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 Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:04 pm
It's official! I've been abandoned by my "friends".
They claim the OCD and Bipolar are just an act to get attention, and they've abandoned me.
So... I'm lonely? emo
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:07 pm
Worry not, Behatz, we are your isolated friends bhind the computer screen so very far away until we arrange a mett-up and kill you.
What was that supposed to acomplish?
Sassafrass! Now I feel like you might take your life! Wait, no... Not you. That's a compliment.
But, really, they think you are doing an act? I facepalm them. talk2hand
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:16 pm
Lumanny Worry not, Behatz, we are your isolated friends bhind the computer screen so very far away until we arrange a mett-up and kill you. What was that supposed to acomplish? Sassafrass! Now I feel like you might take your life! Wait, no... Not you. That's a compliment. But, really, they think you are doing an act? I facepalm them. talk2hand I just don't get it... after like 5 years of knowing me you'd think they'd, well, Know me! Instead, about a month ago, one of them asked why I looked a bit depressed. I replied there was no logical reason, it was just Bipolar. Then she got all hissy and started bitching about how melodramatic I am and how I should stop being a hypochondriac as my "act" is "annoying" them. And they've been slowly staying away from me, until now I haven't spoken to any of them in like 24 hours. I'm on my own.
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:21 pm
It's hard for people to understand things when they haven't lived it themselves. Yes it was wrong of them to accuse you of something you are not, Behatz, but at the same time it seems rather typical of humans.
*Pat pat* We'll all be friends/potential murderers! smile
Now for a really long anecdote!
I have a friend who has self diagnosed herself as being bipolar (Is she really? I dunno. Her mom is too cheap to send her to a shrink). Anyway, one night she was staying the night at my house and we were laying quiet trying to sleep. Suddenly she started to snarl, or at least that's what it sounded like. She was also frantically scratching at her skin. I was so freaked out that I thought surely she was just trying to get attention. I still don't know what it was about, but maybe it wasn't about attention at all...that's just what I assumed because I didn't understand.
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:24 pm
It depends on what she was thinking. If she wanted attention, that'd be a perfect way of doing it. If she felt highly depressed, she may have been trying to self-harm (common in Bipolar, but not me!) with her nails.
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:26 pm
That DOES seem odd....
Me? I would LOVE being on my own; I'd be euphoric....For the first three seconds. Yeah, I love solitude but with my pack of a few friends. If they left me... Well, I don't know if Johnny and my invisible friends would completely cover the loss.
I hope it will blow over; these things often do. We two are cut from the same cloth.... If I knew you IRL I would have far more consistent hero worship and a lasting sidekick gig. I really would want that.
Isn't St. Patricks day a Christian Holiday? Why kick you when you're down?
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 4:30 pm
It's also a symbol of Irish Nationalism I want a sidekick...
Can you ride in motorbike sidecarts and say phrases like: "Holy Gefilteh Fish, Sugarman!"?
If it doesn't blow over, I'm a bit stuck, 'aint I?
I like solitude sometimes, and other times I get very lonely very quickly. It's a great trigger for depression.
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 5:03 pm
I hope I'm not driving people to self harm now. Damn.
We've been talking about how everyone has Irish pride on St. Patrick's Day...because it means you can drink til you puke green. Who wouldn't want to celebrate that?
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 5:44 pm
I'm Irish. I live here and have always known it as a Chrisitan holiday. But whatever. xp
My fear of pushing others off the brink unwittingly was CONTAGIOUS?? What the??? scream
neutral Yes, Behatz, though we are often statistical outliers, we still need some contact as all humans do. My dad was just talking about that the other day...
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 5:47 pm
Oh yeah and I'm grea at that sidekick stuff!! Though I will often be the hero just so I don't get an inferiority complex, I have always loved being a follower. Once my friend offered me Vice President in class elections and I was like "Come on, man! I wanted to be campaign manager."
I love being the eternally youthful and useful sidekick. blaugh
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Posted: Tue Mar 17, 2009 5:55 pm
Holy Compulsion, Bipolar manic!
(Had to do it, post 700!!)
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Posted: Thu Mar 19, 2009 2:07 pm
Hate to ruin the exactly 700 posts, but I didn't think adding this in edit to the last post was quite right:
My third midlife crisis; no one at school can believe it! I have cried a bit but might be getting better. sad Sigh...
I told one teacher about it and about the OCD a while ago and today she even cut the dried glue part off of my project manilla envelope for me. She is nice.
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Posted: Thu Mar 19, 2009 3:33 pm
702!
She is a nice teacher. One of my teachers has a low level of serotonin and an interest in Judaism, so we get on well.
So what set this crisis off?
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Posted: Thu Mar 19, 2009 3:37 pm
Me? I've had a growth spurt and forgot to shave and now everyone saw me and is treating me like some middle- aged man who can do everything for himself. Ergo, midlife crisis. As I said, this is my third; Aspergers gives me a propendency to get them.
You?
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Posted: Thu Mar 19, 2009 3:56 pm
Apart from the usual bouts of depression, loneliness, anxiety, etc. I've never had a crisis like that. I once wore a scarf over my face like a veil for like 3 days because I was paranoid people were laughing about my teeth. I've had a brace now, though.
biggrin
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