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yay thatz great newz. and if she knowz the u that i know im sure she'll be with u for a long time.

??? huh ur confusing me now

stare aww thats sad crying i hate when guys break up with me for some other girl. but u loved janelle not suzan i get it.... but its still sad. im not mad at u for it tho. its ur choice. u be with whoever ur happier with

aww *hugs u tight* im sorry about that.
i have an empty spot in my heart to....
but i dont think it will ever be filled up again
its ok tho ^^ i try not to think about it

Pain And Education In Loveless:
Yun Kouga starts volume three of Loveless with a bold juxtoposition of two scenes: as Soubi, alone, fights a pair of Zeroes, he thinks back to youthfull lessons at the hads of a mysterious instructor. Ritsu, for his faults, is the best kind of teacher--one who teaches his students to continue to learn. Soubi has broken away from Ritsu, for reasons unknown, but he cannot let go of the philosophies instilled in him, and these teachings, relunctantly recalled, save his life: "Pain triggers fear. But you must not fear pain. You must feal it. One who knows pain, Soubi-kun...knows strength." Ritsuka's pain is more shamefull, less romantic, though no less instructive. His mother beats him, and so he has learned the mental and physical tactics of appeasment and avoidance. He is made sensitive--monitering his mother's tiniest shift in mood, so he can temper his own behavior accordingly.

The zeroes' teacher, Nagisa, is petulant and naive. She designs her fighters to exist without feeling, so they can fight indefinately. Zero seems the ultimate opponent because they are insensitive to pain--indeed, they know no pain. But experiance makes the fighter as repetition makes the master--to feel once is to know forever. It's the carnal knowledge of pain that the Zeroes lack, and calm, attentive Ritsu knows better: "Insensitivity is dangerous. Pain is a signal to caution. Pain and fear are shileds...if you learn how to use them."

But th ability to use pain requires a self-knowledge that the Zeroes cannot attain. "Feeling slows you down," says Yoji. While intellectualy aware that they aren't immortal--the Zeroes must be carefull, for even they can die--they cannot feel danger, cannot feel that they are in trouble until it's far too late. It's the intellectual knowledge without the experience ofemotion or physical sensation that eventually cripples them.

By contrast, Soubi's pain in battle inspires identifiction, then rough poetry: "They are cold. Like being stabbed all over with icicles." This turns to inspiration, and he fights the insensitive Zeroes by freezing the air around them, dragging their body tempuratures down to dangerous lows. Their insensitivity means they aren't alerted to the threat--they just marvel at the pretty snow. Soubi has taught himself to use pain as an artist does, as a muse, as a creative tool. Every great work of art, Soubi the art student must have reasoned, has at least some small element of pain buried in its creation (this is a theme that will come up again in teh series, when we see more of Soubi the painter, rather than Soubi the fighter). "Pain," concludes Soubi, completing his own education, "is proof that you're alive."

Yet the key is balance--there is a danger in being overly sensitive. Soubi saves Ritsuka's teacher from physical harm, but Shinonome's emotiona pain, her fear of connecting with people her age and her loneliness show through when she bursts into tears in the middle of class. When pan is repressed, it forces itself to the surface violently, and at the worst times. But suffering felt, pain withstood and forged into inspiration--that is the spell of the magician, the discipline of the warrior, the art of the fighter and sacrifice.

~Christine Boylan

i find it's easier in life to go over the sad and painfull things in life when you have the time, but to not let it control you. just remember that emotions are part of you, not who you are. the sad things are part of life, and you can remember the good and the bad and still be ok. ^_^

no one's been RP ing here in like.... all year, so it kinda turned into a chatroom between me and demon....same at the hospital too... 9.9