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 Posted: Sun Feb 06, 2011 9:07 pm
Jedi Sasquatch Every once in awhile something happens that makes me feel like I'm still an outsider here. Whether it's an old member returning and everyone getting excited to see him (which, incidentally, nobody got excited to see me after my like 6 month long hiatus) or people talking about how awesome some event in the past was.
I know I have friends here. I know it doesn't make sense for me to feel like an outsider. But I can't really help it. .___.
And you're definitely not an outsider in the guild. You might be a little new on skype, but remember not everyone from the guild goes on skype anyway. ;p And the VC today was super fun. A little sorry about the random spewage of past chat messages, but I think we were being kind of slap-happy at that point. It didn't last too long anyway and it's over now, so. P:
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Posted: Sun Feb 06, 2011 9:52 pm
Why am I having so much trouble sleeping lately? It takes me ******** to fall asleep, if I even do at all. And when I do sleep, I have horrible nightmares and wake up crying. I'm not going through anything particularly traumatizing or anything like that, so what's going on? T___T
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Posted: Sun Feb 06, 2011 10:59 pm
Vinicius Fernagon I'm ******** pathetic. Seriously.
My first court date is coming up pretty soon and I'm trying my best not to let my family find out about it.
I really hope that everything gets settled and I don't have to see her again.
Either that or I'll just tell them that I did do everything that she's accusing me of so they'll just send me to jail. I really don't give a ******** anymore.
I'm so stressed out and tired all the damn time.
I barely even sleep because I always have horrid dreams and I either wake up crying or being sick.
Everything's just falling apart.
I don't even know what I did to deserve all of this.
Nothing's working out.
It doesn't matter how hard I try or what I do.
It's just not enough.
I feel like such a ******** idiot all the damn time.
I don't even know why I care anymore.
It's obvious that this isn't going to work.
It's not doing any good.
There's no point in it if everything feels so forced.
It would probably just be better for everyone if I gave up anyway.
So I'm done caring.
I'm not even going to try anymore.
Like I said before, she has no proof, so the case is just going to be dropped.
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 2:24 am
CleoSombra Suelita_M This isn't serious in the slightest, but I'm so sick of bad SS/EB, SEB crews! DX Two hours and we've had restart three times, and never even got to EB! One person refuses to change their rings, and another just flat out did almost nothing but b***h and still the leader didn't kick them. Why is it so hard to find a good crew anymore? I mean really, how hard is it to actually follow the rules and stay with the group?
-___- Two f-ing hours of this bullshit and all I have to show for it is like 8k. x_X I will SS with you. =D My only rule is that we do not kill the Eyes of the Fluff. >o Sweet! =DD And agree about the fluffs! X3
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 3:25 am
•○♣☼♣○•
I'm so sorry.
I've stopped replying here. I've not been there when people needed someone.
I'm not looking for a pat on the back and a 'it's okay' or attention I just wanted to say I'm sorry and I'll do better.
•○♣☼♣○•
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 6:31 am
/gurglegurgleguuuurglegurglegurglegurglewhooshgurgle
The sounds my stomach's making are really annoying me >.<
There we go again! Gurglegurgle right as I'm typing this. xD
Happy news tiem nao:
My bald community leader is giving the Leukemia foundation $50 for me shaving my head =D
That's. . . . $235.50 I've raised so far. =DD
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 6:38 am
I really don't want to get out of bed today. I have a feeling that nothing will go the way I want it to. I wish I could skip class for a day and just sleep. However, I must push myself to get things done, despite my pessimistic attitude this morning. No one is going to wait for me to cheer up, they could care less. If things don't work out well, I'll just have to work twice as hard to catch up. Of course it won't be fun, but failing a class is not acceptable.
But who knows. Maybe things will improve as the day goes on. As they say, "nothing ventured, nothing gained," right? D8
EDIT: I'm really glad I have a way to vent without being judged. For most of the things I can never say, I end up typing it out on my iTouch. And while most of the things in there will never see the light of day, its good to know that I can say how I truly feel without upsetting someone else.
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 6:45 am
Miss Perfection •○♣☼♣○•
I'm so sorry.
I've stopped replying here. I've not been there when people needed someone.
I'm not looking for a pat on the back and a 'it's okay' or attention I just wanted to say I'm sorry and I'll do better.
•○♣☼♣○•
Hush, Perfy. It's perfectly fine to fall behind; you have issues and a life to live, too. Don't be hard on yourself. <3
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 11:05 am
Stupid of me to listen to my mom and not take my meds last night just so she'd shut up.
Need to throw up. Now. ******** dizzy. So tired, my stomach kept hurting last night so I got less than an hour of sleep. Failed first ******** math quiz of the semester. Can't even draw so I can zone out, nothing's working right. Meds still not kicking in Worst ******** day so far this year.
I'm considering finding some way to force myself to throw up just so I don't feel so bad.
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 11:09 am
Jer0nim0 Stupid of me to listen to my mom and not take my meds last night just so she'd shut up.
Need to throw up. Now. ******** dizzy. So tired, my stomach kept hurting last night so I got less than an hour of sleep. Failed first ******** math quiz of the semester. Can't even draw so I can zone out, nothing's working right. Meds still not kicking in Worst ******** day so far this year.
I'm considering finding some way to force myself to throw up just so I don't feel so bad.
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 11:09 am
Miss Perfection •○♣☼♣○•
I'm so sorry.
I've stopped replying here. I've not been there when people needed someone.
I'm not looking for a pat on the back and a 'it's okay' or attention I just wanted to say I'm sorry and I'll do better.
•○♣☼♣○•
Well you may not be looking for a "it's okay," but you're going to get one from me anyway.
There's no need to apologize, Perfy. It's not like it's your job to comfort us or anything.
We all love you, okay? <3
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 12:04 pm
I. Fffffffffn. Hate. Attention. Hoars. scream
scream
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emo
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 12:06 pm
Mickey2146 I. Fffffffffn. Hate. Attention. Hoars. scream scream ... emo Perfecct!! =D I just got on skype and I hate them to too
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 12:09 pm
Jer0nim0 Stupid of me to listen to my mom and not take my meds last night just so she'd shut up.
Need to throw up. Now. ******** dizzy. So tired, my stomach kept hurting last night so I got less than an hour of sleep. Failed first ******** math quiz of the semester. Can't even draw so I can zone out, nothing's working right. Meds still not kicking in Worst ******** day so far this year.
I'm considering finding some way to force myself to throw up just so I don't feel so bad. *hugs* ;; =/ have you gone to a doctor? will you be?
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Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 12:37 pm
Why did I have to see that picture? It's making me worry so much... T______T
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