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"Kimi?"I glanced up when I heard my name called, but fell back down soon enough. With the piece of cloth wrapped around my shoulders, I was pulled to rest upon Kimi's shoulder. I released the bit I had on my lip and gave way to my cries. I hated making her worry about my pathetic self but I didn't know who else to turn to. I never saw Demmy as someone I could confide in, and Gab wouldn't take it seriously. Trace would have been an option if he hadn't ran off, leaving Kimi. I picked up my limp arms and swung them around her as if I'd fall if I didn't. "I'm...sorry," I barely managed out between sobs. "I thought...I didn't need to take the pills anymore. I was..doing good." I raised my head off of her shoulder to look at her.
It was true though, I believed I was getting better. But when the doctor said that I needed to continue taking my medication for my bipolar disorder each day, I needed to find out on my own. However, I didn't think I'd become this unstable because of it...

I nodded to the first question of wanting to go inside after I realized that being out in the rain wouldn't do much good later tonight. I was definitely missing Trace right now. He'd pick me up bride style and bring me back inside. Then stay with me as long as I wanted to, even if it meant spending the night to just hold me close, whispering sweet nothingness into my ear. I yearned for him to be here with Kimi and myself right now; tears rushing down my face more than before. While trying to heave myself up onto my feet, my knees gave way, planting myself back on the ground. "Ow," I groaned, feeling one of the branches cut across my knees.

The goosebumps on my arms hid well when warmth expelled from the vents. I took a deep, shuddering breath to take in the fresh scent of the pine tree car freshener I had insisted to become a daily part of Kimi's car. Its purpose served mainly to cover up the cigarette smoke that tainted the seats and carpet. A smile tried to make its way onto my face in thanks for her compliment, but there was no avail. "Where are we going?" My voice was soft and brittle, still trying to fight back the tears which lingered in my bloodshot eyes.
I took my phone, that I hoped still worked, out of my pocket and pressed the "On" button. With relief the screen flashed once before revealing the main screen. The background consisted of a picture taken last night of Gab, Demmy and myself at a playground a few blocks from the club. Gab had been hanging on the money bars by his knees and Demmy pulled me aside to talk. That's when things changed.
I could still hear his voice as if time was turned back to the precise moment that he told me the most simple yet complex words in the English literature. "I love you, Tess," were his exact words. From there we rudely left Gab and strolled around the city aimlessly for a bit so that I could make some sort of sense from it. By the time we reached the school, I didn't want to let Dem go, he had to stay. I remembered embracing him as I had done to Kimi in the courtyard and clung on so that he couldn't leave. He gave in and I stayed in his arms until this morning...

I was a little surprised by the constant shifts that took place in the room. I leaned back and took in the smell of what was now my dorm. Honestly, when you've been told all your life that your ambitions are your most admirable quality, it is an unusual thing to find yourself perched on your luggage bag sipping japanese soda a few feet away from a boy with blue hair and a young man that you'd walked in on during his questionable stay in your new roommate's bed. One thing I knew I would remember about the room, it smelled. Not just the smell like someone had burnt popcorn or a skunk was passing the area, more like the odor of old ciggarettes, toxic hair spray, and alcohol so heavy it should be on a "wanted" list. I coughed a little and sighed. "Should I look for them?" I asked the two boys, finally finding enough voice to feel comfortable and keep from studdering. "They've been gone a little while now, maybe I should go see what's going on." It was a little embarassing, but part of me was speaking out of curiosity (which is as it should be, period) and the other part just wanted to make sure that I was still mentally stable enough to hold a sentence.

"Dem said something and it's just gotten me worked up. Plus, the whole-" I cut myself off, resting my forehead against the glove compartment. "How could he just leave us like that? So suddenly? He could have at the very least left a note, even if it was just a post-it not; anything." Moving my hands upward I rubbed my eyes hard, making them sting a little. "I hate this, Kimi. I can't. Ugh. I don't know...I don't know how to explain all of the things rushing through my head right now." I pulled my head back and banged it against the dashboard resulting in another round of sobs. I was far too unstable to be around anyone else at the moment.

It helped knowing Kimi was just as upset and infuriated with Trace just as much as I was. Although, him being intimidated never even crossed my thought process; what was so special about me? Yeah, I could sing but I'm not the greatest and I sure as hell didn't think I was drop dead gorgeous. I brushed away the thought. Turning my head I answered her question, "He said he...loved me. And I asked him to stay at my dorm over night." I sighed, before realizing what I said could be taken in few ways. "All he did was hold me. I felt safe in his arms..." my words died out ending the sentence

"It's okay. I know you have jobs and other things that take up your time. Though your presence would have made leaving Gab easier. But you really think so?" already could I feel my emotions switching. However, they could switch back just as quick. The image of Demmy and myself together brought upon a well-painted picture in my mind."Did you know about it?" It wouldn't have bothered me if she had known and not told me since that only reinforced the strong trust she held with everyone in the group.
[sorry for it being so short]