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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 6:20 pm
Em was practically writhing with the confusion.
"Oi, no sweetie," she said, speaking apologetically to Amaya, "I didn't mean you. I was talking about Angelina. I'm sorry I wasn't clearer! I wouldn't hurt your feelings like that." She reached out and put a comforting hand on the joint of her arm. Then she waited for Ambrose to finish speaking, and spoke... a little less... apologetically to him.
"And as for you, I wish you'd quit it with the sorry looks and the quick assumptions. I've been nothing but nice to your girlfriend, and she keeps whispering behind my back. So if you're gonna snark at someone, by all means do it at her."
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 6:24 pm
"Oh... sorry." Amaya looked up at Emelyn appologetically, thinking she should have known better then to think she would have insulted her like that.
She wanted to stop the argument and opened her mouth to do so but... couldn't think of anything. Shutting her trap, she just watched Ambrose and considered trying to help him... though she'd probably just get in the way. What Emelyn said was right... Angelina had been the only one to really throw a tantrum of sorts.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 6:34 pm
Ambrose growled, more at himself and frustration than anything else.
"Look... I'm sorry. I can't be the only one sensing the tension here. I did think you were speaking about Amaya. But I don't wish changes on Angelina either. And She said one thing - following which she stopped a long time ago. And I haven't been blind to some of the looks you've been giving either. I can't expect us all to just be happy-happy.... but ... something's going wrong here... And I consider you all friends" He looked to Emelyn. ".... family... " he looked to Amaya... "And ... other things that I don't wish to try to laud over you, Emelyn."
He picked up the rock again, hefting it. Ambrose was certainly not the strongest person in teh world, but in his frustration he found a strength, hurling the miniature boulder towards the mirrored glass....
Against which is bounced off, causing a loud CLUNK noise... but resulting in no shattering... no spiderwebbing... just a followup THUNK against the ground.
He growled louder.
"Lovely."
He ran his hand through his hair again, turning away from the offending building. "Look. I'm sorry. I think that the tension has us all on edge. Perhaps we're picking up on subtexts that are building off of eachothers'. I don't know if getting things out in the open would help or not. I just know that I would like for nothign more than to band together during this - look after eachother... It will be getting dark soon and we can't get back in our duplexes and we can't get into the cafeteria either. "
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 6:40 pm
Em seethed a little, but she was grateful that Ambrose had at least acknowledged that he was on edge. She still felt like she was entitled to the looks she'd been shooting Angelina, after all... it wasn't as if the woman had even made an effort to like me, she figured. But she shrugged it off, and rubbed at her eyes in frustration.
"There has got to be a way in," Em said, not willing to acknowledge any of the more personal aspects of Ambrose's speech, "Maybe there's a window low enough? Or.. we could look for another door- maybe... ... Angelina found something," she said haltingly, saying the name rather than spitting it- for Ambroses benefit. Not that she was entirely sure he deserved it right now. ...Although, to be fair, she thought, he hasn't proved to have done anything really wrong.
...Except have bad taste.
"If not, we should just head back into the jungle, find somewhere where we can hide. This all happened for a reason- someone had to have done this all, and I don't want to be around if whoever it is comes back."
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 6:46 pm
"Nice to know you all are so eager to have me turn into a monkey so I can skitter on up there and help you blokes out." came a flat voice from behind Emelyn.
"I was just around the corner looking for a vent," she continued, sounding a bit dejected. "I haven't been whipering behind your back, but trust me, I have a lot of things I could say, oh believe you me, do you want to hear?" She narrowed her gaze at the other woman.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 6:48 pm
Amaya sighed heavily as she watched the boulder simply thud off the door. Listening to Ambrose talk, she realized that she was probably the only thing keeping the group from total and complete awkwardness... or at each others' throats... or from making Emelyn feel totally alone if she had been paired up with the couple and she wasn't here. Well, looks like she had her work cut out for her.
Nodding to the hedgehog's last statement, she added. "And it's not like we can't come back and check again tomorrow if everything is still off." She haden't realized they had been outside ALL day and her stomach growled in protest at not being fed.
Though that was the least of her concerns. What happens to lizards in the nightime when all the warmth of the sun was gone...? And it was going to be nightime in the winter no less. Green eyes looked back to Angelina, almost pleading her not to start fighting.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:00 pm
After the rock bounced off ineffectively from the door, Ambrose had little hope that anything else would succeed in breaking into the complex. And Amaya was right - with the approaching dusk, they needed to find shelter, food, and water before anything else.
"YOu're right.... we'll head to the jungle.... find a place by the stream for water... and make some shelter...."
Ears drooped as Angelina came back from around the corner. He could feel the approaching storm. "Angelina...." Errrgh..
Maybe it would be good for them to be able to get things off their chests.... maybe they could move forward from there. Or maybe it would just drive an unmovable wedge between them.
"Angelina..." Ambrose started quietly again. "Emelyn..." He floundered. Sighing, he finally spoke again. "If you two must be angry... be angry with me. Angelina... I am so sorry once again... I had convinced myself that there was no way I would ever see you again. I was scared, and I needed companionship - I couldn't handle what I was going through alone. I missed you like nothing else - and that was driving me crazy. I needed a finality. After I changed the second time i knew I couldn't go home again. And I wouldn't wish being stuck on this Island on anyone - let alone you."
He turned to Emelyn. "And Emelyn... I had no right playing with your heart when I still loved another. You helped open my eyes to the reality of the situation around me... and there was no way either of us could have known what would have happen. No one is denying that we... had a connection. I don't want to lose your friendship. I don't want to rub my relationship with Angelina in your face. I don't know if there is any way that I can coincide those things together." He finished. It was off his chest. Now if it did any good was anyone's guess.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:06 pm
Emelyn felt so many things in that one instant- and she could feel the waves of emotion coming off the others in various degrees of sorrow, anger, confusion, and annoyance. They were mirrored by her own emotions, a veritable spectrum of combinations, all slurring together in a rainbow of feeling. She just shook her head. She wanted to come closer to Ambrose, but felt Angelina between them like a wall.
"I'm not mad at you, Ambrose. It's just a ... bit of an unbearable situation. We were just starting to have something special, and then everything fell apart. It's not easy to be tossed aside for someone else, so summarily. But I understand. And I don't feel that way about you anymore." She turned to Angelina, still harboring some desire to clock her- but knowing it was unfounded, "I know you don't want to hear all this. I wouldn't, either. But you won, okay? If you really want to take shots at me, go ahead. I was the 'other woman'. But he came to me in grief, and the second he knew you were here, I was exactly what I am now. ....A poor man's Angelina."
There were no tears in her eyes, for she'd squirreled them up, frowning to keep them all down. The wrinkle between her eyes deepened, and she shook it off, huffing into the air in the immense pause that followed.
"I'm starving," she said, turning away from the looks of Ambrose and Angelina, wishing they weren't there- and towards Amaya, shooting her an apologetic look- she knew the girl didn't want to be a part of any of this.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:13 pm
Angelina rolled her eyes are Emelyn's comment. "I won. I won. Nice to know that you think my four year relationship with Ambrose came down to a silly little competition between the two of us. Its hard enough to know I was apparantly so easy to replace." She tried to keep the bitterness out of her voice but she knew she still must be seething. She hurled hefty, but handheld, rock at the glass angrily, knowig it would just bounce off.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:18 pm
The lizard-girl listened to everyone talk in silence, eyes going from one person to the other before straight ahead of her. She sincerly hoped this didn't keep up for the rest of the night for everyone's sake.
Having never been in a relationship before, she wasn't sure how to handle it or make anyone feel better, but arguing like this was NOT getting them anywhere. "Look. We can fight or talk or whatever you guys wanna do once we have a fire, shelter, and some food. Please?" Letting out a heavy sigh, her shoulders slumped and she turned around to start climbing the fence whether anyone was following or not.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:18 pm
Em turned on her heels. "Why are you so insistant that you're going to hate me? Why do you have to pick at what I say- of ALL the things I said, that was what you focused on?! If you're going to be mad at anyone, be mad at him. I honestly have gotten clobbered enough from this. I don't see how it's any of my concern anymore." The bitterness was rising in her voice as well, but not towards anyone in particular.
"He cast me off, so that pretty much gives me immunity from anything that has to do with this. It's a perk. You can't have it both ways."
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:36 pm
"Me insisting on hating you?! Oh please." Angelina paced around, frustrating tears forming in her eyes.
She didn't know what she was feeling or how to express it. What she was really afraid was looking like the 'other woman' in everyone eles's eyes. She looked at Amaya and Emelyn. She came to the island expecting to find her lover, sick and scared, welcoming her with open arms. Instead, she found something so beyond the realm of what she was expecting it through her for a loop. And worst of all, Ambrose, changed, already moving on. A few family, new friends.
Now standing here, she felt even more like an outsider than ever. She self-consciously hugged her arms to herself as she felt the eyes on her. She had taken Ambrose from Em, at least that what she thought Ambrose's island's friends would think. And SHE was yet to change. She considered herself a very dynamic person - usually able to blend into new situations. She had changed her lifestyle before, one for Ambrose already. But now.. .she felt completely normal - completely herself - the same person she was when she woke up that day...but this time it was everything else changing around her. Ambrose had changed, her view of reality had changed... even the definition of 'normal' had changed.
Moreau and the lab assistants - the fully human people. They were the bad guys. The victems, they were the good guys. And Angelina felt juxtposed... not knowing how the others felt about her retained humantity...and the uncertain looming cloud of uncertainty. Would she change? Now? Was she ever going to? Did something happen? Would they come back and then change her then?
Angelina shook her head angrily, wiping at her tears, knwoing her anger was misplaced but not wanting to admit it. So she just stood there, staring at the ground, wishing she could just close her eyes and dissapear.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:40 pm
The glimmering chance at mending broken relationships and knitting over injured feelings seemed to be receeding at each passing moment, taking away Ambrose's optimism in general with it.
Coincidentaly, the air was growing cooler as dusk was approaching. Despite Ambrose's increased night vision, he didn't want to try to navigate the dense jungle in the dark. Amaya was right - they needed shelter, fire and food if they wanted to establish themselves.
But one fire had been kindled - and it wasn't the sort that would keep them warm - only the sort that would burn. Perhaps burn up the chances of teamwork and frienship. "Please..." Ambrose whined. "Fine. Yes. If you must be mad - both of you - be mad at me. Neither of you have done anything to eachother directly. I was the catalyst in all of this. I was the one who reached out to someone else when there was no closure on our relationship, Angelina. And Emelyn - I did not see you as a substitute. If anything your appearance was a hesitance point for me in that I didn't want to try to replace Angelina. I am sorry for crushing you - for giving you hope only to "drop" you when Angelina returned. But yes, I never stopped loving her - I just imagined that if she had not arrived, that I could somehow reconcile that feeling along wiht something different."
"And Angelina... You were never 'easy to replace'. You know i thought I would never see you again. I thought they had told you I was dead. It had been months and I was so alone. Terrified as everything I knew, everuthing I valued and had loved was wrenched from me. Perhaps I was weak. But fine, be mad at me. It's not Emelyn's fault.... and it's not your fault either."
His ears dropped as he saw her withdraw within herself. Angelina's anger seemed to be boiling off to a more subtle depression. There was something more than her anger at Emelyn going on behind her eyes. Maybe they could make this work.... "Please. If you dont' hate Emelyn... and Emelyn doesn't hate you... then there is a tension over nothing. We can help eachother... But we need to get moving."
He moved to the fence, and started to climb. "Amaya's right. We need shelter and food and fire. It will be dark soon." He said quietly, dejectedly. "I hope that we can work together in that..."
He scaled it, more quickly this time, dropping down to the ground at the other side.
"If I recall the island correctly, there should be a stream intersection in the jungle directly south of here." He said quitly, feeling emotionally drained. But perhaps... maybe just perhaps things would work.
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:45 pm
Amaya was already waiting for them on the other side of the fence, then looked over to Ambrose while waiting for the two women. "I don't mean to make you worry anymore then you are now, but... I dunno if I'll be able to move around much once it gets darker." She paused for a moment, fumbling with her fingers. "Ever since I turned cold-blooded I went inside when it got colder..."
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Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 7:49 pm
"I'm sorry, Amaya," Em said, once she'd scaled the fence. "I hadn't even been thinking about you. That was selfish of me." She wanted to grab her up in a hug, but didn't know how comfortable the girl felt these days with human contact.
She walked along with them, heading towards what would be a makeshift campsite, and didn't say a word. She was tired of trying to make Angelina understand, tired of Ambrose trying to make everything okay, and please everyone. If she'd thought about it, she would have understood that Angelina was in a lot of pain- and Ambrose could only help but feel like the source of all the blame. ..But she didn't want to think. She only wanted to walk... and eventually eat, and then drift into a dreamless sleep.
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