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i wish i could stop feeling like this.

That certainly was a refreshing change of pace.

One more class and I'm done. ... But then I have finals next week.

Now to start seriously thinking up ideas for a mini shop.

stupid stuffy nose gonk

Well that's all squared away.

people irl can be super mean to people they don't know, too D:
yesterday one of my boyfriend's exes and a girl who was obsessed with him and called herself his girlfriend but they were just friends and he's like "Yeesh, do you think I'd date her? I have better taste than that" met with me
they've been trying to for a while now
they're best buds and neighbours
and yeah the one who was actually his ex wants to get him back, and the other one wants to get back at him. i gather he told her to stop stalking him or something like that and she was like all BUTWHATWEHAD WAS SOSPECIAL crying

so anyways, these girls had me convinced that my boyfriend had cheated on me with both of them a few months ago, first one then the other.

but then the second i confronted my boyfriend with it i realized they had lied because not what he said, but how he said it. he's capable of lying, yes, he can't hide his feelings worth s**t and he wasn't guilty feeling, he was hurt that i had believed them and desparate to convince me they had lied but at the same time because of the hurt trying to be like all "but if you want to believe them you can" too
and he had proof that the one girl was trying to get him back, on msn. she's been acting all like my friend to me irl lately but then when i'm not around she's all like HAYBABEEEY, GO ON CAM, I WILL TOO ;D to chris. he's got msn convos to prove it. and she's called him nonstop lately and it bothered me until it was obvious that it got on chris' nerves more than mine.

BUT ANYWAYS how cruel was that?
but then when i said we had been going out for a year and i was all acting totally cold and crushed the one girl suddenly had to leave, like she didn't want to take part NEmore in getting back at chris because meeting me had put me from being that chick he's going out with to being a person and she realized she had hurt me in her getting back. the other girl, tho, the one who had been trying to get back w/ chris, she kept going.
but then when i said we had been supposed to get married the next spring she was totally shellshocked.
and then she was with me at chris' place and then decided to leave before he got back b/c he would be so mad at her for telling me. like she had realized alluvasudden "wait... s**t... he's gonna be so mad, if they're supposed to be married it's not just another girlfriend... shitshitshit he's gunna kill me" and then she doesn't call his home NEmore b/c she doesn't wanna meet up w/ him. she called my cellphone twice since, and one of those was after i'd talked to chris, and i didn't give her any details and now i'm not going to answer her number any more.

PEOPLE CAN BE SO RETARDED

oh by the way now i'm sick today. i'm not a very emotional person, more logical than anything, in most situations, but very rarely something will really get to me, like this did. I was devastated until chris came home and we talked about it. so yeah anways, perhaps because i'm not normally an emotional person, when something actually does really get to me i get totally sick afterwards / during (depending on how long the feelings last)

BITCHES!

btw this is lor ;D

I am the green fingered strimmer ninja!

(guess what i'v been doing)

I need a new pair of pants.