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 Posted: Sun Feb 16, 2014 8:53 pm
"We had a cat named Pepper. I really liked her. She would hang with me late at night when no one was awake. I liked to think she saw what I saw, but she was a old cat. What I really wanted was a dog, but that never happened because mother was afraid of dogs, and my dad didn't want to upset her." He said, and his tight grip on Rin's hand relaxed.
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 3:27 am
"Shame we can't go back like this. All that repressed wanting; we'd end up with a massive dog kennel and a huge flock of whatever birds I could coax to stay a while." She chuckled softly at the ridiculous mental picture that gave. "For now, I guess I'm satisfied at least just being able to eat anything that resembled a bird ever and not ground up re-formed mush." She sighed, tucking away a bit of sadness, "close enough I suppose."
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 6:27 am
"It will be much better than just that. Even I got excited when I researched this place." He glanced out to the garden's from the windows that made up the restaurants outer walls, and smiled. "It has a great view too." He said, looking back at her. His hand squeezed her's once more.
"I was hoping someone would find a way to make the towns safer. I really wouldn't mind living in my own house. Maybe even barter for a minipet tank if that is something you'd like." He glanced at Rin, not sure if she was keen on the idea. "But for now, a bigger apartment is what I'm looking forward for us. I got a sneak peek at Otto's and the place is absolutely ridiculous in how massive it is. His closet probably takes up half my room." He wanted to beat the little blonde just for being that privileged but knew it came out of hard work and just living this long.
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 7:39 am
Rin smirked challengingly at Melvin. "It isn't long now. My promotion is up soon and I am going to be requesting a nice big bathroom. Like... um... Clarice used to have." She looked sad for just a moment before looking back to the beautiful garden view. She heaved a light sigh before squeezing his hand and looking back to him. "I'm proud of you, by the way."
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 8:00 am
He squeezed back. "I went back on my old medication and .. Have been trying to do little things. I wanted to get this far for tonight." He took a deep, calming breath. "Maybe more." He looked up at her.
"I know it's been hard on you, and I want to make it easier. I know you don't want to fix me, but it doesn't make you happy either. I want you to be happy."
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 8:56 am
"I want us both to be happy," Rin corrected with her own feelings on the matter. "I just have to ask. To be sure. I know you avoided medication for a reason, I just want to be sure that reason isn't going to hurt you more?"
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 9:44 am
"I debated it for a while, but in the long run, not being on medication isn't helping anyone. I thought that once I was on the island, not taking medication would be justified and all my other habits would just fix themselves once I got all the answers I needed. That someone would give me a big textbook explaining everything and for whatever reason, my brain would just switch back to normal and all my habits would die. That my head would finally get it. It hasn't, and by myself, I can just work around them. It doesn't hurt me that often when it's just me. I built my entire life around that."
His thumb moved over her hand, stroking it lightly. "It's not helping us though, and it's getting in the way of things. I don't want you to get tired of it." Or more importantly, of him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 3:04 pm
"I see," Rin watched his face curiously for a while in dead silence. After a while of that she slid her gaze to their hands embraced in that slightly awkward but determined gesture. "You are brave you know," she finally spoke with a slight crack of a smirk.
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 5:41 pm
Surprised, he felt himself flush from that. "Brave? I...wouldn't really call it that. I just popped some pills. You are the one who decided to stick by me. Not a lot of people would put up with that. I consider that more brave than what I've been doing." Rin put up with WAY more s**t than he did. He had been getting his way and getting laid. Rin was putting up with a guy who constantly made her tired or tense.
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Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2014 7:13 pm
"You are brave enough to admit there's a problem. Then you have the courage to do something about it too. Denial is easy, what you've done so far... well. Isn't." She gently caressed his fingertips that hooked under her hand with her thumb. "You're very attractive when you try new things I hope you know." Smirk.
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Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2014 8:18 am
He smiled and looked down at their hands. Barren of fabric, and felt a sense of accomplishment still mixed with the anxiety from before. "I never liked taking pills. Getting back on them makes me feel like a quitter sometimes. Like I couldn't handle it on my own."
He rubbed his thumb against her palm. "But if I can do just this, then it doesn't make that seem that bad."
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Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2014 8:51 am
"The exact opposite. Quitting is not trying everything you could to get where you wanted to be." Rin's gaze shot to the table thoughtfully. "Sort of like... using a sword to fight a dragon instead of your bare hands. You are still fighting, just using better tools for your goal."
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Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2014 9:14 am
He smiled at her and her attempt to make him feel better about taking medication. Lifting her hand, he placed the other on top, smiling at her. "Thank you. I really appreciate that."
Remembering that this was supposed to be more a day between making Rin feel good just as much as him, he looked her in the eyes and tried to think of something romantic and relevant to the conversation. "You have a way with words." He then cringed. "That....sounded less clique in my head."
Somewhere, Saliva was laughing.
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Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2014 11:34 am
"You do too." Rin laughed before shifting as close as the table allowed. "What's your favourite colour handsome?"
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Posted: Tue Feb 18, 2014 4:21 pm
He smiled bit also felt a bit silly they were only just now covering the basics. "Yellow. I like bright colors." But not offensive bright like the neon vomit Harrison sorted. "You? I hope it's red. You pull it off very well." He said with a smile.
Their starter courses arrived and Melvin released his grip to allow her only free hand to eat. Under the cover of the tablecloth, Melvin wiped his hands clean. Small steps.
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