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 Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2006 6:32 pm
Aariel blushed a bit more "thank you my prince" he said as he lent foward and kissed his rabbits forehead "my mother was one of the original ancient egyptains, she was around when Rameses was pharoah and was what would probably be the equvilant of a chamber maid to him, she had a curse placed on her which is why she had been able to live for so long. The curse states that if she could find it in her heart to love another enough to bare him at least two children with him then she will finally die peacefully exactly five years after her childrens birth. My mother, from what I read, seemed to be some sort of whore or something which is why she was cursed in the first place from the sounds of things."
he said biting back tears of his mother, it still hurt him to this day that he shares the his birthday on the same day of his mothers passing "which means that my mother died on mine and my brothers birthday when we were five years old as we are both faternal twins. Please dont be sorry, its something I have come to cope with to an extent but knowing that i share my birthday on the day she passed away is still hard on me especially on my birthday" he said to the rabbit as a couple of tears rolled down his face and he wipped them away.
"why am I telling you this? Your my boyfriend, you might at least know mine and my brothers history, you deserve to know about me, we are dating after all" he said smiling at his as he forced himself to not cry anymore and just nuzzled the rabbit affectionatly.
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2006 6:38 pm
(( I'm sorry Lenore but I gotta go. Dinner's ready. I'll reply when I get back, ok? I shouldn't be too long. Later *huggles then poofs* ))
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Posted: Sat Jan 14, 2006 6:40 pm
((see ya El and thats cool ^.^))
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 5:09 am
As Roka listened to Aariel, his smile faded and he looked at the angel with sad eyes. "How can he keep on moving after all that? I don't even remember what happened to me but whatever it was made me shut my words inside and I doubt it was anything as bad as what Aariel went through. What would I have done if I had been him?" Roka bit his lip as he thought it all over, impressed by his angel's strength. Roka let the silence draw out for awhile before he said softly, "I'm sorry. You deserve to know about me too but I can't remember a thing before I came to live with Elros.."
(( I am soo sorry Lenore! ><; My brother took over the pc the second I got off and he wouldn't let me back on. I fell asleep waiting for him to relinquish the pc. gonk ))
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 6:01 am
((Thats ok El ^_^ I know exactly how brothers are *grew up with three older ones*))
Aariel smiled at him sadly "its ok my prince, seriously" he said as he nuzzled him a little "though there is one more part of mine and my brothers history you should know." He said as he took a deep breath and continued "my father never wanted Imhotep and I, he loved our mother unconditionally but because he knew of the curse and knew that his wife would be dying five years after she gave birth to us he just didnt want us at all in his life. Our mother told him that he would grow to love us but never did.
He kept us in the house and clothed and feed us to an extent but we basically had to fend for ourselves in ways like getting our own food and the like since all he did was sit in a chair and sulk about the loss of his wife. Well the years moved on and my brother had started to come to find a liking for guys at the age of eleven and our mother would of wanted to have her sons come to her or our father if we had anything to talk about or to tell them or whatever. So my brother went to our father and told him he was gay and that was when all the trouble started.
My brother was punched by my father and my father thought he could teach him not to be gay and how wrong and bad etc it is by raping him, it happend at least once a day and every day up till the age of eighteen during the last time he raped Imhotep a photo frame on the nightstand of my fathers room fell onto the ground, the picture was of our mother and him in happier times, as imhotep was knocking into it and it shattered. Our father forced Imhoteps face into the shattered peices of glass and as he carried on raping him, blaming him for the shattered frame ion himbeing gay, he rubbed his face into the shards as well and ended up tearing his right eye really badly and ending up making him due to small shards of glass getting into it and making him blind in his right eye as well.
I found out that I also loved guys but I never told my father in fear that he would do the same to me as he did to my brother but also because someone had to stay strong for my brother or else I would be useless if I ended up the same way as him. Anyway, after that session he came running into our room crying like usual but this time with his hand over his right eye with his eye which was toally shreaded of course and I wraped up his eye as best as I could and walked into my fathers room, I had, had enough and we both were now legal to leave home so I walked into my fathers room as my brother sneaked around packing up a few of my mothers things she had given us and her diaries and others bits and peices and waited by the door.
Over the years my father had taken the liberty of baring windows and doors so we couldnt get away and so I walked into my fathers room, hit him over the head with a vase and took the keys and left the place with Aariel, never to return again.
We went to a friend of my mothers who we hadnt seen in years and stayed with her after we told her what happend and everything. At that time I healed my brothers eye which was in a totally bad shape but thanks for the anger I felt agienst my father doing what he did to my brother I had started to learn a healing power, I never said aything to my brother but just practiced it over time and so I healed my brother and we stayed with her.
She had decided soon after to take in other anthros and make her home into a sort of safe house for the 'illtreated' anthros and in a year and a half after others arrived and everything my brother was accused of sleeping with anothers boyfriend and was starting to get ridiculed by them. All we did when we were there was stay in our room most of the time cuddling each other and being by each others sides and everything, we couldnt do what they said my brother did as we never came out of our room and my brother had been rapped, something tells me he wasnt going to be keen on sleeping with anyone so soon.
Anyway, two full years had come and the ridiculing just got worse and in the end even my mothers friend Angela started to believe the others and so we had to get away and we spent three years on the streets as you know....
I have stayed and watched over my brother for so long that I havent exactly had a life but the well being and love my brother and I have for each other is what kept me strong throughout all of this. I had to be strong for him, I had to keep going for his sake and not give up on him after everything we had been through. I might of been born a few 3 and a half minutes earlier then my brother but still i always felt like the older brother to him which is why I felt like it was my duty, in a way, to protect him or at least look out for him anyway.
So while I allowed my brother to do his own thing I just sat back and watched so that nothing else would happen to him, he had a small life while living with Angela but not the greatest still and so hence why I am new to relationships, I stayed watching my brother for 18 years and am ignorant in the way things work when falling in love and everything. We just have never been seperated especially since we made a vow to our mother when she was on her death bed to watch over and protect one another and I have been living up to that all these years..." he said softly trailing off and blinked back tears, wiping away the few that did fall as he turned around and walked over to a winter rose and just stood there looking at it while thinking things over.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 6:17 am
Roka watched Aariel silently, wanting to go to the angel and comfort him but he knew there was really nothing he could do so he held back, clasping his hands behind his back and looking down at his feet. "Jesus, Aari's life has been hell. It's a wonder he's capable of caring about me or anyone else for that matter.." Roka lost himself in his thoughts, allowing himself to sink slowly but surely into depression. He wanted to do whatever he could to heal Aariel's hurts but he just didn't think that he could.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 6:35 am
Aariel took a deep breath and let it out and wipped away the other few tears that had started to fall and then turned around to his rabbit and rushed over to him and wrapped his arms around him and just held him. "Your aura is telling me your depressed, please my prince dont be. Imhotep and I are happy here, we both have lives, loving homes, 'family' and friends and he has a mate now and is completly in love with him and happy as well" he said as he put a hand under his rabbits chin and tilted it up to look at him.
"and I have a boyfriend who I love unconditionally and that means the world to me" he said taking his hand away "we love living here, this is our life now and this is our home and you are part of my life now and I am happiest when im with you or my brother. I love you Roka so much, you alone have helped show me that it was the right move to come here" he said as he he looked into the rabbits eyes and smiled softly yet a little sadly at him before he lent down and kissed his rabbits lips softly and yet passionatly.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 6:47 am
Roka listened to what Aariel had to say but it didn't make him feel much better. Hearing the angel say how happy he and his brother were now lifted his spirits some but it didn't take the feeling of being useless away. Sure, Aari was happy now but what if something else happened and the angel needed someone to depend on? Roka knew he wouldn't be able to do anything for him. Even as Aariel kissed him, the bunny couldn't shake that feeling.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 6:54 am
Aariel still felt something wrong with the rabbit, he couldnt place it as he wasnt a mind reader and his aura just showed that he still seemed upset and/or depressed or something which was now making him feel horrible "my prince, please, tell me whats on your mind?" he asked softly hoping to god that he wasnt going to go mute again when he had come so far. "Please, talk to me, im begging you Roka, let me know" he asked softly again wanting his prince to talk to him instead of staying silent.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 7:08 am
A tiny frown marred Roka's face and the silence lengthened. How could he tell the angel he loved that he felt weak and useless? Shaking his head, Roka finally focused on Aari, his eyes sad. It was so much easier to keep what he was feeling inside..
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 7:17 am
Aariel decided to take a stab at what was wrong with his rabbit, there was one other situation that he had been in before like this and he just tried to remember exactly what had happend, it had been so long ago but he looked away at him and slowly remembered what had happend when he was 19 years old. "My prince, you feel weak dont you?" he asked softly as he remembered the cat he had nearly ended up dating once yet due to certain circumstances it never went ahead "its ok my prince, I swear, you can tell me, im not going to laugh at you or anything" he said as he held the rabbit close to him and nuzzled him as he stroak his hair, noting wanting to force him to talk but still...
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 7:27 am
Roka relaxed against Aariel for a time, keeping silent while he let the angel's soothing embrace comfort him. When he thought himself ready to tell Aari what was wrong, he opened his mouth to speak but nothing came out at first. Panic gripped him but he forced it down, knowing it would only make him shut himself up tighter. He took a deep breath and then let it out slowly, trying again. "I...you're right. I do feel weak. I feel like if the time ever came when you needed someone to comfort you that I would choke, unable to do anything for you.."
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 7:53 am
Aariel rubbed his rabbits back "if that time comes you being beside me and holding me is more then enough comfort, nothing like what happend will ever happen again and so that situation will never be a problem for you but if anything else comes up then all you have to do is just be there with me and hold me, you dont have to say anything, just let me cry or complain or whatever and that is all you will have to do. Sure some words of comfort maybe be needed some time but all I want from you is to do what you can do, I know comforting others isnt easy for some people and so just do what you can, I swear, just being in your arms will make me feel alot better believe me. you will be fine I pomise you that, it will just take some time thats all" he said as he nuzzled the rabbit, hoping he was ressasuring him a bit.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 1:51 pm
Elros Namasi Eventually Eldrin broke the kiss and slowly opened his eyes, smiling down at Alaric as he continued to stroke the uke uni's hair.
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Posted: Sun Jan 15, 2006 2:25 pm
Roka allowed himself to be reassured by the angel, shutting his eyes and leaning against him. "Alright, alright. I'm not dwelling on depressing thoughts anymore. Let's just go to the hot spring and relax in the water.."
Eldrin looked down at Alaric's flushed face and his smile widened. "So are you going to stay here in my room with me or am I going to have to build you a little place out in the gardens so you can be outside?"
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