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 Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 9:15 am
Shaking her head, Heartless couldn't understand what he was trying to tell her. This was all coming too quickly. She was already having trouble understanding emotions, but now love too? Looking down at the ground, Heartless wondered what she thought of Ariston. He wasn't like the others, like those who she tormented, no, he was something different. Her head was throbbing now; she was too confused.
"I don't know what you are to me Ariston. You are just so confusing." Turning her head, Heartless allowed her unkempt braid to fall across her face. A sudden surge came from within her after she said that. Something wet began to drop down the sides of her face. Blinking rapidly, Heartless did not know what these mysterious drops were that were coming from her eyes.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 10:58 am
Ariston's mouth widened in a suprised circle, and he didn't know what to do. "Heartless, you are crying." Getting up again, he walked over to her, watching her painful feelings. "I am sorry if I am confusing, though you are confusing to me as well. I just wanted to help you, I know you can feel better about life. You are better then all of this."
Ariston wasn't a crier, though he still knew how painful it was for Heartless to acknowledge that she was crying. "I am proud of you, nevertheless. You have overcome something huge already."
Would she have been better if he left her alone? He kept asking the question to himself, but he would shrug it away, knowing that maybe she could be happier after all of this. Being two Kalonas who did life their own way, he couldn't resist finding out more about her. He didn't have to be a show in front of her.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 11:37 am
"I felt absolutely fine before meeting you. I was content with my life, never questioning why I did this or why I became the way I am." Heartless began to wonder if she really was that way or if she was just hiding from the obvious. Lowering her head, she felt ashamed of herself. This was the last thing she wanted to feel like. She knew she was inferior when it came to emotions, but that's why she never bothered to talk about them.
Turning away from Ariston, Heartless lowered her head onto the grass, breathing heavily.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 11:45 am
"If you want to keep blaming this on me, fine Heartless, I could care less." His eyes were weary, and his body was sore. In any other situation, he would have left the female, laughing and wondering why he even put up with so much. But he couldn't leave her here like this, she was a mess, and he wasn't sure how she could resolve it.
"You are letting the sadness inside you completely dominant you. Because you have never recognized other emotions, like happiness, you are dwelling in a puddle of pain." How could she feel happiness if she didn't know how to acknowledge it? How confusing this kept getting.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 11:54 am
"Do not talk to me like a child." There was a hint of anger within her words. Heartless was growing more and more tired as the conversation went on. "I'm not going to change you know. You should just give up." Giving an audible sigh, Heartless continued to look the other way, allowing her large wings to envelope her body.
She needed... to feel powerful again. Maybe she would seek out some naive mare and spread fear around her life because Heartless didn't have one. She had to take others. Would Ariston ever understand this? Would he still accept her even though she couldn't change even if she wanted to?
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 1:25 pm
"I don't want you to change. I think you are getting confused." Ariston watched as she was covered by her dark wings. "You keep refering to your emotions as if they are a remarkable shift from what you are. Heartless, they are you. You just never recognized them before. I know you are flustered, and I know you hate me deeply at the moment. But you are you Heartless."
He was also starting to get more flustered, Heartless was herself, doing whatever tactics and way of life that she wished. That is why Ariston enjoyed her so much, because she refused to take crap from others. She remained who she was, and although other's rejections effected her harshly, she refused to change. That is why Ariston was still standing in front of her.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 1:32 pm
"If so, do not make me express emotion. That is not who I am. It's in my nature to be cold-hearted and just plain evil. I could not imagine changing that." Heartless paused and thought to herself. Maybe she didn't have to be that way all the time, maybe with just one person. Only one person would know who she really was... Shaking the thought out of her mind, that was an absurd thought.
To give in... was to fail. She didn't want to give in to her emotions, but there was just something that was influencing her the other way and he was standing next to her.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 1:47 pm
He laughed, long and hard. He was laughing not only out of exhaustion, but mainly out of the mere fact that she was completely wrong. "You can still be evil and have emotions, you know." He was done laughing, and his eyes faced hers confidently. "I am evil, but a different evil of course. But still, I don't judge others based on race, appearance, or way of life." Flicking his tail, he scoffed at the thoughts of over Kalonas. "You nature is to be who you want to be, and I find it hard to believe that you are content with your way of life now."
Where to go from here.. if he let her leave, then what would happen? Would he ever see her again?
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 1:52 pm
Turning to glare at him, what was he laughing for? She was being dead serious, but then again, Heartless didn't have much of a humorous side. The mare shrugged softly, "Others judge harshly. I don't care though. And I was content with my life, not anymore though. I chose this way of life for a reason, it's because it neither bothers me nor does it make me happy. That's perfect for me at least." Heartless wasn't in the mood to get up, if she did, she'd probably walk into a tree or something because she was beginning to feel light-headed.
Her gaze softened as she looked at Ariston once more.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 2:00 pm
"But it did bother you, don't you see that? You constantly glare at others, wanting to take precious things from them. I think it is their happiness that sometimes bothers you. Why not acknowledge your own happiness, Heartless?" It was an odd way to think about it, but if she did take pieces of hearts from others, why didn't she just recognize her own?
"Don't shut your heart away. You should give it a chance for a happy life."
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 2:11 pm
Heartless shrugged once again and then slowly got up. She was tired of sulking, and she wasn't one to really ever do that. Turning around to face Ariston, Heartless looked up at him with those familiar defiant eyes. "I do not wish to have a heart Ariston. I may be a coward to not want to face the pain that I am facing right now, but I am content."
Sighing, Heartless turned to leave knowing that she might ever see Ariston again. She finally realized why he made her sad. She knew that someone like him would never be interested in her even as just a friend, so why waste her time? She still didn't understand why he even tried so hard to persuade her, but she overlooked that fact.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 2:41 pm
Finally, she was walking away. The old Ariston would have been pleased with such, but he just couldn't see her off on such terms. "WAIT!" He said, in as loud as a voice that his energy could allow. "Why are you facing pain, Heartless? Why am I causing you pain??" He put his head down, feeling worse by the second as well.
"If you leave, I may never seen you again. I don't want that, Heartless. Do you want to never see me again?" His purple eyes tried calling out to her, but within his efforts he felt a pain swell up inside is chests. His head was rushing with strange feelings that he couldn't identify with. He liked the way they felt, though was nervous about why they were bothering him. "Is it wrong for me to care?" Heartless may have been a stranger at first, but he wanted to keep her as a solid friend.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 2:50 pm
"I don't like not understanding. I knew for a long time that I did not understand emotions but I just put that aside because nobody ever really made me think about things like that let alone talk to me in the first place." Heartless didn't want to make him feel bad, but she didn't think that things were going well at the current moment.
"I won't lie to you, so I won't lie that I don't have some sort of feeling when I talk to you, but it does not feel right." The mare was still turned away to leave and didn't look at him while she was talking. She was afraid that her eyes were showing weakness again.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 2:58 pm
"Does not feel right? You mean that I don't feel right. Am I not worthy of being graced with your presence?" He felt his legs stumble, and he fell as elegantly as he could to the ground. "I am not going to lie, I am exhausted. My hair is a mess, my body is dirty.." He brought his eyes back on hers, wondering something that felt amazing. "That doesn't matter to you, does it?" She wasn't judging him at all on his appearance or stamina, she was only shutting him away for her internal conflicts.
"I have tried to explain to you why I am still standing here, a mess, talking to you. I enjoy your company, and I wish you would believe me when I state such things. Why am I not allowed to make you happy?"
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 3:04 pm
"No, it is I that isn't worthy." Heartless began to walk away again, but then stopped herself. "Yes, that's it. Don't you have better people to talk to instead of scum like me? I'm sure you do." He was so beautiful, and she couldn't nearly compare to his beauty. She would only bring him down if she continued to talking to him. "See? I cause trouble for you. You call yourself a mess, and that is my fault."
Her face was still expressionless while she stood there unsure of what to say next.
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