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Well, Tulip.

I guess it's a good thing that I'm not you, and she's not your ex girlfriend.

You have no idea. We get into our little fights. We know we do.

We both don't want to, but things happen.

People make mistakes.

When we're not fighting or anything, I feel so happy to be alive and to be with her.

She's really an amazing person... But I guess I'm kind of only showing half the picture.

Since I only post things when we fight.

But, if you knew a fraction of the joy I feel when I'm with her, you'd understand why I'm striving to keep this going.

-sigh- And she doesn't want to leave me. I don't want to leave her. She's been there for me. Always has. When I make mistakes.. She forgives me... It's hard to find someone like that... If any of this happened and I was with someone else, they'd drop me in a second, I know it. But she loves me. And I love her.

She's so good to me... I don't really deserve it after some things I've done... But she probably thinks the same way about herself.. I know she does.

And, I don't know what else to say... It's really my fault for giving you guys the wrong impression of her... She's a great person. She really is...

I'm not trying to convince anything.

I know she is the person for me.

I've known it since I met her.

I don't need your help.

This is my life.

If things turn out bad, so be it.

It's my choice to be with her.

I don't want to give her up. I love her so much. And she loves me.

Why kill a good thing?

I think Moocat has a point. But I also think that Baka makes a better point. It is your life Moocat, but what Baka is saying is that she cares about you and doesn't want you getting hurt.

Lana, whether she does it purposely or not, is only draining your emotion and love. One moment she's so much in love with you. In the next she's ignoring you because she has a crush on another girl. Then she's telling you that you remind her of a sister. Then she says she loves you again and suddenly you're semi engaged. She gets mad at you for talking to other people about relationship problems but she will go and do it whenever she feels like it. All Im saying is open your eyes and look at the patterns she has made.

I know you get really freaking depressed over her. Wouldn't it be nice to actually love with less feelings like that? There is someone out there that is going to make you more happy than Lana does, and they will treat you with respect, they will value your opinion, and definitely be more understanding. And I know you'll say: "But she forgives me for all the stupid stuff I do". One, forgiveness is not the same thing as understanding. Two, most of the stuff you do is completely normal and far from being wrong.

We love you Moocat. We're only presenting you with an option. There will be more pain later for you if you let this continue. And now.. my mind is completely blank because of my lack of sleep.

Moo, I'm gonna use an analogy that someone told my friend. Somewhere out there, is someone just right for you, looking for someone exactly like you. The thing is, you just haven't found each other yet. And it might take a while but eventually you will, it just needs to be patient. And you know, it wouldn't be right holding onto someone who isn't right, who isn't treating you as well as you should be treated, because if you hold on too long, you might miss that person who is right for you.

She loves me. No matter what you people say.

I know she does. You don't know her like I do.

I know she lies, we all do at times

But she's an honest person. She doesn't want to hurt anyone. She's caring and sweet...

You can't say things about her if you don't truly know her.



And, perhaps, she is the person for me, Tulip! Who says she can't be? No relationship is perfect. There are things that happen. But that doesn't mean we weren't meant to be...

This fight isn't even worth having. I'm ending this conversation. I'm not trying to explain anything anymore. You won't listen.