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It isn't I that fear the drama, it is the fact that every time I get cozy with something communication-wise bad things happen to me. People have it out for me (paranoia?)

I have seen some s**t in my day and giggled all the way through it.... Also in that same vein, I have a slight problem. I am addicted to Gore videos at the moment, and they are ******** with my brain. Real beheadings and stuff, hate the way it makes me feel, but i can't stop watching it. No matter how mad, sad and sick it makes me to know people are murdering eachother, I still go to the website at least twice a week and watch a bunch of videos of people dying.

But enough of that jazz,

I am in washington if you want to talk to me.

And xane, you can play whatever you desire, i just demand a certain level of realism. Remember, everything someone does, they have to justify (no matter how illogically) this is why i recommended the Marquis de sade. Libertine(someone who doesn't believe in morals) you can learn to be truly sick, in a way that is realistic.

or go look up some of 3 guys 1 hammer.... and never be able to sleep again...

No.... 3 guys 1 hammer is not a genital torture thing. It is a murder thing.
There were some guys who by their own admittance were "bored" and wanted to have stories to tell when they were older so what do they do? go out and start murdering innocent people and record everything they do.

3 guys 1 hammer is a video of a guy getting murdered with a hammer, and a screwdriver.

Now the images of the murdering videos and the beheading videos, don't really but me that much, the idea behind it makes me angry, but i accept this is the world in truth, there is evil out there. But the sounds.... The sound a man makes when he is drowning in his own blood from having his throat slowly cut off with a knife, or the video with a chainsaw.... the sounds get stuck in my head and ******** with me.

nevertheless, i am addicted to gore right now, I do like the fear it gives me, makes me feel human, makes me remember how life is precious and how it could end instantly at any time. Which if i wasn't such a jolly guy would make me never want to leave the house again. Luckily I am not stupid enough to let something like death impede me.

Anyway The site i visit has a lot of stuff in it, and more and more am i becoming desensitized.

Like Luka Magnotta's video where he stabs a guy in the chest with an icepick, rapes the corpse, cuts off his arms and legs then uses the dismemebered arm of his victim to masturbate.... It, despite being horrendous, is indifferent to me now. And thus with disgust i am again further enlightened.

It is nice you know that you may be as ******** as me my good friend....

my friend joined the navy.... thats pretty much all cakewalks and picnics for him, since he is just a mechanic....

Well I'm not much into gore... But anime violence I'm fine with! Haha and I've been dickin around in my rpg maker vx Ace's character creator and I made a pretty satisfactory (to me anyway) Barbarian Darius face and sprite. I couldn't make a Nox I liked though due to the lack of resources in my trial version. Maybe I could try to make everyone cuz I already have it anyway and I can't really do any game making with this damn trial.

Oh and Ragni the tiny screen isn't the only thing, the names aren't even there on the iPod for some reason. It doesn't make much sense.

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Oh gawd, gore videos. I remember watching those non-stop with friends in highschool. Weird thing is that me and my friends laughed through most of them. I blame /b/. Gore threads were once common on there.

Anywho. I know who the second character I'm going to make is, it's another ex-bandit from Seb's group. Rat, if anyone remembers the brief mentions of him in the original roleplay, whose out to find Seb because he thinks it his fault the bandit group died. Kind of want him to join up with Darius, but trying to figure out how he'd come to that conclusion.

As for Sebastian....I can't think of jack-s**t. I have no idea who to send him off with and such, etc. etc. etc. It's so confusing for me. :/