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Akito popped in, using his finger to wipe Sana's tears, then presses his forehead against hers. Then he stood and looked of Qastor. He shook his head, then sighed. He didn't know if Qastor could hear him, but he couldn't keep it in any longer.

"Qastor, donno if you can here me, but I has some 'splainin' to do. I knew Sana left, but I figured she wanted to keep things under wraps. I'll apologize for that. I left because of the Water Lord. He's gatherin' an army. He's already changed Tsuki, and I will be damned if I let the same happen to Konoha. I've already seen some of it, and I have someone on the inside. Call it a preemptive strike for us. I'm still on your side no matter what you think. I will never abandon the village... No... The people that saw me as a person rather than a thing. I figured you had everythin' you needed. That I could return to doin' the grunt work again. And I finally quit bein' a pansy. But you... You were an idiot. If you were in this much trouble, you should have had summoned Aioko to find me."

As for me and Sana, I only sought her out because I found out how to stop what was killin' her like how what was killin' me.

His eyes opened for a moment but he could only see what little was moving about in the room. His eyes fell shut and he saw a person, Sana maybe, no definitely, she was running towards him, she was crying, but what was it she was running from. He reached out to grab her hand to show her she was all right, then she stopped. Suddenly she slit her wrists and it was all over, a crystal light shone through the window, a white linen bed, her limp body upon it. Then the most frightening part, he himself standing in the doorway, was she running from him or had he stood by watching her die with no remorse, Sana... dont leave.... Suddenly he awoke screaming in a cold sweat, his eyes were wide and his back was erect from the bedside pillow, he was heaving out breaths.

Then came the coughs, the horrid coughing that led to blood in his hands, he fell back down as soon as he had shot up and tried to bring a hand to his face. The hand fell limp and his eyes closed again, unable to do anything about it, Was he right.... am I... dieing... because of .... her?

"I wish I knew, I... wish I new," he stated softly as he recovered barely, he ate little, just enough to sustain himself and he remained in his bed when ever he could. The days to come he would spend most of his time looking out the window and occasionally coughing up his own blood; this was the life he had been reduced to.

"When I first met Sana I was lonely, but she loved me and she stood by me, I did everything I could to make her happy. She accepted the twins and she even had a child with me of our own. She liked it at the ice sheets, I thought it would be good to get away. Kirama didnt approve of us and I felt putting the stress out of mind would ease her heart. And so it did, we were happy together, then one morning she left, barely a goodbye kiss." He gripped the sheets,"I didnt know till now that she left because she was dying or so she thought and she didnt want me to see her in such a way. She told me that she still loves me and her job is to let me live," he stopped to cough horribly over the side of the bed. He straightened up wiping away the blood,"But I just dont know if thats true, I feel like she betrayed me, left me for you, I feel like she said it to make me feel better, Sanas such a trick card, no one can know what she means but her. After she left I was distraught, she was the only thing holding me together, my last love, I tried to bring back Sayra the way Litany had been ressurected, but I didnt realize the jutsu weakened along with the users soul. I was stupid and foolish to think anything could replace Sanas love, Sayra was not truly alive again and even now she has faded along with my health. I think Sana is the only person who couldve ever healed the wound Kentan drove into my heart, and now she is gone and away with you, what she truly means for me to do, I guess only you could obtain such an answer."

"Akito... I dont expect you to understand... you are young... you havent been given the chance to suffer the amount of loss I have... Friends, family, students, lovers....." he gripped the sheets lightly,"I hope you never will...." He was looking down at the sheets again, bandages had been placed up his arms to absorb the blood stains he excreted as he coughed. He finally breathed in deep to Akito,"I am the last of my generation... of my family... Sana and the children are all that is left.... I have given you a dieing mans truth, I dont know what you plan to do with such information.... If you think you can save me with such... my soul is departing and only one thing can anchor it.... I have lost this thing and it may never return...." He stood up shakily stumbling to the window and falling to sit on the sill, as he looked out he ran his hands across the glass. I will remain this way, I am certain... she has made her choice it would seem. Qastor spoke in a wise tone, his words ringing on a soft desperate note,"Do what you will with it, may it make you a rich man or a poor man, that is up to how you use it and how you see fit to deal with your own inner conflicts...."

"Qastor, it's my duty to protect and aid my people however I can. If it'll keep you kicking for even a day longer, I'd do it in a heartbeat." He grinned and placed his hand on Qastor's shoulder. "But I'm tellin' ya, you make real moves to take her from me, and I'll... I donno..."