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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 8:26 pm
She frowned, biting down on her lower lip; she hated it whenever he did that! She would feel bad about asking since he seemed like he didn't want to talk about it, but she didn't want any issues he might have to remain on his mind, unsolved... That was never healthy.
"Well... If you want to talk, I'm all ears," She offered, in an attempt to get him to talk; she couldn't help feeling worried whenever he started acting like that, "I want to be able to at least provide a listening ear. It doesn't seem like I can do anything else for you sometimes."
She leaned over the counter, watching the old lady before she tilted her head upwards towards Mot, "So...?"
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 8:46 pm
She wanted to help. That's all she wanted to do. Mot felt like he was bringing her down. He didn't want to. However, he didn't even know where to begin as far as spilling his guts was concerned.
His eyes glanced at the old lady, who was just finished ringing in one of the shirts, and now reaching for another. She didn't even seem to realize Lizzy and Mot were talking as she focused on her task.
"Uh.." Mot seemed somewhat willing to talk, though he looked lost for words. Lizzy might have been one of the last people he wanted knowing about his issue, but she was also one of the few people he felt okay talking to about personal stuff. "Is it normal for your stomach to twist in knots, and your nerves to go haywire, and feel like you're going to die in a fire any time you even think about kissing someone?" He asked, as subtly as he could.
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 9:01 pm
"That sounds..." She paused, trying to think back to her first kiss as she nodded, "Well... I felt that way the first time I kissed? Before that, whenever I thought about kissing someone I like, I just felt like I was burning up despite being cold-blooded. I also feel nervous, like I would mess up because I had never kissed anyone before and frankly... I didn't know how it works."
Her face was reddening as her eyes darted from the old lady to the patrons in the store; luckily, nobody seemed to be paying them any attention.
"Kissing is a very intimate act," She admitted, looking sheepish, "Not everyone is for it, I guess...? Like hugging. I had never hugged a boil before I came to school... I actually passed out after I hugged my first boil."
Her blush deepened as she shuffled her feet, playing with the end of her ponytail, "But now that I'm used to it, I see hugging ghouls and boils the same way - granted, I only hug boils I consider my good friends." At this, she beamed at Mot; it was obvious who she saw as one of her best friends, "I guess... After the first time, it doesn't seem as... Scary or difficult? Especially if you genuinely care about someone... Kissing is like hugging, but with your lips! It's... Really nice, but I think it only applies to people you really care about."
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 9:21 pm
So, feeling like he was going to die was.. normal? If that was the case, who would ever want to do those things? Still.. she said it was very intimate. The mere inkling of anything intimate, it made Mot shiver uncomfortably. Lizzy seemed to have a lot of opinion on the subject though, as she rambled on about how it felt, how it made her feel..
Still, Mot managed a smile and stifled laugh as she admitted she used to be scared of hugging boils. passed out? That was... adorable. But she was a ghoul. It seemed okay for ghouls to do stuff like that. Cute and shy.. that was okay.
"How did you know when it felt right?" Mot asked nervously, referring to kissing Mac. "Did you feel different around him than other boils?" Maybe all this time he really didn't have the feelings for Lizzy that he thought he did? No.. he definitely liked her. "I just can't imagine taking that initiative. It makes me feel sick."
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 9:38 pm
"Hey, hugging boils is - was - really, really intimidating, okay?" She couldn't help but fold her arms across her chest when Mot looked like he was about to laugh; however, the smile on her lips showed how she really felt - it was nice to see Mot smile. She enjoyed it, even if it was at her expense.
"I... Wasn't sure at first," She frowned, her brows knitted in concentration as she tilted her head, 'hm-ing' thoughtfully, "Mac initiated and... Honestly? I froze up inside. I stopped breathing. I was pretty sure I was just pressing against his lips and trying not to pass out... I wasn't sure if it was right or not - not until the second time."
Her face was totally red now, and she cleared her throat, "Mac was always that boil who would accidentally make me cry with his thoughtless comments or actions. Then he was also the boil who dragged me to the swimming pool and taught me to swim because he was worried that I would drown one day - by tossing me into the pool. I guess... At first it didn't feel very different? Then I realized that hugging him or holding his arm suddenly felt really nice, and being with him caused me to blush a lot. The kiss was probably... The breaking point though. It made me realize that I actually liked him more than just a friend, although it really wasn't the appropriate way to woo anyone."
She looked up at Mot, her eyes widening a little, "Sick? Really...? Hm... Maybe it's just one of those things that will be easier once you find someone you really have feelings for? or you have an idea why you feel that way?"
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 10:25 pm
Mot watched Lizzy carefully, eyes softening as she turned red. She cared so much for Mac. Mac meant the world to her, no doubt. Smitten. More than smitten. Despite how she described him; tossing her in pools and making her cry. She spoke of it endearingly. So.. she knew for sure of her feelings after the second kiss? Still, that meant taking the courage to do it. As it was, the only person he even thought he liked in that way was Lizzy.. and she was a taken ghoul.
The warnings of Hel rang in his head. Her comments made sense now. They'd hurt when he first heard them, but it was just the truth. He was not Lizzy's boilfriend. He was not Mac. Mot ought to stop fooling himself. Maybe, like Roch, he needed to set his feelings to rest.
"I don't know why. I have no basis for comparison..." If he found someone he had feelings for, it made it easier? But thinking of Lizzy this way, it just made him feel worse. He really had this all backwards. His eyes shifted to the old woman. She was halfway finished, and still seemed severely focused on her task. It was really a good thing they were practically alone in the store. This conversation was much too personal. "I'm over thinking things. Intimate stuff isn't all that important, right? I mean.. who says love stuff is for me anyway."
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 10:43 pm
"Aww, well... Maybe when you find someone, you'll see it in a different light," She smiled, playfully bumping him on the arm with her fist, "I wouldn't say it's not important, but it's not all there is to it - a relationship I mean. Love is more than kissing or any other intimate actions... It's more important to be intimate on a mental level, I think, and you're really good at that." Her smile widened as she briefly turned to face the old lady behind the counter.
"Do you like it when people hug you?" She asked, suddenly curious, "Did you always like it?"
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 10:51 pm
Mot managed another smile for Lizzy as she bumped his arm. She was trying to make him feel better. He'd done the same for her, so he didn't feel as bad about it. They were friends. This is what friends do. Comfort and aid. Yes. It was okay. Besides, apparently he was good at being mentally intimate? The idea of it made him blush. He wasn't so sure he believed that bit at all.
"Not really.." Mot admitted sheepishly, rubbing his neck. "I mean.. I've gotten used to it, but.." Hugging was about all he could handle.
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 11:04 pm
"You... Don't enjoy or like hugs?" She looked normal on the outside, but on the inside, Lizzy was dying; Mot didn't like hugs! Not really, he said! Ahhhhhh, she had been forcing hugs on him! She didn't ask him how he felt about hugs earlier!
She was a bad friend.
That thought caused her to deflate just a little, "I see..."
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 11:14 pm
Mot's eyes shifted to Lizzy, his breath stopping as he realized what he'd said. oops! Someone as affectionate as Lizzy would be devastated to hear this! "Th-that isn't what I meant!" Mot stumbled over his words, eyes falling to the floor as he tried to collect himself. Shoot! Nooo.
"I mean, I like when you hug me--" AAAH THAT SOUNDS WRONG "Aaaah--no...wait.." Mot became flustered, his eyes darting to the old woman again. She had just finished tallying, the garments neatly folded in a bag.
"Ooookie dokie.. that will beeee... Fifty Nine seeds, pleaassee.." She drawled out slowly, blinking softly and staring at Mot. Mot sighed softly, grimacing and pulling out his wallet. The seeds were placed in the old woman's palm, his wallet pocketed and the bag taken from the counter. His face was bright red.
"Mmnnnn thank you verrrry much.."
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Posted: Sat Nov 12, 2011 11:49 pm
"It's okay," She replied softly, fiddling with her hair, which was a Lizzy tell-tale sign that she didn't feel happy, "I understand... You humor me a lot already, Mot. I can deal with less hugs... Or no hugs..." She sunk further into the ground. Metaphorically of course.
"Thank you!" She smiled at the old lady, dipping her head to be polite before looking up at Mot, "Where to now?"
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Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2011 9:07 am
Mot was eating his words. He'd really screwed up royally. How could he fix this?
He walked outside with Lizzy, peeking into the bag. Right! the gift he'd bought! Now then... "Where to?" He parroted, looking around the streets. Mot's mind fished around for places Lizzy would enjoy. Something to make Lizzy happy. He so badly wanted her to be happy. "Uh.. there's a park down the road with a Floresce pond. Want to go there?"
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Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2011 9:18 am
"Floresce pond?" She perked up considerably, tilting her head as she walked beside Mot, "Yes please! Eeeee, Amrita would love it, I think! We have to take pictures! So many pictures!" She also wondered if city parks looked any different from suburban parks.
"Lead the way!" She smiled, linking her hands together behind her back as she stared up at Mot.
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Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2011 9:41 am
Lizzy was happy again. She was obviously avoiding touching him, but she was happy. Mot swallowed an empty feeling he had going down, and lead the way to the park.
The city park was bigger than a city block. Strange vine gardens, killer rose bushes and weeping willows lined the pathways, while other city goers had picnics in patches of grass. The reaper led the way until they hit the center of the park. There lay a large body of water, filled with a variety of Floresce.
"Look, Lizzy. I'm sorry for what I said." Mot apologized, setting his bag down and sitting on the grass. "What I meant was, I never used to like physical contact.... It's not such a bad thing to be pulled out of your comfort zone. It helps you grow as a person. And you've helped me grow a lot these last six months."
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Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2011 9:57 am
She followed beside him, skipping a bit to keep up with his pace. When they reached the garden, it became increasingly more difficult for her to keep up as she got distracted by the sights, sounds and smells; the flowers, especially, held her attention before she realized that she was supposed to be following Mot.
Lizzy squatted down by the side of the pool, eyes wide as she stared at the floresce just beyond her reach, swimming about; she wondered if there was anything like this in the school... It would be a good place for a picnic!
"Hm?" She blinked, looking up from where she was squatting beside the pond. Her expression softened, and she couldn't resist the smile growing on her lips, "Aw... I'm glad you hear that, really." She paused and then hopped over to where Mot was before leaning backwards so that she was sitting down beside him. Both arms were then extended out in his direction, "Hug?"
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