Shall Be--->Training Room Mood/Status: curious/energized/reflecting/pondering Thoughts: hmm? Company: Kamo
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My True Self sleeps...
Inara...
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OOC: ( it was mind boggling and eerie. I was like emotion_jawdrop
As for shifting posts: ok, got it. : )
As for Kamo: X) oh man, I love that guy. Awesomness and brightness totally makes my day. <3 The world seriously needs more Kamos. )
~Xigukamo from an alternate universe~ // NOBODY // "Aw. c'mon guys! Don't get it twisted, we're nothing to begin with."
Kamo watched again as Xinara attempted to do better than her first try. She was quite determined and Kamo liked that. The girl was beginning to use her feelings more naturally without thinking about it. The orb she summoned this time was twice as large as the first and exploded with light glittering particles that rained down on both of them. Kamo began clapping slowly then at full blast. That's my Xinara! He began tearing up so he reached into his pocket and pulled out a handkerchief to wipe his tears. The moment was absolutely beautiful. Kamo was honestly moved. Xinara's light was something special, she could probably set things right in this world. He believed that she had to power to. Yes, yes. It didn't hurt you this time. *sniffle sniffle* You're progressing smoothly. You'll be able to use your light as easy as cooking instant noodles. He was so proud that he felt like a father who had just seen his child first walk. Kamo held his hand out and summoned his keyblade. Lost Memory. He flipped his keyblade around so that Xinara could see the hilt and keychain. This keychain and the one I gave you are exactly the same. With the help of some acquaintances back in my world, they helped me forged a way to warp my keyblade through space and time. The concept is quite hard to understand but to sum things up, I gave you the ability to use my keyblade when I'm not here in this world. If you ever ran into trouble, something amazing will happen right? He quoted himself with a chuckle. Kamo was also determined to keep his precious Xinara out of harms way. I also do not need a keyblade to be a strong opponent. I have a special armor that I use to fight with. My keyblade is just a bonus! Har har har. Kamo wouldn't show his special armor off yet, only when he really needed to use it.
OOC: Sorry about taking so long to reply, I bought Dynasty warriors 8 today and I've been having a ******** blast! c:< I'm taking a break from the game for now~
Kamo's eyes had changed. They were watery, and he pulled out a handkerchief to dry them. Yet his words were approving of her progress, she was learning quickly. Yet to figure out the display of emotions he vividly expressed, would take more time to understand... the determination she had shown was more of the manifestation of energy through her will, instead of pride triggering her determination, as it normally would be with anyone else who was capable of feeling pride.
Pride was something that Xinara lacked.
The chain dangled and clinked from her fingers as she held up the small heart-shaped charm Kamo had given her, comparing it to the one on his keyblade. Then she looked up at him as he said he really didn't need his keyblade, and that he had armor.
"How is that so?"she asked him curiously. It was quite interesting how he explained there was a way she could use his keyblade, even when he wasn't around in this world. She blinked at him. No one had explained to her yet, that there existed other worlds than this one.
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"Now that we are both here, let me walk with you. I'm sure together we can find our way. "
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Destination: The World That Never Was--->The Castle that Never Shall Be--->Training Room Mood/Status: curious/energized/pondering Thoughts: Through space and time?... Kamo is from another world? Company: Kamo
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My True Self sleeps...
Inara...
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OOC: (Nice. X D and sorry for taking long as well. I've been pretty busy. I start working tommorow, but I'll try to be here as often as I can. You can count on me coming here to post. I promise I shall always reply to your posts. ^_^ )
