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MoonKitsune

Romantic Exhibitionist

PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 6:45 am


He turned. Okay, so no head pats. Maybe he was still against others touching him but felt more comfortable when he was the one that decided what to touch.

Viv just left its hands beside itself.

"Good boy for them. Good boy for me is to not leave but if you wanna be fake and pretend with me then what's the point. This is what's confusing."

"I'm Mali. I hate the Negaverse cause they're dicks. I don't like it here.
I'm Mali. I like being around Vive. I say I'm going to stay and want us to be honest with each other. But hey. Might still leave. Who knows.
I'm Mali. I'm going to not say anything because it might start s**t so I'll lie to keep Viv from worrying."

Its tail flicked with aggitation. "Isn't saying nothing as bad as saying nothing? So only I am the one allowed to be honest? Kinda not fun then."

It breathed out, opening its eyes. There wouldn't be much relaxing. Right now, it wanted to chew on its pillowcase and think but didn't want to do it on front of Mali.

"How about we set up ground rules. Of what we want and don't want in this." Else they were going to keep rewriting how to act which made it co fused how it was supposed to act.


Kapoodles
PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 7:11 am


"I'm not being 'fake'. I'm being... Realistic. If I keep talking about my doubts, then that's just going to make it harder for you to keep it to yourself. If things get worse, I feel like it'd just be better if I didn't complain about it. You're right, I don't want to make you upset. And besides, I've already said my peace about my thoughts on all of.. This." He raised his hand from his belly where it had rested and made a vague motion to the Negaverse in general.

"What would even be the point of repeating myself except to try to make you angry or test your devotion to the whole 'hunt down traitors' thing? Wouldn't it be easier on you if I just kept my mouth shut about it? So what's wrong with that?" It came so naturally to just shut his mouth on matters. Staying quiet kept people from asking too many questions. Not standing out meant that he could just blend in with the other hundreds of soldiers out there.

To him, it wasn't so wrong in the least.

"I said I'm not going to leave. And seriously though, why do you care if I'm honest or not? As long as I'm doing my work and helping you along to your goals, what does my thoughts matter if they are just counter productive? Clearly every time so far today I've said what's on my mind, you've gotten upset, or annoyed, or threatening me or punching me in the face, so all the signs point to me going 'Just shut up, Mali, if you want him to even bother with you, stop making a fool out of yourself.' It takes a while, but I think I'm learning to just.. Keep my mouth shut around you to make you happy." Mali's forearm settled across his hes now, the other hand still staying firmly planted on his belly.

"Fine. Ground rules are probably for the best. Go on, you start."

MoonKitsune

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MoonKitsune

Romantic Exhibitionist

PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 8:05 am


It went quiet.

"Nevermind."

It stared at the matress. "If it's just upsetting then doesn't all of this defeat the purpose? If you being honest doesn't make anyone happy then isn't this just toxic. Aren't I just one of the people who you hate being around. Won't you feel alienated trying to keep the peace while suppressing your real opinions?"

Maybe he just couldn't be friends with Mali at all. Having someone talk of defecting would be considered a bad influence for a past traitor. It was an alcoholic around someone in rehab.

"Wouldn't it be easier on you not to be around me? Pretending around everyone then pretending around me that everything is fine will be draining. How is that bringing anyone any joy then?"

"I don't need for you to cater to me to make me happy. I'd rather be upset then sparred. Maybe I should just write a report. Then anything you say to me about it has already been reported. My devotion wouldn't be tested anymore and you'd be free to talk. I would have already done my part."

It turned on its back and summoned back its uniform. Reaching into its pocket, it struggled to bring out the tablet pen and spread it open. It brought up a email titled Report of Possible Defector: Corrupt Senshi -

"Can you transcribe it for me? My claws are bad at holding this and I don't know how to spell your full name."

It offered the tablet to him.

PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 8:36 am


"Not everything has to work out perfectly. Not everything can be a clear cut yes or no, I'm sure you know that. It's not suppressing my opinions if I already said them once before, is it? I've been drained all my life, Vivre. Lying comes naturally, easily, and feelings can be hidden just fine if you practice long enough. Even Nubi wouldn't know about these thoughts because I don't want her to, and she's my twin. She knows nearly every quirk and flaw I have. So going the extra mile to make sure my thoughts are secret is easy." He could easily count on his hands the number of times a secret had been revealed to his twin that he didn't 'want' her to find out.

Keeping everyone at arms length made for the best secrets to be kept, after all. If not one was told, and no one saw, then he was safe.

But he had already told Vivre everything. That secret wasn't safe anymore.

"Alright then." He didn't hesitate when tablet was handed to him, but he did turn a bit to lie on his stomach, faces mere inches away from it's glowing screen.

"Z-U-B-E-N-E-S-C-H-A-M-A-L-I, aka Mali, Senshi of Automatons." He spoke out slowly, writing out the name at the top of the email subject. "Tell me what you'd like me to type. I may be a little slow... I still can't see anything."

Mali was always one of self sacrificing, though it hardly extended to beyond whatever his sister desired. It seemed like this time, it would truly bring about his demise, and here he was, signing his own death ledger.

"Who knows, maybe this is for the best then. I'm sure the Negaverse has methods of dealing with people like me. Maybe brain washing, disassociation, or hell, maybe some sort of body-snatching youma that would be able to use what little power I have to further their goals. I already don't talk much when I'm around Nubi, I doubt she'd even know the difference."

MoonKitsune

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MoonKitsune

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PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 9:15 am


"Who knows. It's your first offense. You said you have still done your quotas and worked hard. They could just train you more and watch you. Bit at least once this is done, you can say whatever you want without pretending. We can be friends."

It moved over shoulder to shoulder and also laid on its stomach in order to read what Mali was writing.

"Upon taking Lieutenant Mali to the Rift, the officer expressed displeasure for the Queen and the Negaverse. Spoke of being undervalued and unwanted as a senshi. Has suicidal thoughts Including defecting in hopes of being appreciated and given the freedom to make their own choices without authority. Lieutenant Mali explained that they didn't wish to have been corrupted or serve the goals of the Negaverse. Felt no reason to improve performance or progress in rank as it didn't benefit their self of self worth. Officer is at risk of spreading treasonous thoughts and purifying." It spoke softly and slowly so Mali could type.

"Lt. Vitriol"

It said and looked up at Mali. "Is that about right? I don't want to get your feelings wrong. You can add too it."

He looked closer at the screen. "We'll send it to your general and let them decide. Then we can keep being friends, okay? No dying to the Rift. No keep it to yourself around me. It's all in the open now and you won't have to feel bad about it."

It was a good solution.


Kapoodles
PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 10:08 am


Slowly but surely, Mali began to type out the words that Vitriol typed out. Each sentence struck hard. Word for word that Vitriol spoke out hit home (except perhaps the suicidal part), and he just...

Grew tired.

Even without the exhaustion in his body, or the dull throbbing pain in his face, he began to realize something...

"... I don't want to do this." He said finally, looking down at the words that had once came from his hands. In a few clicks, it was deleted, then the email closed as he sat back up and placed his feet on the floor. A quiet moment filled the room, then he tossed the tablet to the end of the bed.

"Not now. I barely know who my General is, just that she's already taken alot from me. I don't know if we can be friends if she decides that there's something incredibly wrong with me. I can't be a friend if I'm a starseed, in someone's mouth, can I?" Though that was his excuse, he let out a sad sigh, leaning forward with his hands pressed against the bruises on his face, hoping the pain that shot through would help steady his thoughts.

It didn't. Another sigh, more sad then it had been before left him, and he slowly stood up, taking a few steps forward.

"Letting them decide what happens to me... It's not a choice I want to make. I'm sorry, Vitriol, I suppose I lied again." He didn't care now that he couldn't see or that he still had some time until the General would arrive. Maybe he could just hitch a ride back with some other General who may have been available. He stood, squeezing his eyes shut for just a moment to try to will away that dizziness. It shouldn't be that hard to make it outside.

"... Call me a coward, I suppose it's only fitting. But I'm leaving now..."

MoonKitsune

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MoonKitsune

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PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 10:26 am


"Wait. What?" It sat up and turned as as Mali tossed the tablet aside and sat off the side of the bed.

"But-" It started, reaching for the discarded tablet with a frown and looking at the now gone report. "But you haven't been that bad and you are confessing. I'd even go and tell them that you came forward. They won't,t kill you. They'll help make it right." Why couldn't Mali see that? Their superiors were there to make these choices for them. They were here to guide them on the right path and stay focused. How could you disobey if they told you what to do? All Mali had to do was listen.

Couldn't he see that it was trying to help? That if the report was made then Mali could talk about anything to Viv and not hold it back and It could listen without hiding it from its superiors? It was trying hard to alleviate this circling confusion with such a simple answer.

It didn't get it and the fact Mali wouldn't do it when it was such a good idea only simmered into frustration and disappointment.

Sitting, it stared at the tablet and prodded it uselessly. "Okay...." It muttered.

"Are you - coming back?" It asked.


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PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 10:53 am


Mali had hesitated leaving though, lingering a little closer to the bed and telling himself that it was because of the 'dizziness' that he did not move. He did fully stop though, turning to look at Vitriol who sat up after him.

"Confessing to the crime of free thought, the crime of questioning and being curious and wanting to have a 'why' answered. To want to know why I should have blind faith in something. It's like believing in a god. A god that our only proof is 'power', which, for all I know, could actually be some radioactive virus pumped into our veins when they thrust their hands into our chest. And Metallica could be some strange floating brain that preaches they will save the planet. Or a flying spaghetti monster. Maybe you see that as bad, but... There's not guarantee what they will do. I don't know your Faustite. And I don't know Cavansite. I don't know anyone, and I don't know you either." Why couldn't Vitriol just let him leave? It would have been easier that way, wouldn't it? And they kept going on and on and on about what was easy... Mali wanted to take the easy way out and just leave and maybe never think about Vit again.

"Thank you, Vitriol. Talking to you, waiting, thinking, made me realize that getting myself punished for doing what comes naturally as a human, which is to doubt things, is a damned stupid idea. I want to come to a conclusion and
decision on my own." He drew a little closer, allowing a moment to reach down and pet Vitriol's ears once again. His fingers moved slowly, smoothing down those ears and tracing around the base with a sad smile. Maybe it was for the last time, who knew?

It was up to the halfling to write out that report again or not.

"Hmm... Coming back where? Here? To the barracks? To the Negaverse? To you? What do you mean? Ask me clearly, otherwise it might end up being another lie again."

MoonKitsune

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MoonKitsune

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PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 12:30 pm


It only stared back as it was petted and looked back down at the tablet.

It couldn't take the thanks it was given.

"I'm not sure which one " Mali had become miserable and confused in its company and in turn had shut himself down in their exchange. Now it wanted to choose something that Viv didn't want him to consider. It wanted to tell him how that path went with more detail but had to be quiet for its sake.

It closed the screen to slid back into the pen.

Which one did it hope to return to the most. "Wouldn't it be all of them if I said me?"


Kapoodles
PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 12:48 pm


".. That is true isn't it? If I returned to you, I'd be returning to all of that." To Mali, it seemed like Vitriol was avoiding the question, but he didn't mind. After all, the whole time he had been looking for a new point he could reference when he lost his way.

The hand slid from that soft hair, and trailed down to his shoulder before falling back down to Mali's side.

"Are you asking because you want me to stay, or because it's an obligation to keep me from leaving? Ignore all the Negaverse rules, the laws people has set down before you, the orders, the promises, the obligations you have to people I don't know or care about. Are you asking me if I will return to you because you, as Vivre, or Vitriol, or whatever name you choose to be, human, youma, or both, want me to?"

MoonKitsune

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MoonKitsune

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PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 1:20 pm


It considered it.

While they had fought, it would be a hyprodcite to say it had not at one point of it's life started to question the limitations and freedoms it had that disallowed it to pursue its own desires. It was one of the motivating factors in it's own purification. However, it had traveled the road and was trampled by the endevour of reality. A lesson it had trouble swallowing until it wished it was cyanide.

It didn't want that for Mali. While they had fought, it wasn't out of some spite or need to be cruel. There was no reason to throw him away.

"I'd want you to - but not if it makes you miserable or lie about what is going on because you feel it would make me happy. Not if it winds up with me killing you somehow." It was someone that would want to turn it in and would soon become his enemy if he continued to nurture these feelings. If he needed to go to preserve and protect his wavering convictions, then it was better for them both to not put the wolf and the raven in a wire cage. Not when the wolf was starving for approval and the raven dying to be free from the bars.

"If that is part of it, then you should do what's in your best interest to be happy - just." It looked up. "Really question it. Sometimes what you think might make you happier will only make it so much worse."


Kapoodles
PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 1:39 pm


"No." Mali didn't want to hear any more of these considerations. it was tiring.

He was tired.

"No. I'm not asking for what it will make me feel, or make me do. And I'm not asking for any advice on what I should or shouldn't do. I want a yes or no. Do you want me to stay here? Simple as that. I don't want any more doubts." He took to his knees before Vivre, taking the tablet away once again and tossing it onto the bed. His hands then slipped into those now empty paws, squeezing them and leaning in as close as he could to finally bring those glowing eyes into focus.

"Like before, try it again. Do you, without any ulterior motives or influences and without any considerations about what you can't and cannot do because of the Negaverse, want me to come back to you? To be by your side?"

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MoonKitsune

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PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 6:56 pm



It was starting to not like that Mali kept taking its tablet away and tossing it away, giving it nothing to distract itself with. The "No' was a scolding. A statement of a mistake. A misunderstanding.

Its paws were taking, and Mali closed the distance and also the height difference as he knelt to ask him, point black and face to face, to answer him. There wan't any distractions to poke at buttons or look at.

Did it want him there or not?

It needed to not think and decide quickly else it would think about all the other things that came into such a decision. The things it already expressed to Mali.



It nodded, slowly.




Kapoodles
PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 7:09 pm


There were no words exchanged. Mali was unsure if this was the best decision to make, backing Vivre into a corner like this.

Then again, this was the Negaverse. Viv had the power here, the claws, the bite, the 'poison' that would allow him to make Mali leave if he wanted. His grip wasn't tight, he had no weight on those paws he held. Even a headbutt would be enough to make him leave.

But Vivre did nothing, only slowly nodding at the question, and lightening the weight and worries Mali had.

No matter what he had said, he really didn't want to leave Vivre or force distance between them.

"Then I will stay." He released the halfling's hands, then took a seat beside him on the bed, leaning forward with his hands on his knees.

"Now, for me to stay here... You said something about ground rules. The offer is still there if you want to say what you want, and what you don't want out of this friendship. You have the lead, Vivre."

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MoonKitsune

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PostPosted: Tue Apr 09, 2019 7:17 pm


It didn't want the lead and it moved its claws over the others as it thought.

"I don't know much to say. I don't have friends. I don't remember those I had." It remembered those in the Negaverse, but they had been old school and build over time, necessity, trauma, and the shared reliance in battle. This hadn't come about that way.

"Can you not say terrible things about the Queen and my general around me. It makes me upset." It said. Could that be a rule.

"Can you give rules too?"


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