I was reading online and in the paper recently that flights that don't garner enough consistent flyers are being terminated. But
here is Kayak's page, I picked the 11th of next month and a oneway ticket for example. hint, hint. There's some options there -- going into
Wichita, too. Which is nuts because even the paper said you can never fly
into Wichita for less than $300.
Muuuuch cheaper to travel this time of year, apparently. At first I thought the links were crap, but indeed, looking at American Airlines' website I found the same prices. It helps that I selected 'one way.' When/if you want to go back, we just buy you another one.
I guess it makes sense, since there are no holidays in April that early in the month. And who goes to a business meeting in
April?
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What you did to deserve us? Darlin', you did nothing but be yourself for us to love you. Always your quirky, creative, fretting self. You happened to fall right into a group of equally silly weirdos.
Kat will give you better advice on the family stuff. She's gone through it and had to make those choices. Her mom was in another state when she died, because Kat went to Florida to go to school and try to make a new life for herself. There are regrets there, yeah, but if she'd ignored the chance at a normal life with Pat and Willie, and stayed up with her Mom instead, her life would be very, very different, and I seriously doubt for the better.
I will say this, though: what she gets from you is love in return, and that is indeed important.
That feeling of obligation you describe holding you there? Talking from real life experience, that s**t will
kill you. After I spent freshmen year in and out of the mental hospital, I called my dad to have him rescue me; he lied to my mom and said it was a vacation, but I didn't plan to come back. ********, at that point, I wanted to die. I lived with my dad for a few months, got into drinking and was ******** my best friend, skipping high school to get ******** up. I stayed all summer because I felt obligation to my Dad and my little brother. Afraid they couldn't function without me. But I was cutting myself and having sex with another girl and so confused about everything, and we kept talking about committing suicide... it was a really dark time period for me, but I stayed because I loved my Dad so much, and didn't want to just leave when he dropped everything to help me get away from my mom in the first place.
But I did leave. I left, went home. I worked through my sexuality issues, I stopped drinking and went to therapy. Found new friends. Did Dad fall apart? Yeah, to some degree, but he didn't die. He wasn't ******** alone in his head ready to use Emily's uncle's gun. I was. And sometimes in life, it's you before even the people you'd open a vein for.
Dunno. That's what I did.
But you also have options I didn't. I couldn't go back and visit dad, I was a sophomore in high school with no job. You could get plane tickets every two months and go back to spend two weeks at their house. Retail is flexible like that. You request one week off, get all the shifts of the other week covered. And since you'd be living with us, bills other than your cellphone wouldn't be a worry.
Oh my God, I cry soooo much sometimes after fights. Or during them. XD I get frustrated and start cussing quickly, but then two seconds later I'm like "oh what the hell is wrong with me i am so sorry" X3 Crazy.
You even bringing up that you cry makes my heart hurt, Cassy. Because I'm always imagining you alone in your apartment, and ********, no one should be alone like that. No one. It's wrong.
Outside forces, smoutside forces.
talk2hand The fact that you acknowledge we will get into fights is good. Because people do. People sometimes need space, sometimes just need to talk to their partner and not to their friend, or vice versa, sometimes overreact or have mood swings, etc etc. Tyler couldn't accept that. He couldn't accept that nothing is perfect and sometimes, people need different things at different times, and no friendship is perfect. We also only had one bedroom so that.. really ******** everything up. "Oh he can just sleep on this twin mattress over here" lol yeah okay, why were we so dumb. X_x
We won't get taken away from you, lover. I know no one can really promise that, but I say it to Kat all the time. Because if I go through life thinking about how likely Kat is to get cancer or MS or s**t, I'll curl up into a ball and just lose it. So as far as I'm concerned, nothing will separate me from her, or me from my friends. Ever. I'll deal with the emotional consequences of that thought process in the future.
You want the honest to God truth? Some part of me
does feel like I should take care of you, because if it were me alone and depressed, I'd want someone to do it for me. Because we're friends, best ******** friends, and I love you. I have the means to take care of you, to help you out. And what's money when my best ******** friend is feeling listless and without inspiration to go through the motions... I can give you a hand up, as soon as you let me.
And frankly, I need you too, Cassy. I need you to be my friend and be there for me. I'd go nuts without you and Lor. I want so badly to get you here so we can do bestie stuff, like bowling really badly and playing L4D together and running around the house after my dogs.
Being an adult means nothing. You just have added
responsibility, not added
ability. My mom is like 43 and asked me for $100 the other day to buy another min pin even though they want to get rid of theirs. When I didn't have it, they borrowed it from Craig's mom. They're late on everything. Mom has panic attacks and has to hide from coworkers and customers at work. She obsessively worries what people think of her over minuscule things like her laugh, to the point they put her on anxiety medication. She's no farther ahead than we are, twenty years later than us.
Life is unscripted and s**t happens. I just lost my house and I owe the federal government $4000 because of it. But
everything works out. I already have a new house and am moving there in a matter of days. Kat got a high paying job, and HR lady had me in her office talking about hours increasing next month, and training me to cashier again so I can at least get back to 30.
Nothing is certain. You can only take steps up and try to avoid the downward ones, but keep going when those happen.
You will never be a burden to me, Cassafrass. And I shouldn't ever be a burden to you. We're friends, Cassy. Sometimes the balance is uneven, sometimes it's not. But friendship is not about perfect balance, it's about being strong when the other side is heavier for awhile, being supportive and loving, until the day your side needs help balancing out.
Also, I could make you do my dishes.
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