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 Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:05 pm
-xXGodslayer_RaiXx- I know how you feel Volly. I'm the same way. Any time I'm depressed or pissed off for that matter (I'm still trying to figure out why) I end up crying my eyes out because I'm thinking way too much on the subject which sometimes freaks my friends out because I'm usually a cheerful person. In the 9th grade I was a wreck and I seriously wanted to die. (There are times now when I've thought about suicide). Those were bad memories and I was messed in the head. A couple months later and a relationship that turned to s**t (It lasted like 7 months though) I realized that I could be happy and life didn't suck as much since I kept making friends. That and I have a feeling that all if not most of my friends are superficial. I feel that they have alternative motives behind being my friends. Of course I live in a very superficial place. (The people in Plano especially on the west side think they're the best of the best. The people in West Plano all think that they live in Beverly Hills and that the Shops at Willowbend is Rodeo Drive... stare ).
You might cry when you are angry because you are frustrated because even though you feel like you want to smash things and shout your head off, you can't.. Like you can't let it out.
At least, that is what happens to me.
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:20 pm
Oh Volly.
That's the only thing I can really say, I think, because it's just hard to do anything for anybody, especially over the Internet.
I could tell you I know how you feel, which wouldn't completely be a lie, because of course I've had suicidal thoughts (hasn't everyone, or is it just me who thinks everyone seems depressed these days?), but to tell you that would be extremely cliché and what not, so I'll just say: DO NOT KILL YOURSELF, VOLLY.
Really (even if that was another very cliché thing to say). If you think it's a way out, it's not. I mean, I don't have any proof to back that up but... just take my word for it or something. o_O
You know, I feel bad because everyone seems to have such horrible lives, and all these problems and everything and I feel like I'm the only happy person anymore... That's probably because I have the most perfect life, and I don't believe in letting people in (which isn't a good thing, but the way I am it keeps me happy). emo
(I ended up saying a lot more than those first two words, didn't I?
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:29 pm
Spindra Oh Volly.
That's the only thing I can really say, I think, because it's just hard to do anything for anybody, especially over the Internet.
I could tell you I know how you feel, which wouldn't completely be a lie, because of course I've had suicidal thoughts (hasn't everyone, or is it just me who thinks everyone seems depressed these days?), but to tell you that would be extremely cliché and what not, so I'll just say: DO NOT KILL YOURSELF, VOLLY.
Really (even if that was another very cliché thing to say). If you think it's a way out, it's not. I mean, I don't have any proof to back that up but... just take my word for it or something. o_O
You know, I feel bad because everyone seems to have such horrible lives, and all these problems and everything and I feel like I'm the only happy person anymore... That's probably because I have the most perfect life, and I don't believe in letting people in (which isn't a good thing, but the way I am it keeps me happy). emo
(I ended up saying a lot more than those first two words, didn't I?
Thank you for adding me to your friends list. smile
You are right though, alot of people get depressed these days, due to social, economical and governmental reasons and quite often, due to family too. And almost everyone that gets depressed has suicidal thoughts.
Not everyone goes through with it though.
There are different reaadons why people don't go through with it.
My reaason is that I have too much pride.
I have always been a "strong" person, and killing myself would not have been the "strong" persons thing to do.
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:32 pm
 Volly, I'm glad you got your hat!
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:34 pm
Captain Katinator Volly, I'm glad you got your hat!
Thank you for adding me Cap'n.
*Sallutes*
>_<
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:35 pm
Pure Vampyre And almost everyone that gets depressed has suicidal thoughts.
Not everyone goes through with it though.
Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the hole truth can we disclose
The soul of this sick bulwark forever and ever
Forever and ever
Ok, I did have suicidal thoughts at one point in my life...but my reason I didn't even think about going through with it was quite pathetic. I'd get to the edge of that cliff, look down, and say, "What the hell, this is gonna freaking hurt like hell!" Then walk away, or wind up tripping and falling anyways.
See, I don't know. I haven't told anyone else this, but this happened like two years ago, when I was having trouble freshmen year. I always wondered why people cut themselves, so I got my shaving razor, and actually just cut my knuckles. OMG! It hurt like hell! After that, I realized I'd never be a cutter because I hate pain too much.
So yesh....I'm pretty pathetic, but it helps me survive without damaging myself, right?! ^_^;
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:36 pm
Pure Vampyre Captain Katinator Volly, I'm glad you got your hat!
Thank you for adding me Cap'n.
*Sallutes*
>_<
Now I will destroy him. *salutes back*
I dunno, I just read that one post, and started adding people. [/random]
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:39 pm
Captain Katinator Pure Vampyre Captain Katinator Volly, I'm glad you got your hat!
Thank you for adding me Cap'n.
*Sallutes*
>_<
Now I will destroy him. *salutes back*
I dunno, I just read that one post, and started adding people. [/random]
That's kewl.
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:40 pm
Pure Vampyre Spindra Oh Volly.
That's the only thing I can really say, I think, because it's just hard to do anything for anybody, especially over the Internet.
I could tell you I know how you feel, which wouldn't completely be a lie, because of course I've had suicidal thoughts (hasn't everyone, or is it just me who thinks everyone seems depressed these days?), but to tell you that would be extremely cliché and what not, so I'll just say: DO NOT KILL YOURSELF, VOLLY.
Really (even if that was another very cliché thing to say). If you think it's a way out, it's not. I mean, I don't have any proof to back that up but... just take my word for it or something. o_O
You know, I feel bad because everyone seems to have such horrible lives, and all these problems and everything and I feel like I'm the only happy person anymore... That's probably because I have the most perfect life, and I don't believe in letting people in (which isn't a good thing, but the way I am it keeps me happy). emo
(I ended up saying a lot more than those first two words, didn't I?
Thank you for adding me to your friends list. smile
You are right though, alot of people get depressed these days, due to social, economical and governmental reasons and quite often, due to family too. And almost everyone that gets depressed has suicidal thoughts.
Not everyone goes through with it though.
There are different reaadons why people don't go through with it.
My reaason is that I have too much pride.
I have always been a "strong" person, and killing myself would not have been the "strong" persons thing to do.
Now I will destroy him.
Yeah, totally, I think most people don't go through with their suicidal thinkings. I mean, I think about suicide sometimes but I wouldn't go through with it because it would seem so selfish, because out of most people I know I have the best life ever. And I don't like pain. stressed
A few people might maybe miss me, too.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:41 pm
Syrinx330 Pure Vampyre And almost everyone that gets depressed has suicidal thoughts.
Not everyone goes through with it though.
Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the hole truth can we disclose
The soul of this sick bulwark forever and ever
Forever and ever
Ok, I did have suicidal thoughts at one point in my life...but my reason I didn't even think about going through with it was quite pathetic. I'd get to the edge of that cliff, look down, and say, "What the hell, this is gonna freaking hurt like hell!" Then walk away, or wind up tripping and falling anyways.
See, I don't know. I haven't told anyone else this, but this happened like two years ago, when I was having trouble freshmen year. I always wondered why people cut themselves, so I got my shaving razor, and actually just cut my knuckles. OMG! It hurt like hell! After that, I realized I'd never be a cutter because I hate pain too much.
So yesh....I'm pretty pathetic, but it helps me survive without damaging myself, right?! ^_^;
You're not the only one who hates pain. That's what usually stops me from cutting myself or succecceding in killing myself...that and if I were ever to hurt myself on puprose cutting or otherwise my friends would kill me. Seriously. I would be dead where I stood... eek I love my friends dearly and I do the same for them if they ever maimed themselves.. sweatdrop And Vampyre you're probably right. I have issues with letting my emotions out. You can ask my boyfriend. I'm getting better and telling people how I feel and think..just wish some of my friends would do the same when they had issues instead of leaving me in the dark. stare
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:42 pm
Pure Vampyre Captain Katinator Volly, I'm glad you got your hat!
Thank you for adding me Cap'n.
*Sallutes*
>_<
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:43 pm
Syrinx330 Pure Vampyre And almost everyone that gets depressed has suicidal thoughts.
Not everyone goes through with it though.
Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the hole truth can we disclose
The soul of this sick bulwark forever and ever
Forever and ever
Ok, I did have suicidal thoughts at one point in my life...but my reason I didn't even think about going through with it was quite pathetic. I'd get to the edge of that cliff, look down, and say, "What the hell, this is gonna freaking hurt like hell!" Then walk away, or wind up tripping and falling anyways.
See, I don't know. I haven't told anyone else this, but this happened like two years ago, when I was having trouble freshmen year. I always wondered why people cut themselves, so I got my shaving razor, and actually just cut my knuckles. OMG! It hurt like hell! After that, I realized I'd never be a cutter because I hate pain too much.
So yesh....I'm pretty pathetic, but it helps me survive without damaging myself, right?! ^_^;
It's good that you won't harm yourself like that then.
I love your reaction "What the hell, this is gonna freaking hurt like hell!" That's great!
Because I have harmed myself so much, I actually like pain now.
One reaaason I keep my skin pale is so that my scars don't show up.
They are all over my arms and legs.
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:44 pm
Syrinx330 Pure Vampyre And almost everyone that gets depressed has suicidal thoughts.
Not everyone goes through with it though.
Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the hole truth can we disclose
The soul of this sick bulwark forever and ever
Forever and ever
Ok, I did have suicidal thoughts at one point in my life...but my reason I didn't even think about going through with it was quite pathetic. I'd get to the edge of that cliff, look down, and say, "What the hell, this is gonna freaking hurt like hell!" Then walk away, or wind up tripping and falling anyways.
See, I don't know. I haven't told anyone else this, but this happened like two years ago, when I was having trouble freshmen year. I always wondered why people cut themselves, so I got my shaving razor, and actually just cut my knuckles. OMG! It hurt like hell! After that, I realized I'd never be a cutter because I hate pain too much.
So yesh....I'm pretty pathetic, but it helps me survive without damaging myself, right?! ^_^;
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:47 pm
-xXGodslayer_RaiXx- Syrinx330 Pure Vampyre And almost everyone that gets depressed has suicidal thoughts.
Not everyone goes through with it though.
Follow your common sense
You cannot hide yourself behind a fairytale forever and ever
Only by revealing the hole truth can we disclose
The soul of this sick bulwark forever and ever
Forever and ever
Ok, I did have suicidal thoughts at one point in my life...but my reason I didn't even think about going through with it was quite pathetic. I'd get to the edge of that cliff, look down, and say, "What the hell, this is gonna freaking hurt like hell!" Then walk away, or wind up tripping and falling anyways.
See, I don't know. I haven't told anyone else this, but this happened like two years ago, when I was having trouble freshmen year. I always wondered why people cut themselves, so I got my shaving razor, and actually just cut my knuckles. OMG! It hurt like hell! After that, I realized I'd never be a cutter because I hate pain too much.
So yesh....I'm pretty pathetic, but it helps me survive without damaging myself, right?! ^_^;
You're not the only one who hates pain. That's what usually stops me from cutting myself or succecceding in killing myself...that and if I were ever to hurt myself on puprose cutting or otherwise my friends would kill me. Seriously. I would be dead where I stood... eek I love my friends dearly and I do the same for them if they ever maimed themselves.. sweatdrop And Vampyre you're probably right. I have issues with letting my emotions out. You can ask my boyfriend. I'm getting better and telling people how I feel and think..just wish some of my friends would do the same when they had issues instead of leaving me in the dark. stare
I try to talk to the girls on here about things.
It feels better talking about it here, because you are all like strangers, but not strangers.
There's like a comfortable anonamousy(sp?) about it but also not anonamouse(sp?)
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2008 6:54 pm
Spindra Pure Vampyre Captain Katinator Volly, I'm glad you got your hat!
Thank you for adding me Cap'n.
*Sallutes*
>_<
Now I will destroy him. Lol, we're all friends here. Why not show it by being on each other's friend's lists? xD
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