JoeEuphonium
hehehe ok soo who is the he? I know its difficult to search out feelings. I know. And I'm not getting any hopes up whatsoever Erin. My concern is for you and your happiness. And its also for Noch as well. .... but I'm to tired to go into that just right now. I'm curious to know how things are going on now that Adams girlfriend has moved in. How are the girls adjusting to it?
rofl How are the girls adjusting?? lmao..
Okay I know you must think I've lost it.. but seriously that question has me rolling... My girls apparently are handling this whole thing better than I am lol. Adam and I sat down with them last night before bed and Abi (my oldest at 5yrs old) Told me she had it all planned out already. "Mommy is going to move out and get her own apartment and Morgan is going to live with her and then we (referring to her and her sister) are going to have two homes and we'll go back and forth. And Melissa is gonna stay here and live with Daddy"
Okay that may not be an exact replica of what she said.. but pretty darn close... I felt like an idiot trying to talk to her lol. But I'm super curious about what it was you were too tired to get into last night.. the whole you were worried about Noch as well thing.. Not that I'm saying you shouldn't be... the idiot did fall for me for reasons unknown.. he probably should be in a psych ward or something.. at any rate I'm just wondering where you were going with that.
As for my happiness at the moment? I'm seriously considering trying to get a perscription of happy pills again... I haven't had to be on anti-depressents for over 2 years now... but since my brother's death and all of this added crap.. If it weren't for my kids I'd probably just sit and stare at the wall all day. Noch says that's okay though.. that at least I haven't given up and I've kept going for my kids sake.. which I suppose it is a good thing.. I mean my kids were the only thing that got me through my father's death. That whole mom mentallity that the kids come first. But I was doing so good on learning how to be happy for myself.. and now? I don't.. well.. maybe I just need more time.. I don't have anything against the pills.. I just personally can't stand the idea of having to depend on the damn things again... just don't know if I'm strong enough to keep going and "stay-happy" w/o them... I'm rambling... maybe I'm just suffering from "empty-nest syndrome" today... Today was my eldests first day of Kindergarten... *tears* Okay.. i'm walking away from the keyboard before I depress everyone...