Nerrisa was vaguley surprised by how close and approachable the Goddess appeared, but she was even more surprised that what was asked for she happened to have. She slowly withdrew the fragment, it was just a useless trinket to her, and perhaps whatever the Goddess was offering to show her would help her finally answer some of her questions. She reached up and handed over the fragment, she had already forgotten what she'd heard when she'd first touched it.
She blinked as Ruin twisted about and stood, her wings spread, her scythe appeared, and everything slowly darkened. Darker, darker, she tried to see but soon the darkness was…
She gave a little shiver, it was chilly in here, she shifted in her seat and wished she was sitting on something a bit softer. She looked across the desk at the shadow and blinked at the words.
"Are you entirely sure about this? Once you go, there is a chance you may not come back."
She opened her mouth and realized that she wasn't fully in control she was…oh this was her, she spoke. "I'm sure, it's important enough to take that chance."
What was? Was it?
She heard the sigh and suddenly a blank piece of paper and a pen were being pushed towards her. "Very well. Take a moment to write a letter to those you care for. There is a chance you might not come back. Did you think I was joking? This is serious. Write your good-byes, the things you never said. If you don't make it... I'll make sure that your words are received."
She shivered because she wasn't sure if that was possible, to say everything in a mere letter? Still she took the pen and thought for a moment before carefully starting to write in her usual elegant pink script.
Quote:
My Raven,
If you are reading this I fear it means good-bye, I hate to think that I'll never see you again, but I must believe that even if I am gone you go on. How can I ever find the words to make you understand that I love you in every way possible? I struggle to find the courage to ask that you deliver my love and apologies to my parents, I know such a task will be hard for you and for them, but I need to know that someone who knew me, someone who loved me as much as they did would give them the news and not some unknown cold report. While I am continuing my selfish streak I ask that you look after Julian and Lumi, they can of course take care of themselves but I hope that you would continue our friendship with them, let them console you as much as you console them? I cannot bear to think of you alone and I swear to you that I tried so hard to make it back to you. Do not let my departure be in vain, do not allow yourself to withdraw wounded, do not let me be forgotten. Selfish to the end aren't I?
I will never forget the first time I received a letter from you that unexpected eee!mail that changed everything for me. I treasure it, I treasure every word you ever wrote me, every question that helped me unlock who I was. I want you to know that every moonlit picnic we shared, every night you played my song, each time you soothed my fears were what made my life worth living, what made me want to fight to save the things and people we cared about.
I end this letter on a practical note, if you are able and I am gone then I will need you to ensure the care of my minipets, please find someone who will love and spoil the Unmentionables as much as I did, please make sure that my poor closet relegated minipets have a chance to come out. As for my wardrobe, there are a number of unique designer gowns and I would like them donated to Junko let them inspire her or let her sell them for charity or to fund her designer ambitions. Naturally all my personal effects are yours if you desire them, and my holdings and the rest my parents will no doubt handle in their own fashion. Enclosed are a few short cards, thanks for those who have helped or inspired me most, if you could deliver them.
I hope that none of this is the case my raven, I hope that right now we're reading this together and your chastising me for ever putting myself at risk, but if not…
If you're reading this it's because I'm home in your heart and though you won't see me anymore we'll always be together.
Please don't close your heart my raven, know that I would want your love to be able to touch someone as much as it touched me someday.
I love you always,
Your Swan
Sin Err
She looked up as she signed the letter and the shadow before her wavered, she blinked as color started to spot before her eyes and then SHE was there. Nerrisa watched as the paper was taken and the Goddess spoke.
"These words aren't for you. You don't need to think about them. Not again. Do not let them worry you, you will not be forgotten."
The pen was easily slipped from her fingers and the memory slipped with it…the memory of…of…had she written something to someone just now?
She watched as the Goddess of Ruin folded and tucked away a paper and she shivered slightly moving to go and feeling slightly saddened that she couldn't recall.
