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 Posted: Tue Aug 14, 2012 9:00 am
[ ... lost treasure ... ]
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Posted: Tue Aug 14, 2012 9:14 am
 [ ... i don't want to grow up ... ]
It hurts... the pain is becoming more unbearable by the day. I told papa about it before but he said it was just growing pains, that I would feel a dull pain in my joints and muscles as I got older. This isn't normal for a kid to go through while growing up... at least I don't think so. The pain is no longer in my joints and muscles but my skin hurts. It itches and burns in places I can't reach, my back, arms, legs and there's a strange rash growing along my face. Thankfully growing out my hair I can hide it from sight but its getting worse.
I'm scared too. The rashes are all over my body and the more I scratch the worse it gets. Papa has looked at them and made some ointment for them. It helps relieve the itch but it still burns. He even ordered me to bath more and stay away from the woods so I don't catch any strange germs while playing. Bored. Nothing to do when I can't go out and play like before...
Even staying indoors half the time hasn't helped though. The rashes have grown past anything papa can do. He's even asked his friend to come and look at them. She says she's never seen anything like it. Apparently my skin is rotting... some kind of disease that they can't control. I'm really scared. What will Hymn say if he sees me now. I haven't seen him since we played hide-n-seek in the woods when I lost Mr. Happy. It worries me that he'll think I'm ugly and grotesque, he'll not want to play with me, maybe he'll not love me anymore either. Mr. Happy says I should just leave everything to him, that if someone picks on me he'll teach them a lesson. That doesn't sound very nice and it's better if he doesn't get involved so I'll try to handle it on my own. But with my skin peeling and areas of it seem to be rotting away there's no telling how others will view me now.
All my friends will be scared of me and run away... I'll be alone... it's worse then being left in the dark. They'll see my skin and run. Maybe papa will let me get some more cloths. I'll get long sleeves and pants, turtle necks and gloves anything to hide it so they don't leave me. That's it I'll just ask papa... he'll help. That's his job right? I'm his son so he'll do anything for me right?
I don't want to grow up, if I'm going to look like a hideous monster some zombie or something then I don't want to grow up. I'm already taller then most kids my age now I have to look like a Frankenstein too? I really don't want to grow up, it's the worst!!!
Hymn? Will you still love me when I look like this....?
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Posted: Tue Aug 14, 2012 9:31 am
 [ ... ring a ring of roses ... ]Life Dust
Ring a Ring of Roses...
(Child --> Teen*)
Recently the plague that seems integral to Cadaver's existance is hitting him rather hard. As you've mentioned, his body seems to be falling terribly ill and even rotting.. Of course Marijus is a doctor and has been doing all he can to help the poor dust's body from suffering too much damage, every parent would do whatever they could to help their child! However, by doing so, has the guardian put himself at risk? What does Cadaver do when his beloved Papa starts exhibiting signs of his illness? Is it time for Cadaver to rise up to his own aspirations and try to take on the role of the doctor despite his own pains?
*Please note, there's a minimum word requirement of 700 words for this quest.
Cada held back a slight whimper hovering over his papa. Dr. Marjius was sick. Waking with his pain wasn't half as painful as watching his beloved papa curled into such a position in bed. Hot with fever, vomiting most of the morning, and strange welts, bruises and blistered litter the doctor's body. Cada had already thought of calling for his papa's colleague but the thought of her getting sick because of him too was simply too much. Instead he used his father's notebook. Reading over various symptoms. Sometimes he would come across something that sounded like the diagnosis but then it was always some symptom missing. Remembering his teachings from his papa he continued on in the book, mindful of his papa's condition as he nursed him with plenty of fluid, gave him basic ointments for rashes and skin conditions. Most of which the ointment had been used to help aid his own skin condition.
"Papa?" He called out, brushing the strange red purple tresses from his papa's face. "I'm going to help you okay? Just rest. I'll find something to help." He spoke softly the usual liveliness in his voice had dropped. His expression one of complete horror but oddly matured. For now Marijus had been sleeping as peaceful as anyone could in such a state.
Leaving the room, Cada went to the kitchen making chicken noodle soup. It helped many ailments he had remembered basic but it helped give strength to the body from the inside out. The blisters were not hard to understand, they looked like the one's that had once littered his own body. It had been weeks since his skin had settled and the pain had grown duller. Pouring the soup in a bowl he went back to his papa's side, setting the bowl on the night stand. Checking his temperature, Cada sighed, the poor child had no clue what he could do. It had become apparent that maybe he was the one making his father sick.
It was common. One person in a household got sick the rest would likely suffer the same... but.. looking at his skin, Cada pulled at a loose piece holding it up. It eventually crumbled to dust and fluttered away in the dense air. "Airborne." He muttered. Looking to his father it became clear. "I'm a disease." Of course he could handle being sick, in fact, Cadaver hadn't once remembered a moment where he was actually sick. Just in pain. Always in pain but never sick from a cough, fever, nothing. Even thinking back Marijus had mentioned being sick once just before Cada had showed up but after that the doctor had not once come down with a thing.
He wondered to himself. Could he prevent such illnesses or was he the cause. Marijus began coughing violently, sitting up as he curled into a ball waiting this onslaught of cough attacks. "Papa!" The dust jumped up rubbing his papa's back waiting for the coughing fit to subside before giving him some water to ease the dryness in his throat. "What should I do papa? What can I do?" He pleaded but Marijus said nothing only reaching out to caress the boy's cheek before laying back down with a groan of pain. "Please tell me, daddy, I'm lonely and I don't know how to do this right. The book doesn't say anything about this..." But Marijus was in a delirious state there was little he could do to aid his son in helping him.
Cada stood leaving the room so the man could rest. "Femka is there anything in the forest that could be used to help him? Anything you can remember?" He asked the familiar. She chirped but gave a sad shake of her head. She wasn't familiar with medicine like the doctor and Cada even knew a little more than she. Setting on his head she pet him softly trying to comfort the child."I'll be okay, I just need to rest a bit. There's a way to help him I just need to clear my mind and think. He has books I can read so I'll read them." He wasn't very good at reading but had learned from his father often reading those hard to pronounce medical terms. They were very hard but he remembered them and even took time to understand the way they were spelled.
But no amount of reading would help. Peeling at his skin again, he watched it turn to dust and flutter away. He knew, deep down something told him. "Femka. Can you go get Becky. Do whatever you can just get her here, I have to go." The familiar chirped watching Cada as he rushed to pack a few cloths gathering Mr. Happy and scribbling something in crayon on a piece of paper... a note?
"I'll stay until the last minute I don't want him to suffer alone. But when you bring her here I'll be gone. I'm going away. Papa wont' get better if he keeps breathing the stuff that comes of me. I don't know why but he's sick because of me. Those bullies got sick too.. I thought it was Mr. Happy... no I knew it was me but didn't want to own up to that kind of responsibility." Cada sighed he didn't want to grow up but it was becoming hard to just keep the innocence of a child for long. Maybe it was time he did. "I promise I'll come back, just watch papa for me while I'm gone. Make sure he doesn't go looking for me. He needs to get better..." Maybe this was the only way but Cadaver didn't feel he was wrong.
He needed answers now. Answers his papa couldn't possibly help him with. Who would know best? Who could explain exactly what he was...?
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Posted: Tue Aug 14, 2012 9:44 am
[ ... pocket full of posies ... ]
It had been a week since Cadaver had vanished with little more than a note. The good doctor had worried himself sick searching the city. No venue went unturned, traveling through the woods as far as he could go before it grew too thick with weed and over growth or too dark to see. Every abandoned home or would-be place that Cada would hide had not gone without inspection. He'd asked everyone he could twice or even three times...
Going to Cada's favorite bakery produced nothing. He hadn't even been by for his favorite snack. It seemed like he just vanished, he was just gone...
Even with all the searching, Marijus wasn't at his best. Even going back to work produced nothing worth while. Thankfully no reports in the morgue had anything on file of a boy that fit Cada's description. This Marijus was thankful for. Trying his best to continue with his life in hopes that Cada would return the doctor had no way of knowing that sad yellow-green eyes were watching carefully over his father.
He remained quiet keeping as discreet as possible even when a nurse or a doctor slipped past he would draw down his hat, tucking his hands in his pocket and using his hoodie to hide himself. A soft but sad smile etched along his features as he looked into the small window at his father. The man looked older, ripe maybe... the child wondered about this. Was his father's current state due to his actions. "Oh.. hello there little boy. What are you doing in this area?" One of the nurses had spotted him.
Cadaver looked up eyes growing wide. "Ah... I'm sorry. I'll go." The nurse smiled shaking her head. "It's quite alright, are you looking for your parents. I can help."
The dust child shook his head looking through the window once more. The commotion would draw too much attention. "No I'm fine. I can find my way." The nurse caught Cada's eyes then looked into the window noting Marijus at work. "Do you know him?" Cada nodded. "Would you like me to call him over?"
"NO! Please don't! I was just leaving..." At his sudden outburst the nurse seemed alarmed. Wonder if it were alright to let the boy wander around unattended. If Marijus knew him perhaps it was best he knew the child was here. "Please I'll be going now." Cada interjected stepping away from the door. He quickly trudged down the hall turning the corner just as the nurse entered the room.
"Doctor?" Marijus turned with a solemn expression on his face. "Yes nurse?"
"I don't mean to pry but there was a young boy here a moment ago. He was looking in the window. He said he knew you but when I offered to get you he ran off... Was I wrong for telling you?" She honestly didn't know but it seemed wrong to have the child wondering around alone if the doctor knew him; perhaps he could help.
Just as she had been thinking, Marijus dropped what he was doing instantly and flew past her. "Which way!?" She quickly pointed, "Down the hall, sir."
"Thank you!" Rushing at top speeds Marijus went down the hall slipping through patients, doctors and nurses along the way. The flash of a familiar yellow hat caught his attention as he quickly skidded to a halt turning directions. "Cadaver! Cada please wait!" Calling out the the figure his breath picked up as did his pace. This was it, this was the day he could hold the kid in his arms and tell him not to do such a stupid thing again. Damnit that boy! His mind was racing with all kinds of thoughts but the number one thought was to just catch him.
The streak of yellow zipped past nurses, doctors and patients... skirting around a corner and down the long corridor. "Cada! Don't run from me! I'm not mad."
He heard. He knew, he wasn't worried even if his daddy were mad but he didn't want to hurt the other again. Cada wasn't sure if he could stomach watching his daddy get ill again. What if he never got better... what if? No he kept his thought's shut and his feet moving. Ducking nurses who were concerned for a child loose in the ward. One nurse managed to pull his hoodie off but he kept running holding Mr. Happy close to his chest. "Cada please!"
"I can't! I can't watch you get sick... I refuse." The boy called out as he stopped at the end of the hall. He held Mr. Happy close to his chest tears in his eyes. "I'm sorry daddy but I don't want you to get sick. I don't want you to die."
"Die?" Marijus didn't understand rushing forward to hold the child but just as a nurse walked by with a tray the boy was gone. "Cada? CADA!" Sighing the doctor looked around but there was no sign of the child. How much longer would he have to wait before Cadaver returned? "Damnit kid... be safe out there. Get ya narrow butt back here soon." There was little more he could do at this point as he headed back down the hall, feel dragging slowly. If the kid was determined to find his own way, the least he could do as his father was wait for him. "Fine kid nae will wait, but nae gonna smack ya good when ya get back here." He chuckled just thinking about it as he returned to his work.
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Posted: Tue Aug 14, 2012 10:13 am
[ ... ashes ashes ... ]
It's been a month since that day I visited papa at the ward. It wasn't suppose to turn out like that but there wasn't much else to do about it. He spotted me by accident, no thanks to that nurse I'm sure but what's done is done. At this point I have to be extra careful when checking up on him. Lately my features have been maturing. There's really nothing I can do to explain it.
Being made to live on my own, fairly wild, I've learned a lot. Used a lot of what papa told me to survive and managed to keep safe. Watching over papa isn't easy, he's such a clumsy guy sometimes. Staggering out of one bar after another; he's worried about me. I can tell. He has a picture of me in his back pocket he often shows on random occasions during conversations. Even when he was asking around at the carnival I felt really bad. So many times I'd wanted to go to one with him and it had to be at the worst possible time. Even so it surprised me that he even went at all. Maybe he was thinking of me....
That makes me happy. Really really happy! Mr. Happy is also happy too. There's been a lot going on between my watching papa and keeping a distance. I went to see Hymn but he disappeared suddenly... again. I could only laugh and remain nearby until he returned. A small broken down place deep in the woods. It isn't much but it works for me. A local lady was really nice to me recently and bought me some new cloths. She even patched up Mr. Happy a bit; he's not as dengy. But my clothing is big on me right now... she told me I'd grow into it in time. At least they're warm and I love the pretty colors and design.
For now I thought it a good idea to jot down my thoughts on this ragged paper. Papa used to want me to do that when I was with him. Maybe someday we can sit and read it together, laugh about it even. I hope he doesn't hate me...
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Posted: Tue Aug 14, 2012 12:52 pm
[ ... we all fall down ... ]
Who would have guessed. Months would pass before the young child would return in a very abrupt way. Not so very young anymore he sat astride his papa who was in a drunken sleep. Watching as the man slowly opened his eyes to a stuffed toy that was threatening to suffocate him. "What in the... what's going on here? WHUT!?" Blinking he batted at the stuffed toy as it went flying across the room to fall to the floor. Drunken eyes flared as they landed on the blurred image of his son. "Hm?" Too much to drink and too little sleep could screw with anyone's sense of awareness but Marijus wasn't so drunk not to know the image of his own son... "C-cad... Cadaver?!"
Sitting up he flung himself at the taller, older boy, close to crying as he hugged him tight. "I'm so pissed! Why would you run away like that... what's wrong with ya boy...ya just cannot do that." He wailed still in tears, a drunken mess but happy nonetheless.
"Papa, I had to leave you but I'm sorry for making you worry. I'm sorry!" Cada wailed back hugging his beloved father. "I'm really sorry. You were just so sick and I couldn't think of anything to do but go. I made you sick so I just-"
SLAP!
"Don't come at me with that. I don't care about your excuses, Cadaver Virile." Marijus glared but there was love there as he reached out to touch the spot he'd slapped Cada. "I love you silly boy, running is not gonna solve anything, remember that. Next time you stay and stick it out, find out what the problem is and don't give up not even when its over."
The older boy rubbed his cheek with a pout. It was a long overdue slap one he had been prepared for but apparently not enough.
"Now get your a** in the kitchen, I'm hungry." He gave his usual grumpy look before a soft smile slipped across his face.
Cada jumped up landing gracefully on his feet. Retrieving Mr. Happy he smiled with a quick salute. "Roger!" Turning on his heels, he stopped just short of the door. "Papa?"
"Hm? What'cha want kid?"
"I love you."
"Ya makin' me blush... get my breakfast already." He smiled.
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Posted: Fri Aug 17, 2012 8:53 pm
[ ... look at me now ... ]
* Cadaver reunites with his first love interest Hymn the Siren's Voice *
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Posted: Fri Nov 22, 2013 7:22 pm
[ ... changing cultures ... ]
"You're WHAT!?" The roar ripped through the small apartment like the crack of a whip.
Cadaver winced covering his ears with his hands. Squinting one eye open he ventured a look, seeing if the cost was clear. Clearing his throat he gave a lopsided grin and repeated his earlier comment. "I'm moving out." It was as simple as that.
Or not...
Apparently, the youth never mentioned this until the very last moment. Not too long ago, Krinn, Sable and himself mentioned moving in together. They did their fair share of looking around and managed to find a nice home situated in the perfect place. with all of them pitching in it wouldn't cost them much and they'd stil have some money to spare on their own. Cada was happy for this but sad to say he neglected to mention such an elaborate plan to his guardian until the day before.
Which was today.
"You can't just suddenly drop news like this one me. What do you mean by all this boy?" Marijus slurred between sips of his liquor. He glared at the boy with all the might he could must and yet it feel short as he sighed and flopped on the couch. "So when ya movin'?"
"Tomorrow."
"WHAT?!" Again the bellow ripped through the house.
Cada could only shrug as he moved from the living room toward his own room. He opened the door taking a moment to reminisce of good times. "I'm moving tomorrow. Today is my last day here so I'm going to pack my things tonight. You can either come with me or sit around moping all day. Either way the deal is done." It goes to show with time a child could surely grow before the parent has time to breath.
"Are ya thinking boy? Seriously that's no time to do anything. How can you expect to find a house.... wait? Did you already find a place?"
"Yep."
Marijus sighed moving from the couch to were Cada was gathering some things together. "You're serious about this." He stated more than asked. Watching the teen's back was like looking at a child who'd grown into a man all in one day. It was pretty much what happened but he knew better. Cada was no where near being an adult about things. He chug too much to that damn toy and his ideas of the world out there was coated in sugar and candy. How could he possibly make a decision so drastic as this? Who put him up to it? Marijus wanted answers and would have them.
"Listen here... you're still fairly young. I mean you only barely just became a teen and now you want to leave..." He paused huffing at the idea before turning from the door to lean against the wall outside. "Ya hate being here so much? Hate me?"
The teen sighed not wanting to get into a tit-for-tat with his guardian but he could sense the pain just under the surface of all the drinking and grumpily moving around. "Papa... I don't hate you. Why would you even think that?" Cada pushed sitting up from packing a few things. Looking at the open door he new the doctor was there. "I-I can't stay here. I won't risk you getting sick like that again. Moving out is the best thing and besides it's not like I won't be over to visit." He giggled poking his head out of the door to grin widely at the man who jumped not expecting his charge to pop out like that. "I love you papa! I love that you took care of me, and that no matter what may happen to me or I may do unintentionally because of my condition that you still love me."
By this time the 'good' doctor was blushing pushing at his glasses with a distracted snort. "Whatever." He muttered with a grump pushing off the wall. "Ya still trying to run away from me. I can tell." He offered shoving past Cada and into his room. He knelt down to pick up some things and help with the packing. "I still don't approve. Moving out on your own like this."
"But I wont' be on my own. Sabel and Krinn are moving in with me."
A brow twitched suddenly from that comment. "Come again?"
"I said-"
"I heard ya! Why ya gonna move in with him?" He demanded, though he continued straightening things up.
"Well cause Krinn is my friend, its cheaper that way and I did mention Sable will be there." He pouted realizing Marijus was just being like a brat about this. It was kinda endearing but annoying just the same. Wasn't he the adult in all this? "Besides you'll get to meet Sable tomorrow."
A growl filled the small room as Marijus just continued with helping. He figured this day would come but for it to hit his door so soon was taking a lot out of him. It wasn't that he didn't trust Cada or Krinn and the girl for that matter he just wanted the boy home. Where he belonged. Call it a parent thing but he was being robbed of the younger years most parents were allowed to spend with their children. Any other time in his life he wouldn't have wanted kids but for Cada to crash into his world in such a literal sense. Spending endless nights taking care of him and learning how the kid worked with his strange mannerisms. Was he really ready to move on so soon? He hadn't even fallen in love yet? Or was that suppose to be where Hymn fit in?
"I feel like I'm being robbed." The doctor finally breathed. "It's like being punched in the gut. All the air is just flowing out of me, kid. Ya really sure about this?" He looked up the glare of his glasses keeping Cada from seeing anything other then his own reflection.
"Yes. I'm sure this is what I want, papa. Its also what you need. I haven't seen you go out on dates lately. You're so worried about me that you've neglected yourself." He moved to sit next to him nudging his papa affectionately. "Heck I've had my first kiss and experience with love but well haven't you taken time to find someone to settle down with yet? It would be so great! I've always wanted to see a real life wedding."
Yep the boy was definitely stuck in a wonderland. Marijus chuckled bumping his forehead against Cada's. "You really are something kid. Just be careful out there. No matter what you have a home here, if something doesn't work out, come home!" He poked the boy. "That's an order."
"Roger!" He chimed and gave his papa a warm hug.
"I love ya kid. Just know that." Marijus said, coughing slightly at his show of emotion.
"I know."
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Posted: Tue Nov 26, 2013 9:12 am
[ ... leaving the nest and starting anew ... ]
* Cada moves in with Sable and Krinn. Leaving the nest for the first time. *
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Posted: Tue Nov 26, 2013 10:58 am
[ ... contagious energy ... ]
* First encounter with Ziya *
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Posted: Tue Nov 26, 2013 11:01 am
[ ... dark worries ... ]
It had been a long day going back and forth between homes. After settling things with his papa and the other apprehensive guardians; Cadaver was able to finally rest easy. He didn't want his friends to get in trouble for making such a split second decision. That was usually something he did on a whim but even as he thought about it, there could have been more preparation, more time for guardians to get used to the idea of their children leaving home.
Cadavers need to move however, was deeper then leaving the nest and striking out on his own. It was so much more then that... the pain of almost losing his papa because of himself was too much for the youthful dust to handle. Just the thought of his presence making Marijus sick frightened him enough to run away from home. When he had learned Marijus had gotten better it was then he understood. He was dangerous around the frail immune system that humans had, he could easily make them succumb to his sickening spores, parts of his being he had absolutely no control over. From the day to day he had been monitoring just how much he was shedding, how much of his body was decaying. Overall it hadn't seemed like much but this didn't stop the pestilence dust from worrying. That worry went bone deep, wondering if he would become nothing more than a corpse that walked the earth...
Looking solemnly at his reflection in the window of his room in the attic, the pestilence dust remained trapped in a whirlpool of painful thoughts. With eyes glowing from the borrowed light of the moon, he could faintly hear the creatures of the night waking to start their nightly hunt. How long would it be before he'd have to slip into the night to hide from the world? For now he could play in the sun, laugh and enjoy as much time as he was allowed with friends and family but there was a day, something in him whispered foreboding words....
You are not worthy of the light, of the happiness you steal so carelessly... soon you will descend into darkness and hide away from the world. Why would you even be allowed to live if you do nothing more than cause sickness and death.... think about it Cada. You don't belong...
Soon those dark feelings slipped away with the sound of movement from below. Cada moved from the window to his door opening it just a tad. He could hear movement in the kitchen, probably Krinn getting a midnight snack or even Sable. He smiled at the thought. His friends were here, they cared about him right? They didn't see him as a burden or a danger? So far none of them had succumb to any kind of sickness, no matter how long they were around him... but then he realized they'd all been outside or at least they weren't exposed to him for long periods at a time. Marijus was the only one that had a day-in, day-out connection with him. Even so it was for the best that he was no longer living with his papa. At least he could start living his life and maybe he'd find a nice person to settle down with in turn.
"Will I have to leave again?" He wondered to his beloved toy. It sat on a dresser just off to his side. Hunched over with a dead expression on its face the doll would say nothing; slumping further as gravity took its toll. "I don't want to hurt anyone but I can't control it..." He knew there was something in him that he could not control a part of his being that just existed for whatever reason. Why would anyone see fit to make a dust of such a substance. Everyone was made of something less harmless or at least controlled but he... he was made of something that hurt people.
So far, there was a pixie dust, stormcloud dust, lightening dust, and many others he would love to meet. Maybe it was his over active mind but he just didn't understand what his purpose was in this life. Each dust had a purpose that much he could feel but what was it? What did they have to look forward to in this life? Protect those they cared for, those that were too weak to protect themselves... but from what?
Turning to his beloved toy he retrieved it from his dresser and went to flop on his bed. "I don't get it Mr. Happy. What are we all here for anyway?" Rolling up the sleeve to his sweater he pulled at a piece of skin that seemed to be holding on by a mere thread. It easily turned into dust fluttering in the air until it disappeared completely. Even with his recent growth things were still like this. He was still rotting on a daily basis. How long would it be before he became nothing but bone? Sighing he rolled onto his stomach burying his face into the pillow. A short sob escaped him before managed to turn to his side, glowing eyes gazing out the window at the moon.
All that he ever worried about was hurting the people around him. He didn't want to get any older it seemed with it came the final evolution of his being. Would he lose his features all together? Would he become nothing but a dead corpse like he'd seen at the hospital? If that's what his future held for him it wasn't worth being around at all. He didn't want his friends to hate him and shy away because he grossed them out. Wearing sweaters, hats, hoods and pants were only the beginning what would happened if he'd have to cover himself completely cause there was nothing left of him but bones? One could only be happy for so long, putting up a carefree front was easier said then done. No one would know that he worried constantly about the unknown.
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Posted: Tue Nov 26, 2013 11:06 am
[ ... inner thoughts ... ]
It was a warm but cloudy day. The cliffs were a place of sanctuary, quiet, calm, and yet all the powers of the ocean were there licking at my bare feet. I could sit here and watch it for hours, the roar of the ocean crashing against the rocks. With each roll of the ocean waves the rocks would be formed and molded as nature intended. Sometimes I wish nature wasn't so cruel or the gods for that matter...
I haven't seen Hymn in a while and I'm not sure I want to. It's not that I don't love him anymore, I do, the only problem is the love he has for me is somehow different. Now that I've grown and seem to be grasping things one step at a time, it's come to my attention that Hymn is "in love" with me perhaps. This isn't good, we need to talk but I truly hope he won't hate me. It's just that maybe we got our wires crossed after all I was naive, young -- how was I suppose to understand what "true love" was at that time. Right now my heart doesn't pound in such ways like that. Maybe its something that will never truly happen for me. Maybe...
Even as I sit here, the necklace that Hymn gave me sparkled like a twinkling star whenever the sun poked through the thick clouds. It's been cloudy a lot more than usual lately. Wonder why that is? Ah well... it's nice out. Maybe later I'll find Hymn and we can come up here to talk. Get all our feelings out in the open and clear.
Still watching the waves... they were a lot more violent then usual too. It seems nature is growing restless. No clue why? But I know that I can understand... the restlessness. Something in me is antsy, nervous, maybe even scared. I just feel like things are only beginning for me. Mr. Happy do you ever wonder if I'm losing my mind? I think I might be. After moving in with Sable and Krinn I have to be extra careful of the things I do. Even went so far as putting a lock on my door so when I go out like this no one can go inside, accidentally or not. They really shouldn't go in there anyway, who knows what's lingering in there after I leave. Not that they can't be trusted, I trust everyone! Papa says that's an endearing trait but stupid. Not sure why its stupid if it's endearing... he's weird anyway. o 3o
Well maybe I should head back. Looks like it might rain, the clouds are getting thicker on the horizon.
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Posted: Tue Nov 26, 2013 11:09 am
[ ... egads! ... ]
* Krinn exposes one of Cadaver's insecurities, he in turn helps Cada deal with it. *
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Posted: Tue Nov 26, 2013 11:14 am
[ ... kissing lessons ... ]
Cada: Krinn and Sitara sitting in a tree... K I S S I N G... *giggles*
Krinn: [/blushes at that comment and flails his arms] its not like that, I just met her! D////X
Cada: I can teach you how to kiss! I watched papa kiss girls all the time... *is knowledable*
Krinn: I - I dont need to know how to kiss - you dont even kiss on first dates - I dont think... > ///////o;;;
Cada: I kissed on my first date! It was yummy last I remember, I was still little though. *has no clue what he was doing*
Krinn: [/stares at him for a bit] you went on a date? [/obviously has not heard of this] ...... I think my brain just fell out of my head. D////X [/doesnt understand]
Cada: Yes my friend Hymn. He liked to give me kisses and hugs when I was little. I don't see him that much now though.... you want kisses and hugs from me? *is still rather oblivious of what he did as a kid*
Krinn: ....... Hymn kissed and hugged you? [/considers this for a moment] Are you two together? [/cocks his head to the side] > ////o And no - no, er, I'm totally fine without them. DX hugs might be nice, but no kissing! ; A;
Cada: *thinks and tilts his head then shrugs* Together? You mean friends. Yes we are, like you're my friend. *not computing* I can teach you how to kiss. I'm good at it! You should learn soon its getting about time for you to have a girlfriend don't you think?
Krinn: No I meant like uh - er, nevermind... [/shakes his head] And nono, I swear I'm fine. DX;;;;; And it is? I didnt know it was. . /////. I didnt think you needed a girlfriend at a specific time... DX
Cada: *thinks* Um... well you don't NEED a girlfriend but you should probably get one before a stampede of girls come after you. I heard girls around our age start looking for guys to date so... *trails off in thought, then blinks* Um... so have you had your first kiss yet at all?
Krinn: St-Stampede? [/looks like a deer caught in headlights] U - uh, I'm not quite sure I want that to happen... . ______. That would be bad. [/cocks his head to the side and blinks at the mention of a first kiss] Er, yeah... actually... [/looks extremely embarrassed]
Cada: *smiles wide* Then why can't I kiss you? *inches closer*
Krinn: B-Because! Isn't it something you're supposed to do to someone you - er, like as more then a friend? Thats what... Thats what Lan told me anyways. o ///////<
Cada: *giggles* But papa kisses girls all the time and most of them I never saw again... you can kiss them cause you just want to. *nods sagely and moves closer to Krinn still grinning* Come on! Just once...
Krinn: And thats what Lan calls a womanizer. [/frowns behind the blush and yelps as Cada moves in, turning his eyes to floor] Er - Ah - uh.... [/sighs in defeat] Just once, alright?
Cada: *Smiles and reaches to lift Krinn's chin so he can look at him.* But I'm not a womanizer and didn't Lan go home with papa anyway? I'm positive papa kissed him cause no one goes home with papa without being kissed. *giggles* Besides we like each other, we're best friends so its definitely okay! *smiles and leans in to plant a lingering kiss to Krinn's lips before moving away licking his own* You taste like rain, its really nice... *Giggles smacking the poor dust in the face with Mr. Happy* He wants a kiss too!
Way to kill the moment Cada!
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Posted: Tue Nov 26, 2013 11:15 am
[ ... sleepy hollow ... ] Cada: *sewing a new arm on Mr. Happy looking all sad*
Krinn: [/pads into the room looking sleep-deprived] What are you doing?
Cada: *crying* H-he got attacked by a vicious animal (neglects to say it was just a puppy that was in the knawing stages of life) I have to save him... *crai*
Krinn: [/plops down next to him, rubbing his eyes] How vicious was it? [/prods Cada gently] I'm sure he'll survive. You're doing a good job at patching him up.
Cada: *leans on Krinn's shoulder* He was .. um... three stories high and he had big teeth like this *makes a growling noise while imitating a vicious animal* then he grabbed Mr. Happy and ran off. I chased him and found my poor friend clinging to life with one arm... *holds the toy close. Notices the sleepy Krinn* Are you okay? *pets*
Krinn: [/leans back against Cada] You know how ridiculous that sounds? I don't think I've ever seen something that big. It looks like you sewed him up alright though. [/closes his eyes] I'm alright.... Just tired - haven't been getting much sleep lately.
Cada: *sits Mr. Happy on his shoulder then pulls Krinn to lay his head in his lap* You look awful and that's the truth... *giggles* Sorta... but still. *plays with his hair* Have you been eating good? You need to eat to keep your energy up.
Krinn: [/squeaks and wriggles a bit] Cada, this isn't really - [/stops and yawns, resigning defeat grumpily] I've been eating.... fine. [/is a bad liar - has had a bad eating habit ever since he was a child] Its not that. I'm just tired, its nothing.
Cada: *giggles* Just relax a little... It's good for you. *hums something surprisingly sweet while playing with his hair some more* <3
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