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When she woke up, her brain still felt like it had been drowned. She tried to speak, but a gurgling noise escaped her that certainly didn't sound human, more like a fish. She did indeed feel like a fish...she was so trapped. But rather than it being a bowl, it was a big dusty room where she lie all alone. She felt a twinge of unease and guilt remembering that it might not be alone if she hadn't sent Riley, Rose, and Lily out yesterday...but it was getting late and a young boy seeing something like this? It was just...awkward to say the least. Then memories of Al came rushing back to her and she gave herself a teary smile. She knew she wouldn't be able to walk without Al'd guidance for a while, but maybe in a few days, if she could build her strength up and eat without vomiting, her arms would be strong enough for a wheelchair. Maybe even a walker!

She grinned and then gave a small cackling laugh, the horrible noise filling the empty room. She stopped herself and sighed into her pillow. She still wanted to die, since she still felt so abnormal. But not as much anymore. If this emotion took over a bit though...and she had a wand, she might actually kill herself. No wonder they wouldn't give her her wand back...she still woke up at night screaming loudly and laughing, but at least is was only 2-7 times now...maybe a bit more...it was at least better than the dozen times she woke up yelling a few nights ago.

She slowly opened her eyes and let out a small noise that might have been a greeting. She didn't want to tell anyone she had been walking last night...they might yell at her. It was probably why she felt so tired and strained today. Then she saw him. Riley...guilt bubbled in the pit of her stomach and she opened her mouth to say Hello Riley, but all that came out was a faint rasping noise. She gave a small giggle and gave up trying to talk, letting them have the next word.

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Lillian knew she wouldn't have the strength to say what she wanted to, and she was still scared of writing because of all...those signatures... She stammered wordlessly a moment. Then took a deep breath and spoke quickly and as clearly as she could with blood filling her mouth and nose.

"I dob't habte choo." She coughed a bit and swallowed the blood in her throat so she could speak better. "I just hate being seen like this...it's bot who i amb."

LOL Got to make a crush page post))

She smiled when he kissed her forehead and coughed into the tissue, it instantly became a deep red. She crumpled it up and threw it into the waste-basket by her bed, then she sat up a little bit, the pillows behind her.
"Thanks for visiting." She said hoarsely. "I'm sorry I couldn't be as welcoming earlier..." She decided not to tell them that she really wanted them to leave so she could throw up. "...but please stay as long as you like. And Lily, thanks for all your visits. Having visitors makes the painful, tedious days much more bearable." She was trying to make it sound like she was getting better and growing stronger, but she knew she wasn't as good as she could be. She still wasn't eating...she still wanted death sometimes...even if she was improving, she barely noticed. It was all in her head and mind...