"i've even lost you."
She said quietly, looking at her necklace and then scooped up the pieces and placed then in a bag pocket. She had nothing left right now, it meant nothing to her anymore. She sighed and walked to the main room, and past Neko and Motoko , saying nothing for a moment.
"You know Motoko, I never meant to cause the harm I did. There is no need for your so called re-evaluations, as long as I am what I am, I will never be perfect enough in your eyes, that I know. This was the most that I could without physically being killed, if you are so worried about my recklessness, then stop having my training always be more physical if that is no longer my weakness. I've tried to help myself, but if you don't help fix it when I can't, nothing will ever happen for me to fix it. you said I don't ask for help, well I have and am, change my training to fix my weaknesses, I can't help myself alone for this if no one is willing to help guide me into training I haven't experienced to this extent.......i had nothing to prove to begin with, I just tried to help... I thought what I did would be helpful being he said go train i thought it would be a challenging training and help for it, but i have nothing to prove to you anymore if you refuse..."
She said sighing, and then turned away to head to her room. She wanted to fix things, she wanted to be better, but she couldn't step in blindly and alone at this point and with no one helping her at all with her weaknesses at some points, she would never. As for her mistake, it had been careless, but the fact she had meant no harm should have been realized as well, that she was trying to make them look good, sadly she had only managed to do bad and the opposite of the intended results.
She said quietly, looking at her necklace and then scooped up the pieces and placed then in a bag pocket. She had nothing left right now, it meant nothing to her anymore. She sighed and walked to the main room, and past Neko and Motoko , saying nothing for a moment.
"You know Motoko, I never meant to cause the harm I did. There is no need for your so called re-evaluations, as long as I am what I am, I will never be perfect enough in your eyes, that I know. This was the most that I could without physically being killed, if you are so worried about my recklessness, then stop having my training always be more physical if that is no longer my weakness. I've tried to help myself, but if you don't help fix it when I can't, nothing will ever happen for me to fix it. you said I don't ask for help, well I have and am, change my training to fix my weaknesses, I can't help myself alone for this if no one is willing to help guide me into training I haven't experienced to this extent.......i had nothing to prove to begin with, I just tried to help... I thought what I did would be helpful being he said go train i thought it would be a challenging training and help for it, but i have nothing to prove to you anymore if you refuse..."
She said sighing, and then turned away to head to her room. She wanted to fix things, she wanted to be better, but she couldn't step in blindly and alone at this point and with no one helping her at all with her weaknesses at some points, she would never. As for her mistake, it had been careless, but the fact she had meant no harm should have been realized as well, that she was trying to make them look good, sadly she had only managed to do bad and the opposite of the intended results.
