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 Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:02 pm
She shook her head a little bit. She...didn't want to be alone, not truly. But she felt the tension around Jamal and she hesitated asking him to stay.
Instead she just cracked a smirk. "Yeah Jamal, too macho to cry huh? Hey at least you still have that up on me, eh? One out of five, right?"
As if that moment...that kiss in Jamal's duplex hadn't happened. At lunch they had settled back into their normal routine too. Awen's stomach clenched but at least Jamal was her friend...at the least.
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:08 pm
"Betta than none outta five," he quipped back immediately, though the usual jest that would accompany that comment was missing. His mood was too rotten really to muster anything other than a lackluster smirk. Jamal decided to avoid the crying topic, feeling it would be poor taste to joke about it when she -was- obviously upset enough to be sobbing on a beach when she professed to HATE water.
However, that didn't mean he couldn't be concerned. He sort of slunk in her general direction slowly, pausing to make sure she wasn't going to blow up or anything.
"You gonna be a'ight? Dat was a loudass scream...half da time I can't even do it dat damn loud."
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:13 pm
She looked up to him as he apporched but looked down, loosing her smirk or smile or what have you along the way. "Yeah well, they've always said I had some set of pipes on me." She mumbled barely even caring to recall that memory. She was really just avoiding the topic. She didn't know if she was going to be alright or not.
"Just got into another argument." She muttered finally. "I've hardly ever gotten into arguments before I came here..... and now..." She just sighed heavily and looked up to the rising stars. "doesn't...doesn't really matter."
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:19 pm
Eventually he made it so he was about three or so yards away, his sillohuete oulined against the sand by the moonlight, and jammed his hands back in his pockets.
"Mmmhmmm," he drawled, in reference to the 'set of pipes' comment, agreeing with it, but cocked a brow at her comment of arguments. Those weren't so bad...hell, he used to live for those sort of things.
"s**t changes...can't always like ev'rybody, ya know. I ain't so cool wit' mosta da otha peeps herr neitha. Peeps gonna disagree sometimes." He meant well by that comment, but it was probably far from reassuring. "I jus' avoid 'em. Dey wanna talk, dey come find me..."
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:27 pm
Awen shifted her weight a little bit and decided to just sit back down. "Maybe..... but I don't like upsetting people..." She traced her finger in the sand. For now she was too wrapped up in other things to care about the water, though know her mind was starting to acknowledge the sound of the waves and the smell of salt.
"But I don't want to be alone either." She added rather quickly. "I just..want to please people, make them happy... I like being around people when they're happy and it hurts to see someone else upset and just kills me when I've caused it." She took in a deep breath through her teeth and made another fist feeling the sand sift through her fingers.
"But they just...make me so mad.... they're denying other people the truth. They're just ignoring it and going along with whatever lie the Doctor strings out next.... They're helping the Doctor by lying to other people.. by the way appearently we're on a movie set now." She rolled her eyes. "But they b***h at me saying how I'm looking at it all wrong. They just don't get it... Enabling the lies is just as bad as making them up yourself, which makes them no better than the Doctor!"
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:33 pm
Of course Jamal was appropriately confused, knowing few of the details that went down, but damn it...he would save face for as long as he could. He was pretty good at bullshitting, if he might say so.
"Ya gotta unda'stand dat people ain't never gonna see things da same way...they gonna take it dif'rent ev'rytime. You might not be tryin' to start nuthin' but maybe they seein' it like you is."
He paused, trying to straighten out the mess that was Awen's last statement about the Doctor and lies and whatnot. Not all lies were bad...but it was so hard for him to really take a side on this whole thing. He wasn't going to believe the Doctor was out to ruin anyone's life until he saw it happening. Deciding not to even ask about any of that, he slipped down into the sand where he was standing, still three yards away.
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:37 pm
Somewhere in the back of her mind, Awen noted how Jamal stayed three feet away and somewhere it hurt her. She hoped she wasn't scaring him off or anything... Maybe stopping what was going on the other day made him just back off...?
These thoughts definately weren't helping. She sighed heavily hating to agree with Jamal's words. "Yeah I know but..." She sighed heavily and brought her knees to her chest wrapping her arms around herself. "I don't know... doesn't matter I guess. Nothing.. I can do about it."
She paused from her own selfish thoughts and remembered Jamal seeming upset. She looked up to him. "So what's got your goat?"
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:48 pm
His distance really had nothing to do with her other than he figured she needed her space. She had no idea though and he hadn't passed a thought that she might take it wrong.
"Jus' tired of dis ********' island already," he said honestly, figuring it wasn't good to lie when she just ranted about people lying to other people. "Feelin' like I ain't got no place herr...missin' da bright lights n'stuff."
Jamal's face set into a hard glare, though not directed at Awen.
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:51 pm
She nodded a little bit. She really knew the feeling of being sick of the island. She edges over to Jamal to finally sit beside him. If he moved...then he moved. But for now she just leaned her head against his shoulders. She knew she just ranted about lying but..she knew Jamal would never listen...and she just wanted to feel...normal right now. She'll curse herself later...
"So, you're going to get the Doc to send you back soon? Or at least somewhere else, another city?" She asked softly.
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 9:59 pm
He didn't move away; he had just been sitting off to the side because she might have needed space...and apparently that was not the case.
At the mention of being sent away, a rueful smile appeared over his previously stony expression. "Maybe....I jus' ain't feelin' righ' herr. If I go back, I probably gonna get in trouble again...them damn cops gonna find me soona' o' lata. My options ain't dat good herr or if I leave, if what yous been sayin' is true 'bout what the Doc is up to."
Jamal said the latter carefully in hopes of not trying to irritate Awen into thinking that he thought she was making this all up. The Doctor's plan for the black man wasn't going to be clear until he started showing signs of transformation...he could just be lucky?...he really didn't want to believe any of this nonsense was going on though.
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 10:03 pm
She mauled something over in her mind a long while. It had always been bugging her in the back of her mind. She debated asking though... She just nuzzled his shoulder a little bit thinking.
After a few more moments hesitation Awen glanced up at Jamal. "Why...are the police looking for you anyway...?" She asked purely with simple curiosity and stark innocence.
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 10:08 pm
Jamal effectively froze as the sentence passed her lips, his eyes darting out to stare at the dark horizon as he tried his hardest to not look phased by the inquiry. He was not really in the mood to let out his little secret. He "mrrred" uneasily.
It had been an accident, of course...well...an accident that he killed the guy. He shot the guy on purpose but the fact that the bullet hit a major artery was pure bad luck.
"Uh...stupid things I done," he answered lamely, hoping she wouldn't ask further.
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 10:13 pm
Awen wondered still...but he had made it clear he didn't feel right answering. she slipped her arms slowly around him. "It's okay Jamal, you don't have to say. Sorry I guess I was just curious."
She held him but in the silence that followed the waves were more apparent, the smell in the air distinct. She knew and began to tremble. She gave a small squeeze to Jamal, wishing they weren't near the ocean...
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 10:21 pm
He was grateful she didn't pry; he wasn't comfortable with explaining his woes at that moment. As she wound her arms about his middle, he relaxed and dug the toe of one shoe into the sand, still staring out at the water.
However, when she started to shake bad enough to where he could feel it also, he glanced over at her and draped an arm over her shoulders, tugging her gently closer. He wasn't sure what the problem was...cold?...upset still over her argument...or was that water fear finally acting up? He gave her a questioning look.
((Will continue tomorrow...it's late. XD; ))
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Posted: Thu Nov 10, 2005 10:32 pm
-Transition from the Village rp-
Hargun nodded as they made their way to the main beach area. She didnt bother to look very hard.. it would strain her eyes too much anyways and wouldnt help at all. Instead she followed behind the Dude and Joliette quickly.
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