One of Hale x Julian's theme song. He told me he doesn't have enough of these.
Hale: //Whispers along. I feel the scarrsss on me.
L: Hale those aren't the lyrics.
Hale: // Smiles. Julian can have all the stars, smiles, and scars in the world. Doesn't he deserve both? This song can play in his head anytime he's with anyone else but me.
L:
I see you that, and raise you this.
And also this
And
Posted: Sun Apr 30, 2017 7:05 pm
But really, more this.
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Posted: Sun Apr 30, 2017 7:13 pm
But also.
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It was a ******** situation. I've always been a really light sleeper because of my upbringing. When I was a kid, my dad would wake up at like 4-5am for work and immediately go nuts breaking s**t / slamming things / muttering to himself about how the rest of us were s**t. I think I actually wrote it verbatim for a flashback thread I did when David was my main.
Anyway, I used to wake up pre-emptively and make him coffee / breakfast because then he felt catered to and wouldn't start s**t and so my mom and him wouldn't get in a fight, and my sisters would be able to sleep.
But so yeah. I'm a really light sleeper. Slightest sound and I'm up. So I can't sleep next to anybody unless I'm so ******** comfortable, which is rare af. First adult relationship I was in, I was with the person almost a decade. Like eight years. It was a horrible situation but I never wanted to go home so I stayed and put up with really ******** s**t because I felt like it was "better" than dealing with my parents. He was in charge of everything. What I ate and how much and when, who I could see, for how long, with or without supervision, how much I could work, how much of my money I could keep, what I could do with it. All kinds of s**t. Lots of emotional and mental abuse, gaslighting, eviscerated my self esteem, was sexually vicious and warped my perception of that kind of thing for a long time, ******** up my reputation, isolated me from people who could help me, demonized me to his family.
But the worst ******** thing he did was mess with my sleep. Because obv I wasn't comfortable sleeping beside this person, so I'd toss and turn, and he'd "accidentally" knee or elbow me in his sleep, so I eventually got to where I'd just stay very still and lay awake. Sometimes I'd get up and try to sleep in another room, but he'd wake up and track me down to go wherever I was. A couple times I tried to lay on the couch and he'd like lean on me. Just all his weight. Or I remember one time I hid in the closet and braced the door shut with my legs, so he couldn't get in.
At the time of the 63hour thing, he'd been leaning on me / kicking me at night and I was working two jobs / driving my sisters to/from their GED stuff all the time. There was just no rest, ever.
TL;DR: I'm shitty at sleeping, because abusive ******** wouldn't let me sleep.
Jesus ******** Sen! Man that sounds like hell.
Someone sorta trained me to wake at certain times. Kinda like that. Not really though. I'd wake up around 3AM just because I knew that's when he would be getting up. I would try to talk to him for an hour then pass out again though. It was never awful.
I used to go like a week when I was heavily into drugs. I would take uppers and uppers and uppers over and over and over again so I'd only need to sleep 1-2 times. Then my body would just collapse for three days straight and I'd be comatose and wake up having no ******** clue what year I was in.
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Posted: Sun Apr 30, 2017 7:15 pm
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Hale: Now we're talking.
Less: And he's just allowed in here whenever he wants?
Hale: Oh. Didn't notice you there. You tell him yet that if he comes back I'll own him too, Lyrca?
L: eek Eh?
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It was a ******** situation. I've always been a really light sleeper because of my upbringing. When I was a kid, my dad would wake up at like 4-5am for work and immediately go nuts breaking s**t / slamming things / muttering to himself about how the rest of us were s**t. I think I actually wrote it verbatim for a flashback thread I did when David was my main.
Anyway, I used to wake up pre-emptively and make him coffee / breakfast because then he felt catered to and wouldn't start s**t and so my mom and him wouldn't get in a fight, and my sisters would be able to sleep.
But so yeah. I'm a really light sleeper. Slightest sound and I'm up. So I can't sleep next to anybody unless I'm so ******** comfortable, which is rare af. First adult relationship I was in, I was with the person almost a decade. Like eight years. It was a horrible situation but I never wanted to go home so I stayed and put up with really ******** s**t because I felt like it was "better" than dealing with my parents. He was in charge of everything. What I ate and how much and when, who I could see, for how long, with or without supervision, how much I could work, how much of my money I could keep, what I could do with it. All kinds of s**t. Lots of emotional and mental abuse, gaslighting, eviscerated my self esteem, was sexually vicious and warped my perception of that kind of thing for a long time, ******** up my reputation, isolated me from people who could help me, demonized me to his family.
But the worst ******** thing he did was mess with my sleep. Because obv I wasn't comfortable sleeping beside this person, so I'd toss and turn, and he'd "accidentally" knee or elbow me in his sleep, so I eventually got to where I'd just stay very still and lay awake. Sometimes I'd get up and try to sleep in another room, but he'd wake up and track me down to go wherever I was. A couple times I tried to lay on the couch and he'd like lean on me. Just all his weight. Or I remember one time I hid in the closet and braced the door shut with my legs, so he couldn't get in.
At the time of the 63hour thing, he'd been leaning on me / kicking me at night and I was working two jobs / driving my sisters to/from their GED stuff all the time. There was just no rest, ever.
TL;DR: I'm shitty at sleeping, because abusive ******** wouldn't let me sleep.
Jesus ******** Sen! Man that sounds like hell.
Someone sorta trained me to wake at certain times. Kinda like that. Not really though. I'd wake up around 3AM just because I knew that's when he would be getting up. I would try to talk to him for an hour then pass out again though. It was never awful.
I used to go like a week when I was heavily into drugs. I would take uppers and uppers and uppers over and over and over again so I'd only need to sleep 1-2 times. Then my body would just collapse for three days straight and I'd be comatose and wake up having no ******** clue what year I was in.
It was like six years ago now, at least the tail end of it. I still sleep for s**t, but I don't have to sleep next to anybody unless I want to, so that is a plus.
That sounds like the friend Odin reminds me of, honestly. Amphetamines and s**t. He'd just gogogogocrash. Poor kid.
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Hale: Now we're talking.
Less: And he's just allowed in here whenever he wants?
Hale: Oh. Didn't notice you there. You tell him yet that if he comes back I'll own him too, Lyrca?
L: eek Eh?
Which one? I mean, none of them are particularly cheery.
Also, leave Less out of it. Not enough that you killed the guy?
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It was like six years ago now, at least the tail end of it. I still sleep for s**t, but I don't have to sleep next to anybody unless I want to, so that is a plus.
That sounds like the friend Odin reminds me of, honestly. Amphetamines and s**t. He'd just gogogogocrash. Poor kid.
Yes. My best friend at the time kept telling me the drugs I was abusing hardly counted as drugs, that they were more like candy. So I was near overdosing for a couple months. Almost seriously popped my little heart back then twice. If she hadn't died I absolutely would have. I had no idea how close I was to kicking it until later.
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Which one? I mean, none of them are particularly cheery.
Also, leave Less out of it. Not enough that you killed the guy?
Hale: Less? Why are you defending the person who assaulted you? You do know I've never hurt you, yeah? We should all despise Less together. We're on the same team.
Posted: Sun Apr 30, 2017 7:38 pm
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Okay so this requires songs that actually rip my ******** heart out
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It was like six years ago now, at least the tail end of it. I still sleep for s**t, but I don't have to sleep next to anybody unless I want to, so that is a plus.
That sounds like the friend Odin reminds me of, honestly. Amphetamines and s**t. He'd just gogogogocrash. Poor kid.
Yes. My best friend at the time kept telling me the drugs I was abusing hardly counted as drugs, that they were more like candy. So I was near overdosing for a couple months. Almost seriously popped my little heart back then twice. If she hadn't died I absolutely would have. I had no idea how close I was to kicking it until later.
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Which one? I mean, none of them are particularly cheery.
Also, leave Less out of it. Not enough that you killed the guy?
Hale: Less? Why are you defending the person who assaulted you? You do know I've never hurt you, yeah? We should all despise Less together. We're on the same team.
Yeah, it was always a huge matter of contention for us. He'd "try" to stop using, but he always knew how to get ahold of something, and his best friend had convinced him that they knew how to do things safely. The girl he wound up marrying was terrible about it, too. She'd send him into shitty places and b***h him out if he didn't come back with her s**t, not even care if he got jumped, just pissed she didn't get what she wanted. He wasn't an innocent party either, constantly lied to me about all kinds of s**t until I didn't know up from down. But we had a really complicated relationship. Still don't know how I feel about it half the time. I like to think he's okay, but the truth is that I don't know.
Why should I despise Less? Over a broken nose? I've forgiven people for worse.
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Yeah, it was always a huge matter of contention for us. He'd "try" to stop using, but he always knew how to get ahold of something, and his best friend had convinced him that they knew how to do things safely. The girl he wound up marrying was terrible about it, too. She'd send him into shitty places and b***h him out if he didn't come back with her s**t, not even care if he got jumped, just pissed she didn't get what she wanted. He wasn't an innocent party either, constantly lied to me about all kinds of s**t until I didn't know up from down. But we had a really complicated relationship. Still don't know how I feel about it half the time. I like to think he's okay, but the truth is that I don't know.
Why should I despise Less? Over a broken nose? I've forgiven people for worse.
Hale: Oh now you're just trying to get under my skin. Thanks for all the information on the backstory, though. I think I know who my first character will be.
L: You can't create characters on your own.
Hale: You testing me?
L: // Glances from Sen to Less.
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Yeah, it was always a huge matter of contention for us. He'd "try" to stop using, but he always knew how to get ahold of something, and his best friend had convinced him that they knew how to do things safely. The girl he wound up marrying was terrible about it, too. She'd send him into shitty places and b***h him out if he didn't come back with her s**t, not even care if he got jumped, just pissed she didn't get what she wanted. He wasn't an innocent party either, constantly lied to me about all kinds of s**t until I didn't know up from down. But we had a really complicated relationship. Still don't know how I feel about it half the time. I like to think he's okay, but the truth is that I don't know.
Why should I despise Less? Over a broken nose? I've forgiven people for worse.
Hale: Oh now you're just trying to get under my skin. Thanks for all the information on the backstory, though. I think I know who my first character will be.
L: You can't create characters on your own.
Hale: You testing me?
L: // Glances from Sen to Less.
I don't actually get what you mean, Hale. You asked and I answered. I don't know Lester well enough to dislike him, so the jury's still out on him.
You haven't hurt me, but you have hurt a lot of other people, and my opinion on that differs depending on where I am in my head. Right now I'm pretty exhausted, so I don't have energy for games or cryptic bullshit.
You catch more flies with honey, either way.
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I don't actually get what you mean, Hale. You asked and I answered. I don't know Lester well enough to dislike him, so the jury's still out on him.
You haven't hurt me, but you have hurt a lot of other people, and my opinion on that differs depending on where I am in my head. Right now I'm pretty exhausted, so I don't have energy for games or cryptic bullshit.
You catch more flies with honey, either way.
Hale: What am I supposed to do with a pile of flies?
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I don't actually get what you mean, Hale. You asked and I answered. I don't know Lester well enough to dislike him, so the jury's still out on him.
You haven't hurt me, but you have hurt a lot of other people, and my opinion on that differs depending on where I am in my head. Right now I'm pretty exhausted, so I don't have energy for games or cryptic bullshit.
You catch more flies with honey, either way.
Hale: What am I supposed to do with a pile of flies?
It's just a proverb, man. It basically means you can get more out of being nice, as opposed to the alternative.
