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I do ask... I have been since someone told me about the complaints. I haven't RPed in HQ since I first found out people were so angry at me... I tried a few times, but x_x. I did RP at the Halloween thing though... did I do anything wrong when I did RP there?



Like I said (And I'm saying it again to make it as clear as I can XD).... Kia's pregnancy had been planned since before October. Shina and Hoshi's one was one of those '...Hey, let's do this!' five second later ideas from what I understand. Kia's pregnancy had nothing to do with Silver and Sati... I hadn't even thought of them. O_o Ask Eirnae or Anya. ^_^
...And crap, she'll look bad as a bridesmaid. XD Sorry Sayuri!



Kia's three characters. Firstly, Kia. Then Neith, a girl born three hundred years later. And the spirit that she is now, as herself. The Bennu part isn't apart of the novel, it was what made Kia a fa'e in the first place. Kia's religion was created by her husband, to worship a single god. Others followed. The idea was that the spirit of a person would pass along biologically via children, and without a reason, awaken in a child either 50 years on, or thousands of years. That person would still be themselves, but they'd have the knowlage of the spirit inside of them... not at once, it'd take years to slowly uncover it. ANd then, if they followed the religion as well, they'd be able to 'bond' both spirits. And then when they died, the TWO bonded spirits would pass along again. And so on... Kia's a mix of two, and herself.



The personal sacrifice was giving up every single item I could possibly get out of my iventory and using it... I'd walk around in rags for this chance for Kia AND Taka. But when Anya changed her mind, I was kind of mad... you would be in the same situation, Anya changing her mind to a plot she agreed to after the plot had started. But I figured out a different way. Talked with Konaru, sorted it out, and let Konaru PM Anya to tell her.
And then Anya started the vote three hours after we agreed on a solution. xd So I PMed Anya as well. ^_^ (Sorry Konaru... she started the vote, so I had to do something. x_x)

I and Konaru did want an exception. For this reason (See Rule 7):
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v150/elfy_girls_from_gaia/Rule.jpg

This is a screenshot of the rules before the vote, when I asked Anya if the plot was all right. Everyone made up their mind, ok. I had already found another way to continue with the pregnancy plot, without causing problems or breaking rules.




From what I understand, the biolgoical resemblance is of the parents, but the child's concept is the guardians. Fa'e are dreams of the guardians, right? The Guardian is the dreamer, teh fa'e is their dream, and so whoever the baby is connected to, the baby will gain his or her soul/concept...
But I could be wrong.



Guys.... if you have a problem with me, could you please tell me to my face, and not to everyone else but me? Maybe you should block me for a few days, to let me calm down. It works pretty well most of the time. But everyone's been complaining to Anya. As much as I HATE being told my faults, it's the only way I can know about them and learn how to better myself...
And if everyone decides to tell everyone else, and not tell me, and then no one tells me because it's all hushhush... how am I supposed to know how big a problem it is? It was a huge shock to hear it a few weeks ago, because I hadn't known about how large a problem I'd caused. And I was very hurt, very upset, I whined to people I trusted because I needed some sort of comfort. (And if you guys were annoyed by that, I'm sorry... when I'm upset like that, I just need to rant and whine and rant and cry and generally do anything I can to relieve some of the pain.)



(Aylee, Solo met Kia when he was a baby. XD It was SOOO cute too... he was sitting there with Mizu's slipper, and he put it on his head and he sat in it and AWW.
...Anyway. Yea. XD heart

And Zero, the only reason I PMed you with that was because I was hurt to find out that Youko had taken Akira away from me and given him to you, when he was mad at me. )


...I think it's done. o_o

Really? XD Well. Makes me twice as glad I started RPing Solo as a toddler. Wait, I even screwed that up. e_e; Nevermind. Just noone should ever give me any children younger than 15. XD I make them too old for their own good. *chalks that up to hating most little kids* >__>;; *shuts up now*

I'm not going to bother... going into that account to talk in here O_o I've jsut read over the whole four pages of this thread... (Yes, I was bored e_e... and I need a life, get over it), anyhow, I'm going to try and make sense in my pondering, but this is what I know and think.

First off, there lies the fact that people... are being AS egoistical as they claim Neith to be; asking for her Fae to be taken away is not the solution, as many people have indeed pointed out; the way people are bashing... whinning, and hissing here resembles a cat fight to me O_o I thought that the fae was a GAME.

Yes, a GAME, which actually means we should be enjoying it, not having problems like this; ultimately, this should not be happening in the first place.

I think we should all stop and think about how we would feel if our Fae were taken away from us. Personally /I/ would rather my Fae actually... somehow 'die' ICly than have her taken away from me ~_~ (This does not mean I wouldn't give her to a friend IF for example, I were forced to leave gaia. I am just refering to the fact she be taken away from me without my concent), because eh, Yin is EXTREMELY personal to me; she is a part of me, and my imagination...

Having her ripped away from me would be like stealing a very precious portion of me away from... me. I don't know if that made sense -.o but anyways. Back to the point.

The having-a-baby-from-Kamiki's-thread thing should indeed not be an issue o_O actually, I found it to be a rather nice solution for Kia, not to mention the fact that /I/ think it's cute *Shrug* So let's put that aside for one moment... how many of the Fae out there are becoming ancients because they don't want to... be, well, mortal (aka, they losse their Fae-like traits) for it, especially if they don't get the baby? O_o many. *shrug* It's all great to point your finger at someone who voiced him/herself out... but what is it you think deep down inside? e.e

Anyhow. personally I think this should end nicely, and neatly, no need for a fight, or for sour faces.... The punishments Moor talked about seemed resonable to me, as did the idea for the Fae not 'growing' for a month that Sosi mentioned. Let's get a nice list going, and some rules to go by, a sistem... and let's just... drop this with a warning.

If Neith is being a bit too 'passionate' let's just say "hey now n.n cool it *pats* we'll talk about it later" or something e_e

I can't personally TALK on that matter, since I've not seen these incidents, and I don't KNOW Neith all THAT much to pinpoint that she's an 'attention whore' as some people claim... so I'll elegantly glide out of that part. All I CAN say is that Kia is one of the most used Fae... she gets attention, has friends, and is important to the story. Many other Fae get rpged a lot less (hey, Yin included there O_o Kia is WAY more widely known), so... mrrrft.

.... Uhm e.e I don't think I mentioned all I wanted to, but yeah, I'll come back when my thoughts are slightly more sorted out -_o! .... *bows and shuffles off*

I'm officially an idiot. I don't know how to log off my name, so screw the annonymity anywho.

I came to Gaia in December, and started lurkage around January. Kia got her Fa'e shortly after myself sometime in February I believe.... and even if it was March, look at how damn long she has been CONSTANTLY role-playing Kia. Who else has been so attentive over such a length of time? Yuumei? Who else? Who else has met so many Fa'e, done so many stories, made so many people at HQ feel welcome when *gasp* we didn't have thousands of pages behind us?

Here's my opinion: GROW SOME BALLS. And yes, I am a woman saying this. Neith and I have fought, and sometimes she was at fault and sometimes me. When she has pestered and annoyed me, I sat there and patiently took time to explain to her over and over again how much she was annoying me and why. Why? I'm an adult. I have the decency to take up my problems with the offender and make sure they understand me. Do we keep having disagreements? Sure. It's in our nature.

We're also scape-goating. Oho! You don't believe me?

When RikProwley, furthermore referred to simply as Em, came along, I was upset she didn't want to partake in our Fa'e community. I couldn't imagine why and for some reason took it personally. Being naive, I complained to a friend of mine who is also coincidentally one of Em's friends and she asked me why I was so upset... rather, "Is it just because she doesn't want to be part of your clique?" Amazing, isn't it? Her first page was even offensive and did anyone have a trial about taking away her Fa'e? No. Now I admire her; she wasn't afraid of what people would think. I was. I was walking on eggshells afraid to upset someone.

Seen "Mean Girls" lately? That's us. We get offended and quietly vent, then turn around and b***h to Anya rather than go to Neith. If she doesn't understand us or *gasp* gets caught up ranting and doesn't stop, we tattle. Instead of acting like mature adults, we act like clique-ish school girls. When someone pisses us off, we try to shove them away instead of deal with the situation, try to ban them when they speak their mind. If we spent half the time we used typing these posts talking to Neith, we'd be fine. I know. I spent a lot of time explaining to her, and now I think we're closer.

Sure, make a set of rules... but if we start taking away Fa'e from people who argue with us because we can't block them on AIM and deal with them ourselves, then I'll give up Onuris willingly. And he'll go to that special someone who helped me realize that the problem is that our little Fa'e community has become hostile.

*stares at Drac's post*

....I feel sick.

So -that's- what's been happening? Wow. I knew that that had been going on (being on the receiving end of that before) but not like -that-.

I feel David's pain in having to try to keep things under control. ._.;

Dammit. I come home from a Walmart gig for the band (after waking up early in the morning after a horrible competition), get online, look at a PM that I didn't get to look over that well before... sent here. Thought of not participating. Then read a few of the posts.

This is crazy, folks. This is just insane. Screw being anonymous. I'm going to say what I'm going to say, even if it sounds like I'm whining/bitching, like it sounds like gibberish or whatever. I don't care if I don't fully understand what's going on, I'm already lost. I'm tired.

Now, I know I was quite a dedicated fa'e guardian and Sheriff before, but lately I've been too busy to keep up. High School's making it that way. So I don't know how the hell or when all of this just blew up. But this is messed up. But if you guys felt that way about Neith, you should've told her it at the beginning, not whine to someone else, acting as if you're ok with her when you're not or ignore her when she's around. I should know. I've been like that lately with my dad, and it's not solving ANYTHING. You have to be able to understand each other, otherwise your emotions are just going to build up into you can't hold it in any longer. Then, you EXPLODE. You have to understand each other if you want to be able to get it worked out.

Sure, some people are whiny, bitchy, and such. Some people don't like others. It's natural. You can't try to please everyone! Hate and Anger and such makes people bitter, and can destroy friendships.

Not only that, but just because you see the bad side of a person doesn't mean that they don't have a good side. Neith may have done things that makes others frustrated and mad, but she has also done good things as well. She has good intentions. Everyone has good qualities and bad qualities people! Understand that.

About what Drac posted for David, I believe: Now that, is going overboard. Krista is a great person, and a good friend. I do admit, that sometimes I have a hard time reading some of the stories, but the ideas are present--what she is thinking. As for "worshipping" her characters, Neith, I think you are misinterpretting her. You yourself seems to be wanting her to "worship" yours, if you think that way. This could all be avoided if you two understand each other! You can't come to conclusions so easily! Besides, what's so wrong about liking your fa'e more than the others if you've put so much work into making them alive? All the fa'e are great, but doesn't yours seem more special to yourself?

I think I'm misinterpreting this problem... but I still have more to say...

People, I thought that the fa'e were our children. They only become our children, because we make them that way, don't we? In the beginning, our avatars are mere pixels, and the fa'e are simply stunning pictures Anya draws, that's part of something fun--a roleplay, a game. We make them what they are. There are real people behind each avatar. There are emotions behind each character we play.

In the end, this is just another way to interact with people, isn't it? So why is it so hard for us to talk to others about problems? Or is this how life is now... talk behind someone's back until it can't be helped?

COME ON. We shouldn't be considering having someone who has been around so long in the fa'e community as a guardian have her fa'e taken away because of misunderstandings. This has happened because people don't have the guts to tell anyone how they feel. Instead, we vent to others. This isn't right at all! Let's just try to figure things out WITHOUT having people get more hurt or having to take away something so precious away. I'm only fourteen. I know most of you guys are older than me... at least I think so. I know I'm not mature for my age, but I want to be serious about this. I respect and care for Neith. And I respect everyone else in the fa'e community. Why can't we just deal and act like adults?

... Ok, I don't know what the hell I'm saying anymore. Most likely repeating myself. Once I clear my mind, I'll look over this again. I'm just greatly disappointed right now.

By the way, I'm not on either side, even if it might look like I'm in favor of anyone.

I just wish we could go back to the good old days...