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@ Nari: OMFG REALLY?!!!! :'D I KNEW YOU COULD DO IT!!!!

Hello Friends! <3

Sorry I haven't been on lately, I have been suuuuper exhausted. The job is going well, by the way.
And I am in a freaking chipper mood right now! Something really went well for Skotti and me. smile <3

@ Nari: Did you?? :O That doesn't even surprise me! lol!! I'm so proud of you, though! :'D

@ Mandi: Well, welcome back!
What went well for you guys?

@ Zell: Well, welcome back, then!
Glad to see you back- Good luck with whatever it is you're going through. Keep your chin up!

World of Warcraft? I got to level 68 and then I quit. lol

Warning: contains angry, angry rant and lack of consideration for bigots.

@ Koji:
Ohhh boy. Since I know damn well that most of the guild agrees with me in one way or another, I'm not going to hold back my opinion.
It seems like people who have issues with anyone who isn't a heterosexual, cisgendered baby-making machine are almost always 'Christian' (in quotes), Republican (or socially conservative Dems/Inds.), and/or trailer trash (although radical misandrists feminists partake in it too and piss me off just as much).

Your parents said that they love you, yet they try to force religion on you to 'cure' you. Aren't you in college or something? Like, not a minor? You don't have to go to church with them, and you shouldn't have to wait until next year to leave them (unless you depend on them for housing/food/etc). Sure, they won't like that you aren't surrendering and caving in to their selfish demands yet, but ******** them; if they really loved you, they wouldn't resort to things like that.

If you couldn't tell by my sour-mouthed rant above, I'm going through a similar issue with my family. It's not gay issues (yet), but I do have to deal with family throwing a fit about me. Basically, I feel I've been duped into thinking that anyone in my family will support me to the fullest. Even Grandma, the one who's been helpful when my parents haven't, is starting to butt heads with me. She tricked me into making promises that I know I can't keep anymore, like not using spaces designated for men/boys (although I can't use spaces meant for women/girls because of my appearance and also because I bind my chest and use a pants-stuffer to emulate balls), because she knows that I love her too much to sever the ties I have with her. And yet I'm going to school tomorrow to talk with the school principal to talk about said gender-designated spaces. We'll be talking about locker/bathroom use and also allowing me to join the tennis team composed of boys only. I already had the idea in mind before I made the promise and do not plan on backing down. I explained to my grandma that it's within my right to do so, especially if the school staff has no problems with it. She told me that I'm 'infringing the other boys'. I'm read as male nearly 100% of the time, even by some family members that saw me when I was little or are younger than 10. People in the bathroom generally don't peek at people in the stalls, and both my pants-stuffer and my waist-trimmer-turned-chestbinder are invisible under clothes in the locker room (not only that, but boys and men get stigmatized for looking at people's dicks, so they wouldn't be looking anyway). Yet somehow my grandma thinks that I'm a danger to them and they are one to me. Even though assault and harassment decreases when you blend in more.

So out of a first and final desperate attempt to salvage my ties with her, I'll be writing her a note, content depending on what the school says tomorrow, and giving her some information that's currently stored on my USB drive. If that doesn't work, then it's time to (sadly) break out the matches again.

(( I took so long to write this that Gaia actually logged me out when I first hit 'submit'. Lmao. ))

@Waffle: about my living situation: my parents told me when I was in high school that they would provide me with free housing/food/transportation all throughout my schooling. As long as I'm in school, I can live here for free. This was mostly because we've never had the money to [and still don't, honestly] set me up in a dorm. However, due to receiving the CalGrant this year, I was able to pay off all of the tuition payments that weren't covered by my loans. So now we have to money to get me into student housing. I elected to wait until January to start housing instead of October because I need to save some money for personal living expenses and I want time to quit my job and find another. As far as going to church, I know it's important to them because they honestly believe that it's the right way to go about it. I know it's a flawed perspective, but I'm willing to deal with it while I'm here. I most certainly won't be attending any church after I move out because I just have a hard time following most of what Christianity teaches. [To be honest a find why too many contradictions in it's teachings.]

about your family: I'm sorry that things are starting to go downhill with your grandma. It's gotta be tough losing that connection. I hope things go well for you with your chat with the school, and that your relationship with your family improves<3

@Styk: I understand your rage, and I thank you for the support, but I think that might be a bit extreme. I was irritated and very disappointed in those in the room, but they're still part of my extended family. I've known most of them since I moved out here about 9 years ago. It would have been one thing if they all knew I was openly gay and were still supporting the repeal with me [literally] sitting in the middle of the room, but most of them are still somehow ignorant to the fact [a lot of them are pretty old so I don't blame them, lol].
Also, the only times I've even seen homosexuals mentioned in the bible, they were killed in "God's holy judgment". I know full well that the Bible teaches that homosexuality is wrong and a sin, and that's one of the many reasons I have trouble believing it. My parents even had me watch some lame documentary on men who were "previously gay" and then "found christ" and became evangelists who help keep "confused" young men from turning down the wrong path. I think the whole idea of it is ridiculous and close-minded... but that's kind of how I view the entire religion so... *shurg*

Anyway, sorry to have ranted earlier... I was just feeling a little out of sorts having to sit there for an hour and a half surrounded by my family and friends who just betrayed me, most of them without knowing it. It was nothing to get too worked up over... if that's what they believe, then so be it. I'm not in the business of trying to change people, it usually doesn't go well.

Hopefully the legislature will make it regardless of their meddling.. though I'm sure churches are doing something similar in other areas.

Thanks again for the support, guys~<3

I'm gonna head off for the night. And, with the amount of homework I have to catch up on, I might not be back 'til around this time next week.