Rep laughed at Harrison's estimation of him, and the low chuckle seemed to take a weight off of him, free up room to breathe. The kiss too siphoned off some of the pain, left him lighter and more able. "I just can't do any of those things without you. It's ******** gay, but food doesn't taste like anything, there's no point in anything else, living is just a needless thing. If I could just stop if and when you did, that would be what I wanted. Like a ******** boss in an MMO, linked health pool." he sighed and added. "B0nez knows what I mean."

He had seen that cold edge to Harrison, at least somewhat in his blue counterpart, in the way he'd gone after Sasha. "I don't want you to have to turn into it."

The frown was deep and Rep couldn't help the tears as he shook his head. "They.. they aren't. But I don't..I don't know if I'm any of those things either. Brave, or honest. I'm no strong. I can't even keep s**t together lately. I keep trying and trying. I just wish they could like." he clenched his hands in Harrison's. "I wish they could just class me as a guy who loves two specific ******** guys, and not just as a f*****t, as some ******** ki..as some ******** c**t its no safe to shower around. Some ******** stereotype."