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 Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 5:03 pm
Aponi gripped Mal's hand thankfully, his cheeks were a light pink color, not because of the male contact between himself and Mal, he didn't mind that at all. His inner thought were a mixture of shame and pride, joy and sorrow...he was glad that he would have a lesser chance of dealing with any bullies, but that didn't change how he felt about himself. How he reflected on himself and blamed his feminine self for being bullied.
He looked up at Mal, who was a few inches taller than him, and gave him an unsure smile. He quickly cast his head to the ground, hugging his backpack, feeling good for the time being. His nerves were still on edge from veiwing the fight that had taken place moments before, he kept thinking the bully would spring up and charge at them like a bull, fury intensified by the red goo that ran down his face. He gave Mal another quick glance.
"...thank you."
Aponi walked in silence, other than a few sighs and deep breaths, pretty much waiting until Mal calmed down before saying anything else. He did know one thing, though.
He wanted to tell Mal his problem...he was pretty sure Malachite could help.
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 5:25 pm
The adrenaline fueled fury quickly died away again as they walked together in silence. Malachite also wondered if the bully would get up and come after them again, so he kept an ear out for any stomping of feet behind them.
He caught Aponi's smile and managed one of his own, his face looking quite tired.
"You're welcome," he replied, turning away and looking down the street in front of them. "Are you okay?"
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 5:51 pm
The pale youth bit down on his tongue, rather hard at first, then he softened his bite when he realized he had drawn the coppery taste of blood int ohis mouth. He was a bit unsure about how to word things...he wasn't really too open about his little mental issue, and it had kept him mostly silent and bitter for the past week and ahalf or so.
Might as well just say it.
"No."
He rubbed his shoulder onto his cheek, as if aiding an itch, and exhaled awkwardly. The question that the bully had brought up during their first encounter scratched at his mind like a shard of glass, and the small droplet of blood sitting on his tongue was like the metaphorical release of the blood the glass had pooled.
"Mal...did you ever wonder if there was something wrong with you...because you dress like a girl but your a boy. I mean, we both dress and act like the opposite sex. Is there something wrong with that?"
It was the simplest way to word it in Aponi's mind, he waited for malachite's surely questioning answer, embarassed for the conversation that might take place.
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 6:15 pm
Mal was only a little suprised when Aponi answered no. After all, Aponi been tossed around and had had to watch Mal flip out on an almost total stranger.
He listened quietly as Aponi posed his question, and then glanced at him with a soft frown. He shrugged. "I've never given it a lot of thought, to tell you the truth," he replied. "I suppose I should have, but I haven't. I've just let myself be what I want to be without questioning it. I wear clothes like I do because they're nice, pretty, and I look good in them. Adrian and the rest of the family have never questioned it, either, so..."
He shrugged again, thinking back to the first shopping trip he'd taken with Adrian. "I don't see that there's anything wrong with it," he continued. "They're just clothes... They're just things that aren't really important to worry about, no matter who you are."
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 6:32 pm
"To me, it's more...complex than that."
Aponi squeaked, his hand was anxiously grabbing at his skirt as he rolled the words around on his tongue until he found a mixture that suited him.
"You see...the only reason that guy started bugging me is because of the way I dress, and that only made me think about why it's worth making fun of. Then I started thinking about how he kept calling me names...I don't see what's so bad about looking like this, but with people like that always bothering me, it makes me feel like something wrong with me."
He was quiet for another moment before continuing.
"He called me a f**. I had never even heard that word before. I just...I don't understand why people have to be so cruel just because I'm not what they consider normal."
The pale youth tossed his bangs from his eyes, pouting, but with a serious tone.
"I'm still unsure about what I am. It spawned a lot of interesting thoughts, is all."
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 6:45 pm
"Uh-huh," Malachite murmured at Aponi's admission that he felt there was something wrong with him. He kicked at a pebble and watched it roll and bounce down the sidewalk in front of them.
He nodded. "I don't understand it, either. But it seems to be the way of the world, unfortunately."
Mal sighed, remembering a song he'd heard Kaleb play on one of his bad days and whispering the lyrics.
"Here I am, different in this normal world.
Why do you tease me? Make me feel upset? <******** stereotypes feeding their heads.
I am ugly; please, just go away."
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:09 pm
Aponi held Mal's hand a bit tighter, as if he was afraid if he let go Malachite might drift away. He felt an aura of relief around him, he hadn't even been willing to tell Emo why he was so upset for that troubled period, sure he wasn't absolved of his worries, but at least he told someone.
He heard Mal whispering some illegible words that seemed to have a sort of beat, he imagined malachite wasn't listening anymore and began looking up at the sky. It was rather calm, today, not at all like the day's events.
"Hey Mal..."
He cooed, still staring up at the sky with whispy eyes.
"How do you think the world would be if everyone was free enough to love either a man or a woman, no matter their own gender."
He seemed rather forward, but it had been bugging him all damned week. He could fall for a boy or a girl, what if everyone else could? Surely noone would hate anyone based on sexual preference, he thought.
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:18 pm
Malachite shook himself out of his thoughts, giving Aponi's hand a squeeze in return. He, too, looked up at the sky, thinking quietly. "If everyone was free to love anyone," he repeated to himself. "I'm not sure things would be too much different. People are like that in private, but aren't always bold enough to show it in public. If it became more public, there'd still be people like that jackass back there that see people like us as being unnatural. But I think there'd be just as many -- if not more -- people that were accepting of such a thing as loving anyone, no matter the genders of the people involved."
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:22 pm
Aponi smiled, his cheeks went a bit rosey, which was understanding since he was about to say something so foolish.
"I think it would be a lot easier to find your soulmate."
He kicked at the ground with his boot, covering up the embarassment of letting everything spill out of him with noise. He looked about, it must've only been a half hour or so since school had been out, maybe not even that.
So much can happen in so little time.
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:27 pm
Malachite smiled. "Yeah, I think that would be easiest, too," he replied.
They walked along in silence for another moment before Mal asked, "Are you going to be okay, now?"
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:31 pm
"I might need to talk with my mum."
Aponi added, his face drooped to something more pitiful.
"I've been being horrid towards her, she was asking why I was so down and what happened, I was just mad because I didn't want to tell her...I was slamming doors in her face and yelling at her all week."
He sighed, returning his eyes to the pretty blue sky for a moment.
"I feel better, though...jsut getting it out of my head...thanks for listening."
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:37 pm
"Yeah, it would probably be a good idea to apologize," Malachite said. "She was only worried about you, is all. But I'm sure she'll understand."
He nodded. "You're welcome... I'm glad I could help."
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:41 pm
Aponi felt rather warm inside as compared to the days preceeding, he knew Emo was trying to help, and he was glad that Mal could understand him...he was sure that Emo could understand him too if he'd only open his mouth.
He sighed, holding his stomach as a small rumble hit him. His eyes lit up and that familiar bishi smile lit up his face.
"Wanna get a bite to eat?"
He asked, quite enthusiastic. He wasn't expected home until six as it was, and if he called Emo beforehand, he was sure she'd have no problem letting him have a boys day out.
"Maybe go to some shops afterwards? Just to cheer us both up a bit."
he wanted to get this whole ordeal out of mind, even if it were only for a few hours.
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:44 pm
Malachite grinned. Although he would've rather gone home to think on his own thoughts, he just couldn't say no to that smile. "Sure," he said. "Sounds like a wonderful idea. Just lead the way."
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Posted: Sun Feb 12, 2006 7:49 pm
Aponi led Mal to the nearest diner, one with a fifties theme that served the usual burgers and malts, but was tasty none the less.
He held the door open for Mal and plopped down into a booth, tapping his fingers on the table, he opened one of the standing menus, handing one to Malachite, and searched the drinks page. He decided on a cherry soda and brought his eyes up to Mal's.
"Um...so, how's everything with you?"
He asked, hoping Mal wouldn't have the same kind of problems he did, in which case Aponi would sound like a crybaby.
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