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 Posted: Wed Oct 15, 2008 11:57 pm
He looked in thought for a moment, trying to think of what they hadn't covered already. "Well....aside from asking what you see in a guy like me, I'm not really sure." he settled for at last with a chuckle.
He scooted a bit closer, placing an arm around her shoulders as he watched the fire flicker and dance on its bed of wood.
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 12:03 am
Tinania pauses as she feels his hand on her shoulder. Giving him a sidewards glance, she last her head against his arm "What I see in you, beside the fact that you are cute? No really in all seriousness, when we first met online. You didn't judge me, you just listened to everything I had to say. Then when we met, I don't know but it felt as if I been around you forever. Your fun, and as I said for the first time in a long time. I am at peace and happy. Then you didn't freak when you found out I had a son, who by the way loves you." nudging him lightly she looks up at him.
"Zhane, in my eyes yours a great amazing guy. And any girl would be so lucky to have you." with a sigh she looks back down. Why did those words just sting so much?
Shaking her head, she looks back to the timber as it burns "Why would you like someone like me? With all the problems I have had?"
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Pixie Krysta Ordreg Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 12:16 am
He set his jaw as she finished speaking, not wanting to hear her talk about herself that way. He looked behind them briefly, trying to judge the earshot distance from the rest of the customers. Their conversations were all a meaningless drone of voices to him that mixed into a low hum. He doubted that anything they discussed now would be audible or even noticed.
"Everyone has problems." he said, turning back to her, and tightening his hold a bit to hold her to him. "Hell, I've got plenty of my own with my dad and everything. I didn't decide to like you based on what happened before we met..."
He offered her a reassuring smile for all the good it might do.
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 12:23 am
Tinania shook her head as he spoke, she was glad that he liked her. With a sigh, she closes her eyes "Zhane, if you knew everything that has happen to me, the relationships I have been in. The pain I have been in, I know you would be asking why is this girl even trying again?" with a rather light chuckle, she takes another sip of her drink.
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Pixie Krysta Ordreg Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 12:48 am
He drew in a deep breath, holding it a moment, and then let it out again, reaching out to place his fingers under her chin, gently coaxing her head up to look at him.
"Maybe its time to talk about it...?" he suggested. It was either discuss it now in the comfort of a fire's glow over warm cups of cocoa, or driving aimlessly over dimming sidestreets looking for something to do with the rest of the evening. It was not going to make what she said any better or any worse, at least as far as he was concerned.
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 12:52 am
Tinania looks up into his eyes, fear being masked by sadness. Closing her eyes she takes a deep breath before she nods "It would seem you are right, I just hope after you learn everything. You won't leave, bu if you do I will fully understand." she was scared, she wasn't going to lie.
Her past wasn't a good one, in fact it was to the point where if she could change it she would sometimes. Turning towards him even more, she faces him as she rest her head on his arm once more "Where to start..."
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Pixie Krysta Ordreg Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 1:05 am
The fact she even worried he would leave bothered him as he wondered what she could possibly be keeping locked away in her that he would find -that- ugly.
Trying to guess led his mind all sorts of horrifying places, and he quickly stomped on the brakes to make it stop. Anticipation could be a dangerous thing in times like these. It was like looking down the darkened staircase of what was a very ordinary basement and thinking too long on what could be down there. By the time your imagination got done painting it for you, it had become an evil hive where only the worst and darkest creatures lived, and you were so afraid of your mind's suggestions, that you never went down the stupid stairs to find out for yourself...
His hand returned to her shoulder to give her a brief hug. "Wherever you think you need to."
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 1:19 am
Tinania nods as she looks towards the fireplace again, as she couldn't look at Zhane while she spoke. It wasn't that she didn't want to, she was just scared "well I had already told you about being kidnapped by my grandmother. When I returned home everything changed. See I had two friends, I grew up with Duncan and Ceila. Somewhere along the way, he started to believe I was his. He would stalk be and anytime a guy got close to me, he get angry. I hid from him that I had started dating Surion. And hit from Surion the marks I got from Duncan when he found out." taking a deep breath, she shivers for a second as she thought of the next part.
"Duncan with each passing day got worse, and I fought back. It was the night I found the cure that he decided to follow me home. It wasn't until he attacked me that i realized I was in trouble. We fought, but then he pushed me to the ground. Not only had I cracked the back of my head on a rock, but he stabbed me in the side of my waist." looking down at her lap, she actually runs her hand along the right side of her waist.
"When I awoke, I apparently didn't know who I was or anyone else. Surion, the man I use to be engaged too was shattered in a sense. I was scared, so I ran away from everyone. And I didn't return until my memory came back, but by that time Surion had left to return home to his father's land." at this point she turns to look at him.
"When he came back, is when it went downhill. He started pushing to have children, always bring it up. But with everything that I been through, I didn't want a child at this point. It got bad between us, then one day he left. I didn't see him again, and it broke me apart." she was visibly shaking at this point as she relives the memory within her mind.
"I waited, and waited for him to return. Until I couldn't wait any longer, so I left the home that we made together. But I didn't go home, I couldn't. So I spent most my day with a friend. It was on a night I was returning home actually that I met Lucas. He kidnapped me, taking me back to New Haven. Things were great, until my grandmother passed away. When I returned home, I found Surion again. but this time he didn't remember me. And well, you know the rest..." taking a deep breath, she closes her eyes as she looks down at her lap again.
"I have been through hell and back. Be betrayed, be attack, and had my heart broken by a man I gave everything to. To say that maybe I'm slightly messed up is an understatement." with a light chuckle, she sighs again.
"But through it all, I never gave up thinking that maybe my peace will come..."
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Pixie Krysta Ordreg Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 1:54 am
He'd been prepared to hear horrible things from her. What sorts of horrible things, he wasn't sure, but he'd bolstered himself all the same, ready to weather the worst of what was shaping up to be an emotional storm for them both.
As she spoke, he listened, not attempting to interrupt or do anything that would distract her from getting it all out. And when she reached a stop, he waited, seeing if more would come.
When there was nothing, he was quiet a moment, letting it all settle into the banks of his memory before he chose his words.
"I guess, the only thing I don't understand is why you think that would make me want to run from you." he said quietly. "None of any of that sounds like it was your fault. There's a lot of things I think I could fault those Duncan and Surion characters for, but...." he reached out to set his cocoa down on the small table that sat in front of the couch so that he could find her hand and take it. "....Nani, anybody who'd be scared off by the fact you had some bad luck doesn't deserve you."
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 2:02 am
Tinania looks down at his hand holding her before she looks up at him. Tilting her head, she shakes her head alittle "I have always worried that because I have had bad luck, no one would want to deal with that. Maybe I think to much, I don't know. I was just worried that you wouldn't want to deal with me if you knew." looking back up at him, she gives him a small smile before she looks back down.
"Silly huh? But yea, now you know my dirty little past. Its been all bad luck.."
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Pixie Krysta Ordreg Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 2:07 am
If that was all there was...if THAT had been what she'd been so worried about telling him all evening, he felt like he could all but collapse in relief. He'd very much hoped not to hear something that would frighten him away from her or make him look at her differently than how he'd come to know her.
"Well, I'm still here." he smiled back, even as she averted her eyes again. "And anything that happened with other people before we met....that's your business, Nani, and nobody else's. I don't care about any of that...I care that you're here now."
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 10:09 pm
Tinania actually smiels up at Zhane before she looks away. She was glad that he didn't care, with her past some people were actually worried. Taking his hand, she gives it a gentle squeeze before she takes a deep breath "You Zhane, are truly a total sweetheart. And I hope we will always be friends, if nothing else. I like knowing I can always come to you."
She didn't say what she really want to say, how could she? After all, she wanted to be more then friend with him. But with this being the first date, she didn't want to push it.
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Pixie Krysta Ordreg Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 10:22 pm
"And you're a wonderful person who's due for a good turn in her life...and I hope I can help you find one."
Friends...
The word filled him with mixed feelings. He was happy she felt secure enough to bring things to him, but....he felt there could be much more to them than simply friends...
The way there'd been instant chemistry, the way they'd felt they'd known each other for years, the rightness of it all. Surely that was more than friends.
The more he thought about it, the harder it was to simply let it sit.
"Nani...?"
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 10:25 pm
Tinania glances up at Zhane as she takes a sip of her drink. Licking at her bottom lip, she smiles at him "Yes?" setting her drink down on the table, she pulls her feet up, so that that are resting beside her on the couch.
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Pixie Krysta Ordreg Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Oct 16, 2008 10:40 pm
His eyes dropped momentarily from hers, doing some hasty last-minute thinking, before looking back to her again. "What if I said....I didn't want to be friends?"
He paused a moment, realizing he didn't like how that sounded, and quickly tried to correct himself. "I mean...I mean I still want to -be- friends, but..."
Ugh...this had seemed a lot easier in his head. And there was no backing out now, so he'd just need to make do with the clumsy beginning he'd given it. Turning to face her a bit more squarely, his hands found hers and he let their fingers interlace.
"You're pretty much all I've thought about since we met. I've done things I never thought I'd do, and felt things I've never felt before. I...." he huffed a bit, determined he was going to say what he wanted to say no matter how choppy his thoughts were right now. ".....I want to be that peace you're looking for, Nani."
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