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 Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 7:03 pm
Captain Katinator Spindra Pure Vampyre Captain Katinator  Volly, I'm glad you got your hat!
Thank you for adding me Cap'n.
*Sallutes*
>_<
Now I will destroy him. Lol, we're all friends here. Why not show it by being on each other's friend's lists? xD
Ok then.
*Starts adding everyone*
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 7:08 pm
Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the hole truth can we disclose
The soul of this sick bulwark forever and ever
Forever and ever
@Vampyre: Hehe, I tend to have reactions like that! ^_^ I think back on my day quite frequently, and wind up laughing at a lot of things. But yeah, I guess I know what you mean about liking the pain. I think there are some pains I like or don't mind (though nothing really all that destructive). So, I guess I kind of get it now. The only scars I have are random ones on my fingers that are from when I was little and I picked my scabs so much they'd leave scars, one on my ankle from the bloody shaving razor (it was a horrid gash, don't know how I achieved it...), and then random ones on my knees. I do believe I have slight scars from the time I tried cutting my knuckles to see what the big deal was about cutting oneself. I guess kind of a reminder.
@Godslayer: Hehe, besides the pain, I think like you, my friends would also kill me! Of course, I do know someone who cuts herself, and she's friends with my friends (one of those times I just never really got to know her), but they just tried to get her to stop and everything. I would get smacked, because my friends know I'm not like that.
@Kat: True! Thankees for the add!
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 7:14 pm
Syrinx330
Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the hole truth can we disclose
The soul of this sick bulwark forever and ever
Forever and ever
@Vampyre: Hehe, I tend to have reactions like that! ^_^ I think back on my day quite frequently, and wind up laughing at a lot of things. But yeah, I guess I know what you mean about liking the pain. I think there are some pains I like or don't mind (though nothing really all that destructive). So, I guess I kind of get it now. The only scars I have are random ones on my fingers that are from when I was little and I picked my scabs so much they'd leave scars, one on my ankle from the bloody shaving razor (it was a horrid gash, don't know how I achieved it...), and then random ones on my knees. I do believe I have slight scars from the time I tried cutting my knuckles to see what the big deal was about cutting oneself. I guess kind of a reminder.
@Godslayer: Hehe, besides the pain, I think like you, my friends would also kill me! Of course, I do know someone who cuts herself, and she's friends with my friends (one of those times I just never really got to know her), but they just tried to get her to stop and everything. I would get smacked, because my friends know I'm not like that.
@Kat: True! Thankees for the add!
@
Cutting is not just about the pain, it is about the realease too.
I used to cut myself once for every bad feeling I had until I felt numb. Although, that usually took alot..
Oops. It's 3.30 am. Time for bed.
Getting my samuri swords tomorrow!
*Excited*
Night all! Take care.
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 7:25 pm
@Vamp: Lol. This is so random. Maybe it's really not that funny, but it's funny to me. Probably because I have this awful headache and I took sleep-inducing pain killers. Lol, this is so not funny, but I laugh anyway. Note to everyone: Me+pain killers=total wacko that you want to stay away from.
@Syrinx: No prob!
(Dude! I spelled your name right without looking! *cheers* xD God, I'm an awful speller!)
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 8:03 pm
Miss Voli, we all like you a lot. So what if some freaks at school don't? That's their problem, not yours, y'know? There will always be people that you can't connect with, but there are a lot of others that you can. Everyone in this guild thinks you're a fun person to talk to, otherwise we wouldn't even be here. And think of how many guild members there are. Lots.
Suicide isn't the right answer. I'll admit, I've thought about it a few times in the past, but I'm still here. Because, despite all of the bad things that happen, there are still moments that make us smile. You shouldn't give those up for anything.
And sweetheart, don't worry too much about your parents' opinion of you. I worry about my dad's opinion a lot, so I know where you're coming from, but it's your life. Not theirs. And if they're the type of parents who will criticize you forbeing depressed, then what good is what they think anyway?
If you ever wanna talk to me outside of Gaia, I've got AIM and MSN. I can only be on them on the weekends, but they're there if you need them. Just try to focus on the happy moments for now, okay?
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 9:25 pm
*starts making hot cocoa for the vampires*
Anyone else awake? Extra marshmallows, whipcream and cinnamon? heart
*huggles Volly some more* If you die, I'll drag your soul through from the afterlife...which I've heard is a mind-curdling experience. hurray for Ouija boards! ^_^ 3nodding
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 4:39 am
Through all the nice comments, I got one thing that really knocked sense into me. I think It was spinny that said it, but if not, Apologies to whoever did.
"People who commit suicide are selfish."
Somehow, that's what I wanted to hear.
Gosh I was stupid. I need ya'll to force that in my brain if I pull this crap again.
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 7:33 am
[.Volatile.] Through all the nice comments, I got one thing that really knocked sense into me. I think It was spinny that said it, but if not, Apologies to whoever did. "People who commit suicide are selfish." Somehow, that's what I wanted to hear. Gosh I was stupid. I need ya'll to force that in my brain if I pull this crap again. ><
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 8:38 am
Volly, I'm going to say a few things. I've been in the same situation as you plenty of times, and even tried to do it a few times as well.
You are definetly not alone. :/ It may seem you are the sole person on the whole face of the planet who is going through this, but you aren't. Suicide is unfortunate and sad, but I've had plenty of people who've said to me they would not pity a person who threw their life away, because it was their own choice to do so. And honestly, they're right.
Although, they did beat my a** for trying. And I've tried everything: Hanging, cutting, not eating - awhile ago I was contemplating taking pills; It's not worth it, Volly. So throw it out of your head right now.
As for those girls: Not everyone is going to like you, Volly, even though you are a kind, and overall wonderful person. People are ignorant, and ignorance is bliss: If they aren't going to like you, they're missing out on something great, and it's their loss. People like that tend to not be able to accept people that are different.
Life isn't going to hand everything to you on a silver platter, my dear.
So it's time to buck up and deal with it.
As someone said to me once: If you can't handle what the world throws at you, you're going to go under. And they're absolutely right.
If you need anything, PM me. I'll re-download ICQ when I get home so we can talk if you need to.
Edit: And about your parent's opinions of you: Don't worry about it. My mom was very understanding when I told her, even if my dad told me I was a screw up. The reason he still talks to me? He cares, even if he doesn't like to show it.
And if your parents don't like it, there must be someone in your family that understands. Every family has their oddball, deary.
And the friends you do have should be able to help. :]
And of course, you have us. Even if we're far away we're still here online.
And like I've probably said before, if you're really upset I can call. xD; I'd call everyone here if they had a problem, but that's just me.
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 9:22 am
Captain Katinator @Vamp: Lol. This is so random. Maybe it's really not that funny, but it's funny to me. Probably because I have this awful headache and I took sleep-inducing pain killers. Lol, this is so not funny, but I laugh anyway. Note to everyone: Me+pain killers=total wacko that you want to stay away from.
@Syrinx: No prob!
(Dude! I spelled your name right without looking! *cheers* xD God, I'm an awful speller!)
I'm on mega pain killers today, so I am a bit dopey. >_<
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 1:51 pm
Spindra [.Volatile.] Through all the nice comments, I got one thing that really knocked sense into me. I think It was spinny that said it, but if not, Apologies to whoever did. "People who commit suicide are selfish." Somehow, that's what I wanted to hear. Gosh I was stupid. I need ya'll to force that in my brain if I pull this crap again. ><
OMG! Spinny, that's genius! That was what I was trying to say in my first post, but I couldn't form it into words. Yes, it is selfish. And I'm glad we're making you feel a little better Volly! <3
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Posted: Tue Feb 19, 2008 2:42 pm
Captain Katinator Spindra [.Volatile.] Through all the nice comments, I got one thing that really knocked sense into me. I think It was spinny that said it, but if not, Apologies to whoever did. "People who commit suicide are selfish." Somehow, that's what I wanted to hear. Gosh I was stupid. I need ya'll to force that in my brain if I pull this crap again. ><
OMG! Spinny, that's genius! That was what I was trying to say in my first post, but I couldn't form it into words. Yes, it is selfish. And I'm glad we're making you feel a little better Volly! <3
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