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Secret: Can't afford voice chat technology or w/e is needed DX spent limit on money, dad urges us to save up crying

On the inside, I can talk up a storm. I just need listeners is all =D I used to have the annoying/talkative personality, but that was sealed in the 6th grade by my math teacher after my first day of moving from CA to VA. I was pissing her off that she had to see me after class and stuff like that. I vowed to never talk again after that, despite this being 5 years after. But the internet taught me MANY things that helped me learn more in pervy conversations during lunch.

Example:

Steph: ok, so yeah you had c** on your face
heather: wait it would be better if it gets in her hair since it would be really disgusting XD
Me: how come?
Everyone: OOOH!!! I GET IT! hahahaha!!
me: *confused and not realizing I just made a pun unintentionally* sweatdrop

@Creas: that image of Ashno is forever burned in my brain DX It's burning me more than my overheating laptop lol

RANTRANTRANT... It's getting harder to put up with now. It seems the only way I'll get heard is if I shout... and it shouldn't be like that. My mother keeps thinking it's smart to now pick out little bits about me that "irritates" her in front of my sister. She keeps making stupid jokes which ARE NOT FUNNY. I can't even study without them calling me to do something that's not even hard for them to do... So I've given up on that for the mean time D:< I'm attempting to do my work right now, but oh hey, I keep getting called to do their frikkin stuff, such as making them a drink, checking if the ps2 works... WTF? ¬_¬ I blatently tidied up the kitchen this morning and my mother says I do nothing and agrees with my brother... woah she's got it totally wrong, it's him that does NOTHING. Oh wow, he goes outside to put things in the freezer because I don't want to. *Applauds* Now apparently I seem moody because I'm not reacting to how they'd expect me. Okay, saying lame jokes about me and stuff, you'd expect me to laugh along with it? No, not really. So I stay quite, saying NOTHING. Absolutely nothing and oh hey, I'm moody. If I have nothing to say, then I have nothing to say, it does NOT make me moody. Yes, it's starting to annoy me, but seriously? STOP IT. D:< It's fine, really fine that my bro shouts and screams at the TV watching friggin old aged men kick balls and throw them, and whilst he does that, he's not interupted. But while I do my work, MY WORK FOR MY GRADES, it's chaos because I can't do it in peace without being nagged at.

The difference is, when I do something in the house, I don't go asking for praise, I do it when no one is there. I'm not someone who feeds of praise, yet my bro blatently does it in front of them to get it, and guess what, I get told I do nothing. Lmao, suresure. SUREE. D:<

/rant... :'(

Heheheh...my dad was talking about his car and he said the word "gas". lol

KITTY!! *squees and tries to pet it*

Ugh, I just know I'm going to upset someone with this post, so please refrain from quoting it, because if I do offend someone, I'll want to delete all traces. sweatdrop Why don't I just refrain from posting, you may ask? Because there are times when the need to just let go and explode overpowers the fear of what can happen if I do...

That post about online friends not being real friends...just...made...me...so...angry. Okay, normally I get somewhat offended at the mere implication of such things (as you guys know), but I think this actual direct dismissal upset me a lot more than I realized it would. Yeah, it wasn't directed at me, yeah, it didn't say anything about people with online friends being losers or anything directly offensive like that, and yeah, it's his right to hold that opinion...but I see it like homophobia: personal belief? Yes. Incredibly ignorant and assholish? In my tiny little brain, a thousand times yes. If you yourself don't find online friendships as fulfilling, then that's your business. But if you think so little of online relations in general (and say so in such an arrogantly disdainful way, which, I think, might have been part of why I got so upset)...which, by the way, equate to the most meaningful relationships I've ever had, and the only real friendships I've ever had...oh it makes me sick knowing the worst I can do to people like that is put them on ignore, when what I really want to do involves ripping out their intestines and shoving them in some unpleasant orifices.

Until this day, I don't think I've ever seen anyone online make such a bold statement about this. Sure, I've heard it from almost everyone I've ever met offline, but none of the people I've known online have felt the same way...for good reason, as it would be ridiculously hypocritical of someone who did to be hanging out on a forum. I know some of you do find them to be somewhat less "real", and I'm uncomfortable with that, but as far as I know, none of you guys actually think they're worthless...and if you do...at least you have the ******** TACT to NOT SAY SO in front of the rest of us, and somehow I feel like if you did, it would not be in anywhere near as rude a manner as that.