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 Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 8:27 am
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The time went by rather quickly, band practice went smoothly and it seemed everyone had cooled down. At least it seemed Skull had. Aleister lied on his back in the middle of the bed. He contemplated walking over to the Whor3's hotel room, he felt the need to apologize for Skull's behavior. He knew the boy wouldn't do it himself, he was too cocky and proud. He looked over towards the singer and raised an eyebrow. "I think enough time has passed," Ally held out his arms. "If you're not going to, and I know you won't, I'm heading over soon to apologize." He reached his arms behind his head to rest.
In all honesty, he wanted to see if he could talk to Lillith, alone. He did want to apologize, but he also wanted to be alone with her. She was too intriguing to just let go like all the other girls in his past. There had always been girls Aleister flirted with, toyed with, and broke apart into tiny little pieces for other people to pick up. He had always gotten a kick out of figuring people out and then completely demolishing them from the core. It helped a lot of he started with flirting and gained their trust. He was just too smart to be humane.
His dark eyes shut and he rolled over on his side. He found himself imagining walking over to the hotel room, knocking on the door and kicking everyone out, except Lilly. He imagined teasing her in every way, torturing her emotionally and then finally ravishing her. His eyes popped open and he slyly checked himself, he knew he hadn't felt anything change but sometimes his mind went further than planned and he forgets what happens down in his pants. Luckily, there was no evidence of what ever went on in his thoughts. He grinned and rolled over to the other side.
"Can you tell me, honestly, why that poor girl was bound and tied? I'd like to know." Skull was lucky that Aleister wasn't giving him a full nelson and shoving his head in the toilet. But Ally tried to keep his face as calm and reasonable as possible. If Skull was going to admit anything, Ally was sure he wouldn't admit if he knew he was going to get the s**t kicked out of him. (Which he probably was, anyway.)
❝The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.If I don't let myself be happy now -- then when?❞
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 10:20 am
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{Your lips are nettles
Your tongue is wine
Your laughter's liquid
But your body's pine,
You love all sailors
But hate the beach.
You say "Come touch me"
But you're always out of reach,
In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour}
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 Skull had purposefully avoided answering the question earlier, and he planned on keeping it a secret til the grave. Unless Lilith spilled the beans, Skull was quite happy to have the cr*p kicked out of him if it meant keeping his past in the dark. If his friends found out what he did, there would be hell to pay. As he sat on the bed flipping through pay-per-view movies he kept his eyes glued on the television in the effort that if he didn't answer his friend's question, that Aleister would get discouraged and quit asking. It never worked before, but it didn't stop the man from trying.
"I think enough time has passed," Ally held out his arms. "If you're not going to, and I know you won't, I'm heading over soon to apologize." He reached his arms behind his head to rest.
Aleister, as the unofficial leader of the band, had had to cover for his @** before, and usually Skull let the man take care of things. This time was different, and Skull only turned his head from the television enough to hatefully glare at him. The comment Lilith had shot at him earlier had punched a whole through his man-card, not that he didn't deserve it in the least.
Perhaps knowing that skull wouldn't answer him, Skull was not surprised to hear Aleister finally spit out another question. The man was poking around places Skull had kept locked up for eons, and Skull was not happy about being asked such questions in the least. Turning the television off, Skull turned towards his friend and glared; angry at the sheer idea of Aleister being anywhere near the bakkyard whor3s.
" Why do you want to know so bad? You want Lilith's neden?", Skull was p*ssed off even more at the contemplation of what could possibly happen if his completly accusational comment had blindly hit something deep on the mark. Not even suspecting it in the past, not thinking of it now, Skull only added his next statement because of his own faults, and he narrowed his eyes accordingly. More yelling at himself than his friend; although the accusatory glance seemed to suggest otherwise.
" You-just-STAY-the-F*** AWAY from her. She doesn't deserve your cr*p! If I find out you shagged and ditched her like everyone else; You'll sh*t nails out your @**hole; Capiche?" And turning his head towards the black television screen, Skull flipped the on button with the remote and watched whatever commercial which happened to flash on. Expecting Aleister to sock him in the face, or some bad consequence from his accusation, Skull tightened his mouth and stomach, and kept his attention fixed on Ally out of the corner of his eye. Ready to tighten his hands into fists if he needed to. Like hell was he answering his bloody question.
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{I turn the lights out
I clean the sheets
You change the station
Turn up the heat,
And now you`re setting
Upon your chair
You`ve got me tangled up,
Inside your beautiful black hair.
In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour.}
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Vanilla Nerd Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 11:15 am
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Aleister bolted into a seated position as Skull went on and on about how he should stay away from Lillith. He rolled his eyes and scowled. There was no way Skull knew about anything that went on in Ally's brain. He had to think quick. Then, his lips curled into a smile and he scooted to the edge of the bed. His arm draped over his friend's shoulder and leaned his head against his. "Someone's acting a bit protective over someone he supposedly has no care for." He let out a chuckle and lifted his head up. "If you really don't want to answer me, that's fine, but I can tell you're hiding something." Ally pulled himself away from Skull and stood. His feet were planted to the ground and his hands were placed behind his head. "You're shutting out, keeping quiet, and suddenly bursting into anger about the idea of me touching that little blondie." He laughed, little did Skull know what happened in the closet at the bar. But he pushed that memory away and stayed focused on the present moment.
There he was, Aleister poking and prodding for as long as he could. He wanted Skull to spill the beans, spill everything, but Ally knew it wouldn't happen. He knew he was getting to the guy, though. He was at least annoying him. Quickly, Aleister spun around and walked towards the door, making a big movement of moving towards the front door. But as soon as he touched the door knob he dashed into the bathroom. He didn't bother to close the door. As stood there over the toilet, he called out to the other: "So whenever you're ready, dude, just let me know."
❝The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.If I don't let myself be happy now -- then when?❞
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 11:35 am
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{Your lips are nettles
Your tongue is wine
Your laughter's liquid
But your body's pine,
You love all sailors
But hate the beach.
You say "Come touch me"
But you're always out of reach,
In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour}
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Skull merely glanced inbetween flipping through channels. He knew Aleister could see through him, not knowing that basic information was prove he had no brain at all; but, Skull knew that so far Aleister could never predict exactly what happened between him and Lilith. He may guess they slept together, but he wouldn't be able to predict what he did other than leave. Indeed he had done something worse than simply ditch Lilith, and Skull would take that secret to the grave. Even if he showed up to the afterlife in pieces.
Ignoring the man as much as possible, Skull didn't even respond verbally until he mentioned: "So whenever you're ready, dude, just let me know." Which was a subliminal attack on his man-card, at least to Skull's mind it was. It wasn't that he wasn't ready, but some cr*p was better left unsaid. Forced to reply now, and seeing as Aleister's currant location was the perfect place for him to express himself in this manner, Skull turned his eyes towards the window.
" Piss off." If the man was going to go over there and apologize like a brown-noser; Aleister could go to hell for all Skull cared at this particular moment.
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{I turn the lights out
I clean the sheets
You change the station
Turn up the heat,
And now you`re setting
Upon your chair
You`ve got me tangled up,
Inside your beautiful black hair.
In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour.}
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Vanilla Nerd Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 12:01 pm
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"Piss off." Aleister felt the phrase as if a bullet hit him in the back. He rolled his eyes, zipped up, and washed his hands. In the darkest way he could, he replied, "Have it your way." Aleister grabbed his key and fled the room, slamming the door behind him. He wanted to make a big impression, it probably only came off as being a d**k. He stormed down the hallway, looking for the hotel room he believed to be of the Whor3s'. He felt himself grow more frustrated with every step he took. He felt unaccomplished with Skull, like he missed something or some opportunity to say something better.
He looked at all the numbers, trying to remember which one he saw Lillith or any other members of the band come out of. He let out a groan as he racked his brain for any memory. 'It was sixty-something... it was an even number, I know that much.. sixty-two?' Without hesitation he knocked on 62's door but an old lady answered in her towel. She grinned her gums at him and Ally felt perturbed. "Sorry ma'am, wrong room." He felt if he didn't leap away sooner she would snatch him up and cook him for dinner.
Aleister found room 64 and with hesitation and a shaky fist he pounded on the door. He hoped to God that it was the right room. If not, he was going to punch someone in the face, probably Skull's. He leaned his arm against the wall and hung his head as he collected himself. He had to look approachable, if he wanted this apology to work. He had to cover their asses, make sure there wouldn't be any paybacks.
❝The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.If I don't let myself be happy now -- then when?❞
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 12:45 pm
 {Ruby.Roxx.Rabenstein}◘ A well-written song is like a night in the sack: It builds up to a climax and leaves you feeling good.◘ XXXXXX↘↘
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXBut how can I if I don't have you?
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Roxx sat in the bakkyard whor3's hotel room in much the same condition that Skull found himself in now. P*ssed off and moody. An hour before, Roxx could safely say she had been depressed, but now those sentiments had taken a nasty turn. A long time ago, back when their band had had their own cute little keyboardist, Roxx and her had sort-of had a thing. Although she left a long time ago to pursue another band, which had broken Roxx's heart, they still remained some-what friends. Exchanging a message or two on her msn account every so often. Roxx had decided to be bold the previous night, and e-mailed Belinda the question which had been on her heart since belinda left. Did that night mean anything to you?
After agonizing all night over the foolishness of asking such a question, Roxx answered her e-mail an hour ago to discover not only an unfavorable answer, but found herself added to Belinda's blocked list. A simple 'no' would have sufficed, and Roxx felt that she had been treated with the most acute cruelty. In no way had Roxx deserved that, and now she couldn't even send Belinda a 'rant' message to tell her how she felt about it. Even if it was only online, being dissed was never a pleasant experience.
Writing down a possible lyric, Roxx was just in the process of sharpening her broken pencil for the umpteenth time when there was a knock on the door. Sighing in distaste, but pleased with a distraction, Roxx approached the door and opened it. Only glaring because she was unable to contain her inner pain at the present moment. She would have glared at Marina, had it been her knocking at the door. Marina was her best friend, besides [insert guitarist's name]. Surprised, Roxx's face cooled down considerably and she tried to be polite. Too tired to express any of the hate for the Screamers that she had the previous evening.
" Er. High. Are you looking for somebody? I think you found the wrong hotel room." Roxx narrowed her eyes only slightly in irritation as she waited for an answer. Behind her, Lilith sat on their balcony listening to her ipod nano; studying the potential thunderstorm of black clouds drifting towards them on the horizon.
{I'll do whatever I have to do, to have just one more hour with you...} {♠♠C::
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 4:14 pm
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Aleister quickly adjusted himself when the door opened. The red head was rather cute, but the way she looked at him gave him a feeling she had no interest in him. He quirked up an eyebrow at he response at him being at the door. Before she could slam the door in his face, if she was going to, he placed his hand on the door. "I'm here to make a formal apology," He tried to look behind the red head to catch a glimpse of Lillith. "Today didn't go as smoothly as we all planned." He tried to step forward, he didn't want to barge in, but at the same time he just wanted to get the bullshit over with. He pushed the door open slightly a bit more, trying not to impose with his persistence.
"Lillith?" He called into the room, completely uninterested in the red head in front of him, regardless of how cute she was. He felt his stomach wrench, he hadn't felt so nervous to talk to a girl since he was thirteen and just realized he could have boners for girls.
❝The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.If I don't let myself be happy now -- then when?❞
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 5:05 pm
{Ruby.Roxx.Rabenstein}◘ A well-written song is like a night in the sack: It builds up to a climax and leaves you feeling good.◘ ⁂⁂⁂Everyone wants me to write something better...⁂⁂⁂ XXXXXX↘↘
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXBut how can I if I don't have you?
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Roxx tried to maintain her composure, but the second Ally's hand pushed on the door Roxx gave in to her earlier melancholy. As the depression darkened her face, Roxx noticed that the man had his eyes focused somewhere behind her; perhaps snooping the room? Turning her head to where Lilith was outside listening to music, Roxx frowned and breathed a mournful sigh. Why is it only strait people have callers? I'm the one least likely to be forgotten in the band, and no one ever visits me.
Rolling her eyes at this turn of events, Roxx backed away and opened the door to allow the 'gentleman' inside their shared hotel room. She shook her head abruptly, assuming that the apology was meant only towards Lilith, as Roxx had been too depressed to go to practice today.
" Why don't you come in sir. ", Speaking almost sarcastically, as she was not in the mood for jokes, Roxx closed the door behind him and motioned her hand towards a red sitting chair that was part of the desk found in every hotel room in the building. Walking towards Lilith, Roxx softly tapped the glass to gain her attention before saying calmly:
" Lilith, you have a visitor." Indifferent to the fact, Roxx knew better than to leave any man from the enemy band alone with her quiet bassist; but, given that they might want some privacy, Roxx waltzed into the bathroom and locked the door. Starting the water in a very luxurious bathtub, Roxx used the time it took to fill the tub with her ear to the door. Listening intently so as to leap from the room at a moment's notice.
{I'll do whatever I have to do, to have just one more hour with you...} {♠♠C::
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 5:07 pm
♆♆♆♆♆♆☽~Lilith Love Henderson~☾♆♆♆♆♆♆
{I'll seek you out, Flay you alive
One more word and you won't survive
And I'm not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour}
{I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain.}
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Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace}
{I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain}
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 5:28 pm
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Aleister's eyes widened when he got a glance at Lillith's full appearance. He hadn't noticed how beautiful she really was, he was blinded by his intents. He watched her and noticed all the subtle differences in her demeanor. She was just as, if not more, nervous as he was. He shoved is hands in his pockets. Ally could feel a bit of a change in his loins, but he made sure there was no real noticeable change. He sighed inwardly and made his way to sit at the desk.
He turned the chair around to face her. He leaned forward on his knees and rubbed his palms together. He looked up through his long hair and parted his lips to speak, but nothing had come out. Quickly he licked his lips, possibly as slow as he could. At the same time of wanting to apologize, he wanted to mess with her as well. While he was nervous, he wasn't a different person.
Ally parted his lips again, finally able to speak. He was distracted by the way she was crossing her arms. It accented her breasts in the most perfect way. He shook the thought from his mind. "About earlier today, I want to make sure all is alright, between all of us." Of course, the rival that they were playing against each other was still there, but he was referring to the way everyone felt about each other personally. He hoped Skull hadn't done anything too horrible to the poor girl. "I want to make a formal apology, I'd like to..." He got caught on his words for a second, for the first time he was short on words. "I'd like to make it up to you, I'm sure Skull would never apologize himself, so I'm taking the rap for him."
There was a pause, he wasn't sure what else to say. He reached forward to gently touch her knee, reassuring her he wasn't going to pull anything. For once, he wanted to be sincere. He didn't play around about something serious as getting kidnapped, raped, bound, tied, or anything of the like. He had no idea what went on, and he just wanted to make everything alright, especially for the band. He didn't want to get disqualified because the girl called the cops and got Skull arrested.
❝The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.If I don't let myself be happy now -- then when?❞
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 6:06 pm
♆♆♆♆♆♆☽~Lilith Love Henderson~☾♆♆♆♆♆♆
{I'll seek you out, Flay you alive
One more word and you won't survive
And I'm not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour}
{I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain.}
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"About earlier today, I want to make sure all is alright, between all of us."......."I want to make a formal apology, I'd like to..." He got caught on his words for a second, for the first time he was short on words. "I'd like to make it up to you, I'm sure Skull would never apologize himself, so I'm taking the rap for him."
Lilith had to laugh at that, Skull had apologized, and it seemed that she now knew the reason why it was so difficult for him to spit out. ' How would Aleister make it up to me?' Caught by the question, Lilith tore her eyes away from his gaze and let her arms drift by her sides. If the man didn't notice the evidence of cold he was missing a body part. But, alas, Lilith knew that she could not take advantage of Aleister. It wouldn't be any fun. And ignoring the sensual tingles produced by his fingers on her knee, Lilith brushed her palm against her thigh and lifted it upwards...to push his hand from her knee.
" You don't need to worry yourself about it, nothing happened in the auditorium except a misunderstanding. I wanted to hide from the janitor, and skull came up with locking me in the closet. To hide me from you. After what the janitor said, he thought you would get the wrong idea about him and me." Lilith drifted the final words off of her tongue, as if it was something she was avoiding speaking of. She wasn't sure how Aleister would take such news. Still brushing his hand from her knee, Lilith's fingers accidentally gripped his hand in an almost 'holding hands' fashion. widening her eyes, she quickly dropped the mans hand and scooted an inch or two backwards to create some distance. Hearing the water pounding into the tub, Lilith did not think Roxx could hear anything they were saying, but unlike a moment ago...She rather hoped for the privacy. Especially if he asked for particulars on the experience in the auditorium.
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Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace}
{I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain}
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 6:45 pm
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Aleister listened to her words, but the way she moved her body distracted him. He was a guy, a chick in a cute dress and tall boots sitting in a cold room was plenty to distract with. Their hands touched for a split second and he felt her retract. He pulled his arm back, knowing he made her uncomfortable. But now that he knew there was no need for an apology, he felt there was no need to be so apologetic. When she pushed back onto the bed, he couldn't help but notice the brief panty shot between her legs. He looked away quickly and tried to hide his smirk with his hand. There was a tension between them now, and it was nothing like what went on between Skull and Marina. Aleister would pounce her but he couldn't help but notice how awkward she seemed. Which seemed to attract him even more.
It hit him suddenly, a girl doesn't wear sexy boots for no reason. He thought about her actions, holding herself as if cold, goosebumps forming on her skin... Aleister knew what to do. He leaned forward again and stood. He felt too tall, so he bent down from the waist and took a step forward. He leaned closer into her face to whisper in her ear, "You know, I know a way to keep you warm." He placed his hands on the bed and proceeded to kiss the her neck and to her bare shoulder. As he pulled his face away he felt himself grin. He reached his right hand to grasp her chin. He lifted and pressed his lips gently against hers.
The kiss lasted for merely a second, but he pulled away just in time to look into her eyes. He didn't want to completely control her, he just wanted to tease her and see how far he could push the limit. He gently pushed a strand of hair behind her ear and smoothly grasped the back of her neck. It was meant to lead her, to lie her down as he leaned forward. But he wasn't sure how she would react, so he lingered. He waited, "You're freezing." He somewhat lied for her, although she was kind of cold to the touch, there was a hint of warmth that could only be the cause of nerves.
❝The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.If I don't let myself be happy now -- then when?❞
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 8:10 pm
♆♆♆♆♆♆☽~Lilith Love Henderson~☾♆♆♆♆♆♆
{I'll seek you out, Flay you alive
One more word and you won't survive
And I'm not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour}
{I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain.}
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Lilith had been nervous from the get go the second her eyes had caught him in their hotel room; but, that was because she wasn't sure why he was visiting. His generosity had caught her off guard; but in explaining that there was no need for apology, the prickle of sexual tension illuminated the atmosphere. Using her blush to her advantage, Lilith kept blushing like a virgin in the hopes of alluring her prey. ' How long are you going to sit there?' Lilith mused deviously, knowing full well that with her arms down at her sides; the apexes imprinting in her dress from her arrousal must clearly have been noticeable. Lilith began to count the seconds in her mind: ' One...Two...Three...'
Suddenly Aleister stood taut from the chair, and Lilith had to resist grinning maliciously at the devious plan she began to concoct inside her head. When he leaned in close to her ear, Lilith closed her eyes in enjoyment as his natural scent attacked her senses. Shivering all over her body, which did the exact opposite of helping to wilt the peaks under her blouse, her breath caught in her throat and she felt herself numb to everything except his voice tingling in her ear.
"You know, I know a way to keep you warm."
' Good Lord...This is going better than I could have planned.' Feeling the mattress move beneath her bottom as an indication of Aleister's hands pressing down on the bed, the waterworks rekindled faster than any physical awakening she had experienced in quite some time; causing shiver-like waves of enjoyment to blossom from the lower core of her being. Producing a vicious cycle which did not in any way reduce the effects of her natural plumbing.
Feeling his mouth teasingly caress the area of her neck underneath her jaw and kiss down to her shoulder; his breath warmed her earlobe with a misty qualitity reminding her of a warm fog or being trapped in a sauna. As that area, combined with the sensitive flesh of her neck, were usual areas genetically crafted to excite a human, lilith was caught by the suddeness of the touch against her body. Omiting a sound that was somewhere between a moan and a gasp; Lilith kept her eyes closed in knowing that if she were to see any expression of physical excitement on Aleister's face her schoolgirl blush would come back in full fury, and it would be even more obvious that she had been celibate for too long a time.
By the time Aleister's mouth caressed themselves one final time on her shoulder, Lilith's breath was hurried and raspy. The adrenaline rush inspired by his touch was unbearable to control without tightening her thighs together uncomfortably to purposefully distract herself from the tingles screaming out from betwixt them. Not caring how clamping her thighs together and nearly shuffling them might have looked, Lilith merely hoped that her natural scent (which bore an extremely strong resemblance to cinnamon in taste and smell) would not permeate the air.
At feeling his hand cup beneath her chin, Lilith remembered only then how rough the palms of his hands were. Perhaps they were slightly calloused from all those years of playing the keyboard (or more likely) it was her own extremely sensitive skin playing tricks on her, but whatever the reason; his rough hands awoke her back into reality, and she looked up into Aleister's eyes with all the fire and intensity as she had in the elevator. Feeling the heat of his breath on her mouth for only a mere moment, Lilith was not in the least surprised when his mouth found her own and pressed down upon them. However, Lilith was once more emotionally concealed beneath her devious mask, and was therefore able to attempt the impossible. Before the man could move away, Lilith tried to suck on his lower lip between her own in the -seemingly- pathetic effort of trying to keep his mouth from moving. Thus resulting in a smack-like sound as the quick little kiss ended, Lilith's swollen lips shined in the light from the fluid left upon. The heat in her eyes did not leave; but nor did she use it to her advantage, Lilith waited with the same hopeful earnestness she had expressed in the closet all those months ago.
If not for the plan in her mind holding her steadfast to her goal, Lilith would have faltered like melting butter when Aleister's hand brushed across her cheek in it's journey to move a stray hand behind her ear. The affection that action usually signified caught Lilith off guard, and for a moment fear began to pulse within her heart. ' He doesn't really care for me does he?' That would ruin everything. As his hand cupped the nape of her neck, Lilith began to breathe very slowly, gasping almost, as she continued to ponder the question to herself. When Aleister did not force her to lay down as she thought he would; her shell piped up once more and the return of her mask forced her to regain her security. ' That rascal; he's teasing me.' Biting her lip in a failure to hide her grin, Lilith took a deep gasping breath to prepare herself for what lay ahead.
" You're freezing." Aleister's words rang in her ear, and in seeing the man delay even longer, Lilith was reassured even more that he was only teasing. Trying to weasel her out. And Oh would she weasel back. Laying down on the bed, Lilith tilted her spine in the same erotic posture she had teased Ally with in the elevator. Speaking in an almost husky tone from genuine desire, her gasping for air preventing her from any regular tones of voice, Lilith folded her arms around his waist before doing something quite surprizing. Lifting her thighs and parting them at the same time, She clamped Aleister's hips between them like a clamp and rubbed the inner thigh of her right leg against the side of his hip. Nearly folding that one leg around his waist.
"Its very cold...", and she curved her spine in such a way as to rub her front against his chest, absentmindedly tilting into the same position she had practiced doing while she was tied up earlier in the storage unit. Leaning in to his mouth, Lilith pressed her mouth to his own and sucked on his lower lip. Finishing the carnal moment by softly biting his lip before breathing against his mouth and opening her begging eyes to pierce his soul. Her desire so intence. Not moving her body from his alluring posture, Lilith breathed her gasping breaths for half a moment before softly, delicately, and sensually muttering:
" Later..." Sitting up as if she wasn't as hungry as she looked, Lilith grinned micheviously at her own clever trap and started to scoot her body backwards so as to get off of the bed. Half expecting Aleister to be so enraged with lust to come after her and wordlessly demand that she give in to him, Lilith hesitated only the slightest bit as she moved away from him.
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Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace}
{I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain}
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 8:47 pm
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He wanted her badly, it was burning within and he couldn't contain it any longer. He stared deeply into her eyes as they took a pause. The sexual tension in the air could be cut with a knife. Ally wanted nothing but to be between her legs. The thoughts that ran through his head were the worst most dirty things he wanted to do to her. Then the thoughts that ran through his mind were of what this girl, Lillith, meant to him. Was she just another sha-bang and drop? Or was she something more, something he could get more out of. He didn't know, all he knew was that his libido was yearning.
"It's very cold." She moved her body in a way that Aleister couldn't deny. She lead him on top of her, hands hands were pressing deep into the bed as their lips smacked together. He could feel himself get more excited, he was sure his pants had gotten much tighter than before. With her legs around his hips he couldn't help but move closer to her. She had a distinct smell as he was so close to her, it reminded him of the closet. He grinned and tried to make it all last as long as possible. The way Lillith contorted her body to reach up to him made him push down on her. He knew he wanted her, and he was going to get her. 'Screw what Skull said, this girl wants it... and I want it. Skull doesn't have to know.' He was sure Skull didn't know about Ally and Lilly's first time together, so the second time wasn't going to change much. He pulled back into the moment, wanting more from her for every second their kiss lasted. His hair was in his face, he could see it against her neck. That little detail made it more real for him. But she pulled away, teasing him. He wasn't going to hide the obvious tightness in his pants, she knew what she was doing and he wanted her to know exactly what was happening.
"Later." She whispered and he watched her scoot away. Aleister wasn't letting her go that easily. He grabbed her by the wrist and forcefully pulled her back to him. He spun her around and held her back to his chest as his hands slid down to her thighs. His lips kissed down her neck as his fingers gripped her inner thighs. There was a warmth he could feel, something that gave him a huge hint that she wanted him as much as he wanted her. Aleister spun her around and held her down onto the bed as his waist collided with hers. He knew she could feel the hard rock that begged to be unlocked from its chamber. (And he longed to see her chamber of secrets.) His right arm wrapped around her waist as his other held him up. He shoved his lips onto her mouth and feverishly and passionately kissed her. He didn't care that her roommate was in the bathroom. She could walk in at any moment, and he honestly didn't give two shits. He was horny, and he had to have it.
But suddenly it hit him, if he were to take it out and shove it in, did he have the right accoutrements to protect against anything unwanted? He decided not to really question it, he figured the girl would pipe up if it really bothered her. Aleister's pants were very tight, he had to at least unbutton something. He couldn't bare it. Quickly unwrapping his arm from her waist he reached down to undo his button, already feeling some relief to the pressure. He didn't want to unzip, if she didn't want to actually do anything he didn't want to scare her. (Which meant if she ended up saying no, he'd walk to his room with a very, very large bulge in his pants and do some business in the shower.) He pulled away from the kiss briefly to open his dark eyes and whisper, "Like I said earlier today, you're smart... be careful what you wish for."
❝The mindless comfort grows when I'm alone with my 'great' plans.If I don't let myself be happy now -- then when?❞
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Posted: Wed Dec 01, 2010 10:29 pm
♆♆♆♆♆♆☽~Lilith Love Henderson~☾♆♆♆♆♆♆
{I'll seek you out, Flay you alive
One more word and you won't survive
And I'm not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour}
{I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain.}
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With fire in her eyes; Aleister having awoken a beast. Oh god, he knows i'm ready enough Hiding the fact that her physical desire left her no strength to fight back under the guise that she allowed him to fling her back on the bed, Lilith didn't even think twice as her legs re-folded around Aleister's hips and gripped him like a clamp once more. Not prepared to experience the pressure of his rock so roughly pushing betwixt her legs, Lilith let out a loud 'mMm'-like sensual cry and tried to ignore the fact that her black undergarments were completely soaked. In the area which mattered at least. Gripping her thighs as tightly as she could to try and push his body away from hers, Lilith choked on her own saliva in mid-cry of another bone-rattling sensual noise. Unable to muster the strength in her thighs to be able put even an inch of distance between their...areas, Lilith's eyes watered to the point where tears would be inevitable if the man didn't stop grinding against her. Far from her...emotional outbursts being rooted in pain, the fact of the matter was that Aleister's rough area was rubbing too hard (and repeatedly) against her human rubix cube and the sensations forcing her to dampen herself were so unbearable that she couldn't contain her sounds. Regardless of how silent as the grave she was in everyday life, all that was thrown out the window when she was in this predicament.
Lilith was in the midst of a sensual cry when Aleister shoved his tongue into her mouth. Kissing the man just as feverishly, all her reserves gone now that she was ignoring the voice screaming at her within her head, Lilith caressed her tongue against his own. In-between those ravenous caresses, Lilith used the small gasps she used to gather air to nibble at his lip or suck on his mouth; having learned much on how he liked to kiss from their prior experience. Until this moment she had completely forgotten how to kiss since their time in the closet, but like riding a bike; it proved that it was only knowledge buried in her subconscious, and not forgotten completely. The passionate intanglement of their lips being enough to stiffle her noises but not stop them, Lilith tried to think of a way not to embarass herself further by her loud tendencies and broke from the kiss to try and move her body out from underneath him so that he couldn't keep grinding there. Her attempts were futile, and Lilith parted their mouths to kiss her lips up to his earlobe and nibble on the soft skin of it. " Please...please mount me." She whispered under her breath.
Feeling Aleister moving half-out of her arms, Lilith raised a quizzical brow in wonderment before catching the location of where his hands were headed. Swallowing the slight bout of anxiety which followed seeing Aleister unhatch his pant's button, Lilith was newly introduced to the cold his body had warded away and with it came her sense of reasoning. You don't have a condom, remember what happened last time? Do you want that to happen again? ' N...no..' and in remembrance of her painful past, she finally began to listen to the voice of her heart which had been screaming to no avail through-out their entire collision.
Lilith! Please don't do this! Please don't do this... What did I ever do to you? I'm still alive! I'm still kicking! Please don't kill me. Please don't kill me. Don't go through with this! Don't kill me!
Lilith cringed as water welled up in her eyes from an entirely different reason besides pleasure as she gave heed to the voice screaming in her chest. The next words stabbed her like a sword, and Lilith had to bite down hard on her lip to keep from having a sob well up in her throat. The voice, knowing if it didn't keep screaming her to stop, would surely die it shouted because it's life depended upon it.
Lilith DON'T F***K HIM! PLEASE DON'T F***K HIM! PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I'm ALIVE, you feel me. YOU CAN'T DO THIS! PLEASE DON'T KILL ME!
And after a secondary pause to clamp her teeth down on her mouth once more, the sword struck her strait in the chest and Lilith tore her eyes away from Aleister as the words struck her to her core. Her heart knew Lilith was incapable of meaningless sex, emotionally incapable of it because of the mushy core still being in exsistance. Which had, a moment ago, been screaming for it's life. Speaking much calmer now, Her heart begged one final time, pleaded the only ammunition it had left, and prayed that lilith be merciful.
You love him Lilith.
Don't do this to me. Once you have sex its over, you'll never see him again, and he'll be gone just like Harold. Gone from your life like your absent brother who never even considers you in christmas cards. Gone, because his needs were met. I'm dying either way Lilith...But you wont forgive yourself if you just have sex in the moment. Please wait...let me live a little longer...before you kill me.
"Like I said earlier today, you're smart... be careful what you wish for."
Aleister's lust-thickened voice snapped Lilith back to the moment and she quickly averted her gaze to hide the reddish wetness of unshed tears glistening in her eyes. As if the strength from her legs had been transferred to her chest; the clamp on her heart was strong enough to bestow her with the willpower to conquer her own physical urges and pull her body away from Aleister. The attachment of both her heart and, nearly, her body made leaving the bed extremely painful, and as she fled two drops of acid to build up in the center of her bottom eyelids.
" I'm sorry; but, I can't do this with you!"
Only looking up to speak; as she felt he deserved that much fore-warning before stopping their session cold turkey, Lilith pierced her pain-soaked eyes upon his own and swallowed a deep sob which had managed to sneak out of her mouth amidst her attempts at keeping any tears from falling. Crying was (to her) a weakness, and Lilith wanted to show no weakness before Aleister. The fact that she still had a mushy core was her greatest weakness that she had, and Lilith could no longer publically deny that she had one if she started weeping in front of him. Gasping a 'shivering' breath, Lilith stood up from the bed and moved faster than she had ever run in her life.
Opening the bathroom door to discover her friend Roxx not in the filling bathtub, Lilith was so close to tears that in her panic to keep from showing her dismay to anyone, Lilith booted her butt out of the bathroom and locked the door. Roxx had been in the process of changing for her bath, so seeing her bare legs and knowing where his mind would go at the sight of her; Lilith venomously and mentally spat:
' He can f***k her for all I care!' Lying even to herself, Lilith approached the -still filling- tub and sat beside it so hurriedly that she accidentally banged her knee against the porcelain. The shooting pain shot her over the brink. In combining with the throbbing stab wound bleeding in her heart at having learnt the knowledge of her blossomed feelings for Aleister; Lilith leaned her face against the side of the jacuzzi and wept. The sound of the water flushing into the miniature pool was enough to cover her sounds; but the weeping she couldn't stop. Nor the saliva building up in her mouth and the drilling 'DIIIIINNG' noise buzzing within her ears. The only thing hurting worse than her knee was her eyes. Lilith had stopped crying so many years before that crying again for the first time was so excuciating on her tear ducts to weep from pain, that they were screaming in agony.
Wanting the comfort of the shower curtain to hide her shame from the air in the room, Lilith quickly stripped and stepped into the jacuzzi tub, slamming the red velvet curtain closed after turning off the bathroom light. A little nightlight alluminated the bathtub; no doubt added for romantic reasons, and the dim light rekindled a small sense of comfort...not enough to keep her from sobbing, but enough to reassure her that she was the only one able to get into the locked bathroom door, and for as long as she wanted she could be alone. Alone...to carry the burdon of her shame as she had always done. Ashamed at knowing how brittle her heart was underneath her shell, how foolish she had been in believing she possessed the willpower to crush it.
Splashing a small bit of water on her face, panic gripped her dying heart at the thought of Aleister pounding on the door or demanding an explaination. ' How can I tell him? He'd laugh at me, lose interest in me because I'm just as frail as any other woman he's probably slept with. He can't know.' As much as she dreaded it, Lilith hoped for nothing else. Knocking on the door and asking what was wrong would prove that he cared; and her heart foolishly desired it and dreaded it at the same time. ' He could never mean it if he said it. He would only be asking to be polite. G*d I was so stupid! I was half in love with him already...and I didn't even realize it....' Splashing the water again on her face, Lilith only did so to hide her tears. Hearing his voice would be ecstacy, making love to him right now would fulfill her wildest dreams; but (as her heart reminded her) It wouldn't be making love to him. It would be a fling, and the knowledge that her heart would soon be obliviated by yet another man she loved both shattered and rebirthed her shell. A phoenix, Lilith now knew, she didn't have the strength to break...
It needed to be broken from a worse pain than this, and Lilith knew that she could not give up and stop seeing Aleister....He was both her destruction and her salvation. But she was falling deeper and deeper into the pit...and there would be no one to catch her.
' Heart...I know your beating...Because it hurts so much... But I'm so happy it hurts...So happy to know I can still break...I'm sorry for what I must do...I must sleep with Aleister...so he can kill me....So I can start anew...At least now, I know I love him.I will make love to him; So it wont be meaningless to me......and I can live with that.'
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Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace}
{I won't soothe your pain
I won't ease your strain
You'll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain} {Edited the last bit, added a few things here and there, and fixed some typos. Give it a look see, I feel its improoved.}
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