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 Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 11:26 am
Cannibal Horsey Jedi Sasquatch I hate this place.
I hate what this place does to me.
I didn't want it to be true but it is. Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
Don't know if I'll stick around anymore. Leaving would probably be good for this place anyway.
Don't you dare Jedi! You shouldn't hate yourself, you're a lovely person! And I would most certainly call you one of my friends here. Don't go away!
Thanks... But I'm to the point now where I'm starting to hate others that are in relationships just because they have what I don't have, what I can't have. It bothers me more and more each day, and I don't want to feel that resentment anymore.
It's stupid of me to feel like this, I know...
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 11:27 am
Jedi Sasquatch Cannibal Horsey Jedi Sasquatch I hate this place.
I hate what this place does to me.
I didn't want it to be true but it is. Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
Don't know if I'll stick around anymore. Leaving would probably be good for this place anyway.
Don't you dare Jedi! You shouldn't hate yourself, you're a lovely person! And I would most certainly call you one of my friends here. Don't go away!
Thanks... But I'm to the point now where I'm starting to hate others that are in relationships just because they have what I don't have, what I can't have. It bothers me more and more each day, and I don't want to feel that resentment anymore.
It's stupid of me to feel like this, I know...
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 11:29 am
thanksies guys, heh SORRY Im abit crazy right now
o.o
its all just a crazy really strange coincidence
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 11:29 am
My rusty crowbar has apparently changed from an instrument to an attack pet.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 11:30 am
Kamilucis thanksies guys, heh SORRY Im abit crazy right now
o.oits all just a crazy really strange coincidence *snuggles* It's ok Kammy! Just remember we love you FOREVER AND EVER
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 11:33 am
Cannibal Horsey Jedi Sasquatch Cannibal Horsey Jedi Sasquatch I hate this place.
I hate what this place does to me.
I didn't want it to be true but it is. Everything about the interactions in this place remind me of why I hate myself and why I hate the life I live.
Don't know if I'll stick around anymore. Leaving would probably be good for this place anyway.
Don't you dare Jedi! You shouldn't hate yourself, you're a lovely person! And I would most certainly call you one of my friends here. Don't go away!
Thanks... But I'm to the point now where I'm starting to hate others that are in relationships just because they have what I don't have, what I can't have. It bothers me more and more each day, and I don't want to feel that resentment anymore.
It's stupid of me to feel like this, I know...
I know I don't need to feel this way. I know I shouldn't feel this way. But I can't help it. I'm so stupid...
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 11:34 am
We can't help the way we feel sometimes Jedi. Don't worry about it, it happens sometimes. If you ever want to rant out about it or let it out I'm here for you and you can PM me if you want
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 12:13 pm
I'm freaking out... I can never get enough sleep. I had about two hours when I could have gotten a nap, but now I can't, and I'm so ******** tired! I'm so ******** frustratingly tired and miserable and I need sleep soooo badly and I'm so tired that I'm just sitting here crying and wishing I could be asleep T_____T
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:14 pm
Little Miss Fortune I'm freaking out... I can never get enough sleep. I had about two hours when I could have gotten a nap, but now I can't, and I'm so ******** tired! I'm so ******** frustratingly tired and miserable and I need sleep soooo badly and I'm so tired that I'm just sitting here crying and wishing I could be asleep T_____T *hugs* I hope you're able to get some more sleep soon. Maybe try and set up a schedule so that you can get more sleep per night or more naps in or something?
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:15 pm
I feel dizzy, weak, I feel like my walls have just caved inwards
I feel like my dads hands are reaching in and ripping to pieces from the inside out, I m terrified to go to a hospital,
I have no idea what to do
I m really lost, I just want someone or thing to grab me and pull me away from the black room im in
I have no idea where i belong I slightly wish I could die already but I cant because my body although on the edge will just fight and keep fighting whether i like it or not
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:18 pm
Jikoniau Little Miss Fortune I'm freaking out... I can never get enough sleep. I had about two hours when I could have gotten a nap, but now I can't, and I'm so ******** tired! I'm so ******** frustratingly tired and miserable and I need sleep soooo badly and I'm so tired that I'm just sitting here crying and wishing I could be asleep T_____T *hugs* I hope you're able to get some more sleep soon. Maybe try and set up a schedule so that you can get more sleep per night or more naps in or something?
I try, but weekends are tough. Luckily, I have time for sleep tomorrow... XP
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:25 pm
Kamilucis My heart is bleeding
I cant cry sometimes maybe its my hearts way of crying for me
because Im in soo much emotional and physical pain
I wish I could make my dad go poof,
I wish I was a better person and I could just make everything right and good
but nothing is like so everything is difficult
I should go to a hospital but I m terrified to go
Imma just sit here and think
I shouldnt think I think the worst possibility heh =/
I hate the fact, I m weird, I hate it that everything hurts
You need to make sure you're taking care of yourself for everyone, because we don't want you to go doing something and then hurting yourself more ;o; So even if you need to go to the hospital for something, do it. Gets you better faster.
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:34 pm
-Mizu teh Artsi- Kamilucis My heart is bleeding
I cant cry sometimes maybe its my hearts way of crying for me
because Im in soo much emotional and physical pain
I wish I could make my dad go poof,
I wish I was a better person and I could just make everything right and good
but nothing is like so everything is difficult
I should go to a hospital but I m terrified to go
Imma just sit here and think
I shouldnt think I think the worst possibility heh =/
I hate the fact, I m weird, I hate it that everything hurts
You need to make sure you're taking care of yourself for everyone, because we don't want you to go doing something and then hurting yourself more ;o; So even if you need to go to the hospital for something, do it. Gets you better faster.I wont be seen in the next 15hours heh
I know I should I guess I m just confused and tired and Im not sure where I belong, What Im meant to be or do and Im letting stuff my dads been saying to me stick to me heh
heh He said I d be next to go =/ and that its better for everyone if i was gone
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:41 pm
Kamilucis -Mizu teh Artsi- Kamilucis My heart is bleeding
I cant cry sometimes maybe its my hearts way of crying for me
because Im in soo much emotional and physical pain
I wish I could make my dad go poof,
I wish I was a better person and I could just make everything right and good
but nothing is like so everything is difficult
I should go to a hospital but I m terrified to go
Imma just sit here and think
I shouldnt think I think the worst possibility heh =/
I hate the fact, I m weird, I hate it that everything hurts
You need to make sure you're taking care of yourself for everyone, because we don't want you to go doing something and then hurting yourself more ;o; So even if you need to go to the hospital for something, do it. Gets you better faster.I wont be seen in the next 15hours heh
I know I should I guess I m just confused and tired and Im not sure where I belong, What Im meant to be or do and Im letting stuff my dads been saying to me stick to me heh
heh He said I d be next to go =/ and that its better for everyone if i was gone
Don't let your dad d**k around with who you really are, because you don't deserve anything like that, you are the better person here. You do what you want to do, you do what you need to do to do it, and that's that. Don't let whatever he's saying drive you to think you're nothing when to best friends you're something ;o; You belong here with us and with her, and if I had the money I'd be giving you a ticket over to Canada faster than anything else, and so would everyone else!
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Posted: Sun Jan 23, 2011 4:43 pm
-Mizu teh Artsi- Kamilucis -Mizu teh Artsi- Kamilucis My heart is bleeding
I cant cry sometimes maybe its my hearts way of crying for me
because Im in soo much emotional and physical pain
I wish I could make my dad go poof,
I wish I was a better person and I could just make everything right and good
but nothing is like so everything is difficult
I should go to a hospital but I m terrified to go
Imma just sit here and think
I shouldnt think I think the worst possibility heh =/
I hate the fact, I m weird, I hate it that everything hurts
You need to make sure you're taking care of yourself for everyone, because we don't want you to go doing something and then hurting yourself more ;o; So even if you need to go to the hospital for something, do it. Gets you better faster.I wont be seen in the next 15hours heh
I know I should I guess I m just confused and tired and Im not sure where I belong, What Im meant to be or do and Im letting stuff my dads been saying to me stick to me heh
heh He said I d be next to go =/ and that its better for everyone if i was gone
Don't let your dad d**k around with who you really are, because you don't deserve anything like that, you are the better person here. You do what you want to do, you do what you need to do to do it, and that's that. Don't let whatever he's saying drive you to think you're nothing when to best friends you're something ;o; You belong here with us and with her, and if I had the money I'd be giving you a ticket over to Canada faster than anything else, and so would everyone else!
I guess my nightmares just make me focus on him alot and it makes me scared to sleep heh, because heh I has bad past with my dad heh
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