New Journal
Entry 1
How long has it been since I've put pen to paper? I can't even count... I don't remember.
Somewhere I got lost. Somewhere I ran away.
If it wasn't for Roux... I'd probably never have snapped out of this. I don't even know what this is.
I had so many responsibilities that I just neglected. I received a letter from Dr. Kyou a while ago, informing me that I no longer had a job at the lab. I don't blame. I just wish I'd had the guts to send a reply when I'd gotten it.
What's more...
...Oh. I don't want to think about that right now. It still makes my heart feel pinched.
I guess the first step is to contact someone, though.
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With a sigh Chloe set the pen down along the center spine of the fresh journal. This was her attempt at giving herself a new beginning, a fresh start, a clean slate. How well would this work, though? She wasn't sure.
Just as she felt the rush of fear closing in around her a cool hand pressed into her shoulder. Looking up Chloe realized she must look like a rabbit caught in the lights of an on coming car.
Roux looked down at her, his expression remained ever the cool blank since the day he'd emerged from the tank. His eyes, however, held a note of emotion that was almost soft. "No worrying. Okay?"
Chloe sighed, a small smile crossing over her features. She reached up to lightly touch her hand against the back of the Sigal's for the briefest of moments. "Right... I'll try."
Roux gave a small nod, turning and floating away a few paces, returning to his vigilant watch out the window. The world was deadening, the air was turning chill... this was the time he felt most awake. Alive. Soon there'd be snow on the ground, he could feel it.
Chloe watched him a moment before turning back to the journal, picking up the pen once more.
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In the end... it feels like I'm no longer Roux's guardian, rather, he is now mine. If I ever thought we'd never get along or be able to communicate I'm at least pleased to say now that those fears were for nothing.
I'd like to say it's just for his sake that I'm making such an effort to move back, closer to the lab, closer to the other Raevens. But I need to go back, too. For all the friends and... others... I've left behind. I was very used to being solitary before I was given Roux's soul bottle and fel essence. It wasn't until I'd tried to be this way once again that I'd realized I've made so many friends that I love and miss.
I hope they can forgive me.
