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As I was reading through this thread, that's actually exactly what I was thinking the problem most likely was.

It sounds to me like it's not you that your mother's mad at; if you're financially supporting her more than she's supporting you, then I highly doubt you're actually doing anything wrong or anything that angers her. I strongly suspect that whenever she gets upset about her life, or stressed, or mad at one of her friends or somebody else who she can't scream & curse at, she takes all those negative emotions out on you instead of dealing with the source of her anger, etc. directly. I know that that doesn't make it any easier to handle dealing with her when she's freaking out at you; but hopefully if you focus on the fact that even though she's insulting you out loud it's really herself that she's upset with, it will help you to stay a bit more calm & not get quite as personally invested.

Also, when your mother gets like this, is there ever any opportunity during which you'd be able to just leave the house & leave her for a bit? If this situation was different, I'd advice you to just walk away from it all, but I have a feeling that your mother is not unlike mine when she gets angry, & that she'd just keep on following you. If there's any way for you to force her to have some time alone to calm down, though, that would probably help immensely.

... Also, do you have any siblings, by the way? &, if so, how are they treated in comparison to you? ... I ask because, depending on the answers that you give to that, I may be able to tell you some things that would likely interest you quite a bit

Anyway, I know how rough it is to deal with a mother who freaks out like yours seems to, but you've still got your life & your future & your health... as cliche as it may sound, just try your best to appreciate all the good times you have & experience them to their fullest, & try & think of this nonsense with your mother as an unplesant experience you have to go through, & although it really sucks, it always ends, & things always keep moving forward.