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I can do thats o3o

now, will I be alive after this "talk"?

Oh, ouo me gonna die then

goodbye cruel world 030

Warning: This is a rant, that probably would be boring to read.


I'm feeling really, really depressed and annoyed right now. I try to be nice to my sister, I really do, and I often succeed. But then she randomly blows up for no apparent reason, and then with my short temper once she starts yelling at me, I end up yelling at her. Then even if I end up getting my temper under control, and try and apologize or resolve the situation; she ends up still yelling and seems to be even madder at me then before. And she always ends up trying to attack me in some way, whether it's by throwing something at me or kicking/punching me. I normally manage to dodge the attacks, and don't attack her since she's my younger sister and I shouldn't attack her. But it seems to make her more mad when I just defend myself and don't attack. And of course my Mom almost always manages to get in the argument one way or another, which just makes it worse. Our arguments always end up resolving themselves, sometimes with an apology on, and other times we just start talking normally as if nothing had happened. But then latter she always ends up blowing up again, for no apparent reason. And she yells at me, and says she hates me and doesn't want me around. It wouldn't be so annoying if only I knew why she blew up so often, what I did to aggravate her. And sometimes we'll just be talking, being the great friends that we sometimes are, and then she starts yelling at me and treats me like an enemy again. I don't get it gonk why are her mood swings so unpredictable? I love my little sister, I really do, but I just can't handle her when she gets all moody and yells at me and hates me; it makes me sad and I can't deal with it all the time *cries* I just want to get away from home, and I really can't wait for the end of this semester when I'll get to go on a study abroad program, and will be away from my younger sister for a whole six weeks. It'll be nice to be away from my sister, and my mom for that matter (her moods are just as unpredictable, and annoying) it'll probably be good for all of us to be away from the other for a long while.


I feel a lot better after typing all that out, it feels good to tell people about my frustrations. Even if no one actually reads it, it felt good to type it out. 3nodding

@Nim: That's great! Art classes are fun :3 I'm taking a beginning art class this term and it's really fun 3nodding Though, from what I've seen of your art, aren't you past taking beginning art classes?

Thanks <3 I'm both a younger and an older sister, and I find that when any of my siblings get really annoyed with me; then I can tell fairly easily. If your sibling(s) are anything like mine then you'd probably be able to tell if you were really obnoxious to them. Though, from what I've seen of you, I don't think you're obnoxious at all. Obviously I'm not your sister though, so it's not quite the same.

That seems like a silly program, I don't see why they should make everyone take the same classes. I think every program should have some sort of test that would allow people to skip the stuff they already know. Though, I already know that high-schools love to make it hard for people to get ahead in school and skip classes. I don't see why it should be their choice to hold people back if they have the necessary skills for the higher level class.

...I am going to lose my ******** mind. My boyfriend says he's not telling me anything about his health until he knows something for sure, because I "worry too much" and he doesn't want me to worry over possibilities.

I'd rather know what the possibilities ARE than have to just worry about everything! Not telling me things doesn't help me, it just gives me more to worry about! I already know it's bad. The liver heals himself, so if whatever it is is bad enough that they needed to biopsy his LIVER I know he's possibly in very bad shape. I just want to know what the possibilities are. Is it cancer? Cirrhosis? Complete liver failure? Do I need to worry about him DYING on me or needing a transplant? He said the doctor wouldn't even give him pain killers to take home... is his liver in such bad shape that the doctor's afraid of him taking anything at all? Why else wouldn't he be taking pain killers? It's a biopsy - it's surgery. They REMOVED part of his liver and he's not allowed to take pain killers?

I just want to know what the ******** is going on.

How old is Riri? if you're still under 19 and in full time education (like uni or college or school) you get a free NHS voucher so glasses can be cheap or free (since i'm sure Riri is british but then i may be imaging things again)

@ at Dys, i know how you feel, my bf won't tell me things about his parents cause i dunno... i have to admit i do exactly what your bf does, i won't tell my bf anything cause i think he;ll worry to much and i think it just makes him worse... but i still do it