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She heard someone say something but couldn't tell what it was.... something... was wrong...but...Ah..it was bliss not to feel or think...but was it really? Lillian's life had been so depressing lately, how could start being happy so suddenly?, The sane part of her mind asked itself. After Callysto had left her..life had been a nightmare. But now she had plummeted headfirst, suddenly, into a wonderful dream...this was a different kind of happiness though, not the normal happiness she felt what seemed like ages ago......it wiped her mind clean, free to wander...but a voice was awakening in Lillian's head.."WAKE UP" it seemed to shout, as if from a distance....."Obey me." the other one said..."I WON'T!" another yelled back...it was like her mind was arguing with itself...and there was nothing she could do...

she was completely caught off guard...had barely seen a glimpse of who had even cast the curse...it had been a rival of hers..just someone who disagreed with her and had now taken it too far...Desdemona was it?..an old rival who had also wanted the headmaster's job, but had loved the dark arts too much.. But hadn't she fled to Siberia many years ago?. No..wait..Lillian remembered Desdemona swearing to get revenge..well as Lillian fought the curse..she was getting it now....Lillian felt like she was somewhere in between reality and oblivion as she tried to fight the curse...but she was helpless before it, and couldn't summon her strength when her mind had been so unprepared against an attack in any form...so weak..so vulnerable...she heard someone laughing from what seemed like across the ocean...she cried out but it was muffled by someone's hand across her mouth...they were pointing the wand at her head...what choice did she have, her arms didn't have the willpower to move as the curse told her not to struggle...just to obey...obey...act as if nothing was wrong...bend Hogwarts to their will...obey..obey...

the words seemed to echo throughout her head, and she could practically feel all of her effort and attempts to gather herself slowly leaving her....before she knew what was even happening, her head was moving up and down, nodding at her master's command...she heard more laughing...the last bit of strength and resistance tried to run, but she stumbled and fell...hitting the floor hard she could taste blood in her mouth, running down her nose...more laughing...and it sounded even further away now...just obey.....

"Yes of course master..." Lillian said impassively.

She sent out the announcement and sat down on the cold, hard floor, her face blank. But her mind was at war. One side was screaming out, begging trying to be heard, the other shouting it down, currently winning.

Lillian gave a low bow to Desdemona and sat on the floor as one side of her mind had told her to do. She looked up at Desdemona laughing, and her eyes widened slightly.

"You.." she whispered..."YOU!" And she was lunging at the woman, throwing off the curse, trying to fight it, but when she was inches from her, she fell back down on the floor and was struggling an internal battle in which she had no control...

She was screaming unearthly sounds that filled the room and echoed all over the walls. She was curled up in a tight ball as if she was trying to make herself a smaller target. “PLEASE!” She screeched, hardly knowing what she was asking for, barely knowing where or who she was anymore. She just wanted to pain to stop..the knives to stop burning her skin and stabbing her...the nightmare to end...She rolled on the floor and was writhing in agony..she saw someone through her blurry eyes watching her...laughing at her pain...

“NO!” She was yelling, as if her anger and pain would stop the curse. Tears were filling her eyes now when she understood that this woman knew no bounds. Someone has to find me, she can't do this forever. Every bit of defiance in her tried to fight the curse, but she let it consume her nevertheless. The blood that was still filling up her mouth from her fall was dripping all over the floor, staining her dress and rug..

She choked for a moment on blood and tears as the curse was lifted. The pain had stopped..

"Yes..master.." She gurgled and spluttered, drops of blood splattering her hands. She spit out the remainder of blood and tears onto the floor and rug, watching as they slowly were absorbed by the carpet.

Master was now walking around the office with a huge smile on her face. The second half of her mind was now telling her to sleep and wait for orders tommorow...she did feel quite tired..

"Gladly...master..." she murmmered, and she sank to the floor, asleep, using her long hair like a pillow cushion.

[NOTE: This room is locked and bolted and I made the announcement that no one was allowed in and your character could have no way of knowing this is happening. Don't god-mod and try and defeat her]

The next morning, Lillian woke up, not feeling refreshed at all. She kept trying to fight the curse, but was trapped in her office all night long with her master....once, Lillian could feel something, like she was truly waking up...and she tried to run for it...it was like a light bulb had went off in her brain...her mouth was moving “HELP” but no words were coming out...someone had to be concerned...someone must know that she would never want Hogwarts in danger...someone must come....but no one could. No one was allowed in her office by order of the master....she at one point noticed how many of her precious instruments were broken and smashed..thankfully desdemona had merely tossed Lillian's wand aside and not snapped it..and the picture of her family..her diary..was still safe. that no one could open but her...

last night Lillian was trying to fight the curse and had stumbled to the door even...but master just cackled, made sure the door was locked, and then punched Lillian's face, sending her flying into the wall, where her head smashed against the brick and gave her a huge lump there...she had slumped to the floor unconscious...making her weaker, not having strength left in her...a better victim for her master's imperius curse...she kept trying to fight it..honestly she did...but why put yourself in even more danger...why drain yourself of even more strength...why let yourself be a victim even more so than you already are...she tried to leap from the window, tried to dissapparate..but master caught her attempting to focus all her energy and turning...she had been beaten again for this...it was like what her husband had done all those years ago...and what happened in Callysto's classroom so recently...it was like the nightmare all over again...she had bruises blooming on her face and arms...her legs were too weak to support her... she had been tortured into submission...but she was alive...and surely there was hope as long as that remained fact...someone would come...someone had to realize something wasn't right...It had only been a day...she told herself calmly. Just keep fighting it and don't give up...try to fight, don't give up...

Lillian looked Desdemona in her narrowed eyes and filled her large blue ones with as much hatred and fury as she could muster.

"I'd give it about an eternity or so." She said coldly, and sneered before looking back down onto the ground and wincing when she saw all the bruises on her legs. She tried to stand, but gave up, then sat on a chair, and put her head on her knees, with her hands folded ontop of her head. She was shaking all over, but still refused to break.

Lillian supressed a smile as she heard Desdemona's furious scream, but her expression was soon replaced by a look of pure terror as she was staring into her eyes. She closed her eyes tight and gritted her teeth in pain as she was thrown to the ground, and as she heard Desdemona shout Crucio, she wished she hadn't said a thing...

It was more painful than anything she had ever suffered, and with Desdemona's rage backing the curse, it was as if her insides were on fire.
Every inch of her body in pain, white-hot, she was screaming, but there was hardly any noise coming out of her mouth as her master gagged her and watched her twist in pain..... Master didn't lift her wand, but let the pain overcome Lillian...let it consume her until she was on the verge of madness, easy to bend to her command and ready to do her bidding....and Lillian was trying to fight the pain...but master just laughed....and laughed...and the laughter seemed to go on forever, and the pain seemed endless. “ Oh God let it stop let it stop please let me die let me die make it stop make it stop let me die” kept ringing throughout her ears until she wanted to be imperiused again, just to make the pain leave her.. Because the pain was unbearable...and master wouldn't lift their wand...and tears were falling like waterfalls now... Master was heartless...so heartless...and when it did stop Lillian couldn't even lift her head... Deep cuts were all over her skin..and she would surely die here in a puddle of her own blood, a small pool forming around her...perhaps she would love die in it, not to have to feel... She was gagging on the cloth that she had not been able to remove... It was wet with tears and blood and her moans were filled with pain... “And oh God please imperius me again, make them I beg it of you now and just make the pain stop, just make me not feel anymore....”