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I'll answer your question with another question: why is it that if we don't want to be on medication, suddenly we're uncontrollable and belong in an institution?

Listen to what your family has to say, if you can manage yourself tell them so. If they can't handle that, then they can screw off. Just don't tell them that. You may, however, want to talk to a professional to figure out just how off balance you are.

I know I shouldn't ask this, how long until you can declare your independance? I'm told in some states it's not 18.

IF you can take the initiative to finish school early (summer credits make early graduation possible) then you can work on getting a job (it would be best for you to put friends and not relatives on the references) and save money for an apartment. Some people *raises hand* need two to have a good place and keep up the lifestyle they grew up on, but it's entirely possible to make it off one. You can also apply for state assistance, but I suggest not becoming a leech (staying on it for the convenience) and working as hard as you can to be able to live without it when you can. After you feel comfortable, try studying college-level subjects and maybe take a few online courses so you're ready if you decide to really go to college. (scholarship, scholarship, scholarship. Look up every one you think you'd be eligible for)

Also, a very important part, sever your parents from you. Don't quit contact, that would only fuel their poor notions. If you have a facebook, clean it up and use that to give them occasional updates on your life so 1. they don't worry, and 2. you can show them that you can handle yourself.

I would suggest also seeing a councellor. I know you may not want to, but I'm not an expert, so you should take all of my advice with a grain of salt and do what you think is best for you. Make sure to tell them everything, DON'T let your parents get involved, and tell him how well you control yourself until your family gets involved. It seems to me that their constant negativity toward this isn't making what you're dealing with any better at all. In fact, they may possibly be aggrivating the problem.


Biggest advice: Find a non-aggresive outlet for your feelings. Whether you decide to do anything else in this post or not, at least do this. I don't find any emotional issues with cutting, but there are medical worries. I bet you have some of your own, too, considering you're being told to do this by Henry. Is Henry simply rage personified, or do you think you could talk to him? It's inevitable that all voices are a part of you, a part that you never knew you had. Henry could be a multitude of things and you need to figure out what.

Henry, please read this.

A lot of people who don't understand would find this weird, but you guys need to have a pow-wow and establish some ground rules. Sports, activities, studying... any of these will work. No matter what, though, start keeping a journal. Two journals. A day journal and a rage journal. The day journal is obvious, write down how it all went, what you did, what you wanted to do, what you think you'll do tomorrow. In the rage journal, you must remember to write the point on the cover, the inside cover, the back inside cover, the back, and any page you think would be questioned by people who don't understand what you're going through won't jump to conclusions if they find it.



Write your rage on these pages, all of your pain, anxiety, worries about the future, your fears of what will happen of your parents force you to go away. If they won't let you have a single word in your own future then, no matter what anyone else says in this thread, your parents have started looking at what's best for them. I know it's a cruel thing to say. They may care deeply for you, but it's like the family with a member with a deteriorating condition; if you don't go soon then they begin to feel that they'll die along with you.

Keep this journal in a SAFE PLACE. Maybe even entrust it to your councellor. (Either EXPLAIN WHAT'S GOING ON IN THE ENTRIES or tell them expressly that you trust them and would like them to watch over it and you're not yet ready for them to read it. You feel them doing otherwise would be a break in therapist-client confidentiality)


I'm not licensed to give this sort of advice, I've only taken a few classes on the subject, and I'm going mostly off personal experiences and common knowledge along with what you've provided.


Above all else, do what's best for you.

You're welcome. I just wish I could understand more... *voices act like they're watching a movie most of the time*