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 Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 8:19 pm
"Mm?" Ritsu looked up at the male. The suggestion made sense. He couldn't seem to find a comfortable spot where he wasn't touching him, but on the other hand while he wanted Alamar to move a bigger part of him wanted him to stay close.
"No....I-it's fine...." Ritsu had a difficult time controlling this breathing. He didn't want Alamar to see the effect he was having over him. He might think it was weird and leave all together. Who even knew if this feeling was natural. Nothing else about Ritsu was normal, so this feeling very well might follow his strange ways.
"I would....p-prefer for you to...s-stay close....to me..." He said in a small voice, his face flushing with color.
(i know....i love being this fox though! so cute)
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 8:34 pm
Stay close to me. The words ripped through Alamar’s mind like a hurricane. Alamar stood up not being able to lay down any more. You don’t know what you are asking Ritsu. I did not realize this myself until a short time ago, but I am more shameful than you know. For my thoughts alone I do not think I will be able to return to my home in Tzara. If I did and my father knew my desires I would be disowned at any rate. Alamar headed back to the small pool in the back of Ritsu’s lair and splashed water on his face with his paws trying desperately in vain to cool himself and clear his mind. He had almost pounced Ritsu right then and there. How could he teach Ritsu to stand on his own when Alamar was losing his self control?
(I will admit it is fun)
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 8:47 pm
"H-have i.....done something wrong?" Ritsu looked up sadly as Alamar moved away from him, "Shameful?" He looked baffled. What had the male done that upset him this much. He didn't understand what had happened.
A breeze flew in from outside and Ritsu shivered at the loss of heat beside him. But it was more then the heat he missed. Suddenly everything became clear to him. All these feelings he was experiencing were attraction. He was attracted to Alamar. It seemed so far fetched because they had only met earlier this day, but it was true. He knew Alamar was different.
Alamar had shown him more kindness in one day then he had experienced in his entire life. It felt so natural to be drawn to the male. But clearly it was making Alamar feel uncomfortable around him.
"I-I'm sorry Alamar...." He looked down, trying to mask the pain in his eyes, "I've made you.....feel uncomfortable.....You may leave if you wish.....You don't have to stay and teach me anything...I....I don't want you not to be able to go home because of me...." He covered his face with his paws, close to tears but pushing them away. He had already humiliated himself enough. There was no point in fueling the fire.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:09 pm
Alamar froze. He slowly turned his head and looked at Ristu. The other male seemed so small, huddled as he was with his paws over his eyes. The pieces clicked in Alamar’s mind. He wasn’t the only one with an attraction in the den. That changed a few things. Not everything. Still it made the situation bearable. The ache in Alamar’s body to be close to Ritsu had not subsided, but with it compassion had come out.
Ritsu was releasing him from his bonded promise and allowing him to leave free and clear all so Alamar could return home with his honor intact. This fact alone made Alamar want to bash his skull into the side of the den. How could I be so careless and foolish? I should have paid more attention to Ritsu. I should have looked for signs that I was not the only one with these feelings. Instead I acted selfishly and more shamefully than before. How could I do this to him?
Alamar walked slowly to Ritsu’s side with his head feeling light and empty for the first time all night. He abandoned all sense of protocol and wrapped Ritsu in a hug ending up with his over the back of Risu’s neck. I’m not going anywhere. I am sorry for my actions Ritsu. I would be disowned for even thinking of pairing with an outworlder anyway so I might as well stay and remain happy. I could always send word and speak with my mother through trade routes. She is the only one I left behind in Tzara. It is no loss to me. Not like leaving you would be. Alamar did not mean to but he squeezed Ritsu on this last sentence.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:23 pm
Ritsu was so immersed in trying to fight off tears that he jumped slightly when Alamar walked over to him. He was beyond surprised when the male laid down next to him, intimating laying next to him. He was once again lost because he thought the starry fox had been upset about his feelings.
"Ali...." His soft voice rang out in the cave. He wrapped his tail around the male, finally leaning into the hug. All the tension left his body and he felt slightly light headed, a soft smile creeping over his face. "You'll stay?" He lifted his head and looked Alamar in the face, "You'll stay with me?" He felt his heart expanding in his chest, beating faster then it had ever before. He wasn't sure what the future would hold for them, but for the moment knowing that Alamar would stay with him was enough.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:41 pm
Alamar could not help but savor the contact he felt with Ritsu in the moment. It was enough to make him euphoric. All he wanted to do was to stay here forever locked with Ritsu. It was an impractical desire he knew but still it was one that was in no rush to prove right but letting go of Ritsu. It felt strange to find a fox that made him feel this whole.
Ritsu’s soft voice seemed so loud in the cave and as Ritsu leaned into Alamar’s embrace Alamar wondered why he had not given into his feelings before this moment and done this sooner. Although Ritsu would have probably been surprised if Alamar had jumped from looking like asleep to pouncing hugging fiend. Alamar nuzzled Ritsu softly. Of course I shall stay. I can not think of any other outworlder fox I would stay with except for you Ristu. Alamar basked for moment in the simple pleasure of being near Ritsu; the delicate smell of the flowers in the cave danced to Alamar's nose mixing with the scent of Ritsu's fur.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 9:51 pm
He felt like he was flying, and though he realized that he was not a phim and therefore had no wings, it made no difference to him. Alamar had made him so transcendentally happy that he head was swimming in the clouds. He was going to stay with him. "Ali...." Ritsu spoke softly, his voice almost lyrical.
"Mm...." He smiled from ear to ear, sliding his head against Alamar's neck. He couldn't seem to get close enough to the male. He had the strangest impulses to snuggle and nuzzle the starry fox all night. Was this what it felt like to be in love? He wondered. The concept had been so foreign to him only yesterday.
Meekly, he looked back at Alamar and licked his cheek. "T-that makes me very happy."
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:11 pm
Alamar was having trouble breathing normally he wanted to pounce Ritsu and snuggle constantly trying to get closer the other male. Ritsu was not making that easy calling Alamar by his nickname that made Alamar shiver, and squeeze him tighter. Then when Ritsu slid his head along Alamar he almost lost it. Only the sake of giving Ritsu some space to breathe and relax was keeping Alamar in check. Alamar felt out of control, and he liked it. Seeing Ritsu look at him so submissively Alamar took a breath and tried to calm himself only to have that shattered as Ritsu liked his cheek. As soon as Ritsu spoke admitting he was happy all Alamar could say was Me too. Before losing all semblance of sense and nuzzling Ristu and snuggling with the brown male unable to contain his joy.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 10:30 pm
"Eeeeee....." Ritsu giggled happily as he nuzzled his starry fox back enthusiastically. He couldn't remember the last time he had laughed so hard, or felt so happy. He had met the fox of his dreams, and the best part of it was that Alamar felt the same way about him.
"Ali..." He said warmly, his voice full of love and appreciation. Then he nuzzled his face against the starry foxes chest. He couldn't seem to stop himself now that the door had been opened, he titled his head up and kissed the male above him, tenderly. Everything about Ritsu's movements were tender, feminine like. He nuzzled, and made soft little sounds of contentment as he snuggled with his Ali.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 11:13 pm
Hearing Ritsu giggle only prompted Alamar to seek out any ticklish spots that Ritsu might have. It was entertaining to see what kinds of sound Ritsu would make if Alamar tapped him in one spot or nuzzled him in another. Soon enough he was wrapped tightly to Ritsu and content.
Alamar looked down when Ritsu called for him. He was dazed when Ritsu kissed him. He felt like jumping off a cliff and cuddling at the same time. It was simply fantastic. Ritsu. Alamar’s voice was thick with love and compassion for the smaller male. He continued to snuggle with Ritsu taking pleasure in every breath and touch they shared together. It was the first time in Alamar’s life that he felt complete and he hope the rest of his life would be like this.
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 11:21 pm
His name had never been more seductive or alluring then when he came from Alamar's lips. His entire body hummed with pleasure as he curled around the other male until he wasn't sure he began and Alamar ended. It was blissful to just lie there and stare into his beautiful eyes, shinning at him with so much love it made him want to weep with happiness.
"I....I never....dreamed this could happen to me..." He whispered, his voice full of awe. "Thank you Ali." He wasn't sure what he was thanking him for, everything he supposed. The whole day. It had been the most perfect time of his entire life.
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Posted: Fri Jan 07, 2011 11:14 am
Feeling every beat of Ritsu’s heart so close to his own made Alamar wonder how if this was how it was for all outworlders when they were in love. Growing up in Tzara he was family with a council of adjudicators arguing for days before coming to a conclusion and arranging a mated union between two foxes of the noble houses. His own father had one union is such a manner. After the first wife passed leaving behind a daughter, Alamar’s father Trisk was free to select any vixen he so desired to pair with. To Alamar this was simply the way life was. To have a mate by one’s choice alone was incredible. Here he had found Ritsu and had agreed to stay with Ritsu. This few in the face of all the years of Alamar’s life. No council arguing if it was a properly matched pair. No rules of conduct when it came to courting. It felt so very strange. Here Ritsu was thanking him telling Alamar this was more than the brown fox could have dreamed for. No Ritsu, thank you. You have no idea how much you given me. Alamar kissed Ritsu tenderly silently thanking the modities for letting him cross paths with a fox that could set him free.
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Posted: Fri Jan 07, 2011 12:56 pm
Ritsu blushed at the compliment. This was all so new and unusual to him, but in a good way. When his own parents had rejected who he was, he didn't think anyone would ever accept him. But Alamar had done that and more. He accepted him, he loved him. it was more then he could have ever asked for.
"Mm....I....I don't even know what to say...." His tail was wagging happily and he couldn't wipe the grin from his face. The he remembered he'd been thinking all this in his head, but never said it out loud. "I....I.....love you Ali...." He said in his soft, musically voice.
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Posted: Fri Jan 07, 2011 4:12 pm
I know Ritsu. I love you also. Alamar liked seeing Ritsu smile. The brown male was so soft and so feminine in so many aspects that it was hard for Alamar to think of him as a male fox at times. Still it did not matter to Alamar if Ritsu was male or female. All the star colored fox knew was that he loved Ritsu and would stay by Ritsu’s side no matter what.
You know we really should get some sleep. Tomorrow so long as you’re paw is ok I’ll take you fishing with me. Alamar yawned and nuzzled Ritsu. Tomorrow.. Tomorrow.. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life next to the fox I love.
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Posted: Fri Jan 07, 2011 4:28 pm
A warmth bloomed inside him from those three little words. He was loved. Alamar loved him. He nuzzled the starry male back, sighing in contentment as he laid his head on his back and closed his eyes.
"I like fish...." He smiled and yawned widely. "Tomorrow.....fish...." He mumbled softly, drifting off into a deep sleep, snuggled up to the fox that he loved more then anything else in the world.
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