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Look at it this way, i'm talking to you.

Well it's happening right now, i am talking to you. But it feels like your trying to push me away.

But you don't exist. At least, not to me. I just want to finally have someone whom I can share time and memories with. Someone who is actually around me.

You could aslo join some school clubs, or sports or whatever your intestested in. Join some comminuty activities if there is any around. My best advice would be to get involved in something your intestested in and then I think that you will find other people who are interested in the same things and then become friends, that is what I did and it has worked for me all these years here, and now I have my own small group of friends that I like to go out and do things with. Also keep in mind that people in high school are never nice they have their own little clicks that they keep to, once you get out of high school things are different, I am friends with people from high school now who would have never talked to me back then because their click didn't allow them to but now that we are all in the real world that stuff doesn't matter... So it should get better once your down with high school .

So my brother is graduated about 2 years and dating a girl in 12th.

Ha. you wanna know why you have no friends? you dont know how to keep them. people reach out to you and you turn them away. thats what you did to me at least.

ooo...*bows to your power of knowing it all* well said...

Only problem with that is people don't like who I am. Eventhough no one knows exactly who I am past my physical appearace, they just see me as someone not even worth their time. Need an example?

I had discovered some time ago about the Student Center at my college where there are all sorts of games like arcades, pool tables, ping pong, and foozball. There was also a group who were into playing card games and they gathered in the center everyday there was class which was Mon-Thurs. Obviously I could never find someone to play with at the tables and the arcades can only deliver so much stimulation before becoming mundane and dull so I thought I would try my luck with this people who had share for my interest in trading card games. I walked over, checked the scene out, not overstepping my balance, and offered a simple greeting of "hi." Needless to say no one returned the greeting, just looked at me weird which was an actual first for anyone to look at me. I witnessed a few games played, realized who were players and who were spectators. I had caught a few who were not in a current game so I figured I could play one of them if to be accepted and become apart of the group. I asked if anyone was up for a game, I recieved no answer. I approached one of them and tried to start a conversation concerning the game like "you guys play this game often?", "how long have you been playing this game?", etc. You know stuff that is general and in trying to gain a little information about this little group/club. Despite my being direct and audible with my speech, still nothing. But then I recieved something I was never given before: a response! Granted it was for me to leave the group alone and go somewhere though.

So even with a shared interest, nobody still wants me around.