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Ishira Tsubasa Vice Captain
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 Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 6:28 pm
Reeve would only see Ishiras eyes go blank for a second. She felt herself be pulled into a darkness and she closed her eyes tightly. Her stomach flipped but she caught herself before her knees threatened to give in. What the hell was-. Nekos voice interupted her thoughts and she lost her breath for a second. Her eyes were wide when she opened them and she looked ahead towards Neko. It was bright, and she was standing, barely... Her body shivered in fear. He had seen it all, she knew it, and she knew he wouldnt have agreed with it. Its was bright, which would have relaxed her if she didnt know why Neko was there. He looked at her, and she sucked in her breath, forcing herself to stand up straight before giving a bow to him.
"Yes, i have.. time, i will always have time when you call on me." She heard her words being to shake as she stood straight again. Her crimson eyes fixed on Nekos. He was tired, that was never a good thing.
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 6:38 pm
The landscape would shift with Ishi's thoughts and feelings. Neko wiped it clean when he started, but ultimately, this was Ishira's mind, and could be bent in whichever way she willed.
He turned around with a smile, simple white robes flowing with his movements.
"I'm glad you feel that way. You're putting up a good front, either way you lean."
He spoke honestly, though cryptically. It was a genuine compliment.
"Don't worry about your fight. You'll be in the same spot when we're through here. Now where would you like to start?"
Neko began to walk as he spoke, towards Ishi, but his image flickered, almost like static, and he jumped forward, now standing only a few inches from her face.
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Ishira Tsubasa Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 6:46 pm
Ishira felt her face turn red and she turned it to the side and looked down. She had noticed him flicker, she had notice everything around her change with her emotions. So this was her mind? She almost wanted to laugh. Well then, she needed to keep her head straight on one path.
"Im not sure i understand Neko... You are the one who pulled me here." Her mind went through a few things, tutsumi trying to kill himself, and her time with reeve and her sister. The happiness she had been feeling along with the fact she felt it was wrong. And now here Neko was, and she couldnt help but feel ashamed and flustered. She filled her mind with everything he would know, and nothing that he didnt.
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 6:59 pm
Neko sighed, closing his eyes. His image flickered and twisted as a distant scream of anger, maybe Neko's, echoed and reverberated until it became closer, louder, and earsplitting. The landscape went blank again, and Neko was standing behind Ishira, not looking very pleased, silence immediately masking the haunting sound.
"Honestly, I just wanted to tell you to not kill my source of information. But, it just seemed like you might have a train of excuses lined up for me. I was going to watch you swim. I don't care if you want to hide things from me, just don't be stupid enough to do it while you know I'm listening. It's insulting, I've taught you better. And don't waste my time by trying to hide anything by clouding your mind. I can see it even when we're not like this. Really, just don't waste my time."
He walked towards her front, his image still flickering every once in a while, but no jumping.
"Now, a few things have me curious. You say you hate Hybrin, and indeed, I can feel it, but you still keep this around, and there's something else..."
Once he was directly in front of her, he pointed a finger towards her chest, the ring around her neck floating up, though her clothing, and resting on around the tip of his finger.
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Ishira Tsubasa Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 7:23 pm
Ishira only flinched. The scream hurt, but she knew what it meant. She closed her eyes, shutting down all her thoughts, shutting down her emotions that she didnt need. When the screaming was gone she opened her eyes and waited. He spoke and Ishira just listened. A few things had upset her but she pushed the emotion aside so he could finish. She had known that he would figure a few things out, so most of it wasnt a surprise. She didnt expect him to notice her ring though... She looked him in the eyes, keeping her feelings as far back as she could and searched for the right ones to show.
"I hate him, yes... I wont lie, i love him as well. But i only keep the ring as a reminder Neko. A reminder to stay away from him, and any thought of love. I will not allow myself to be weakened by strings that break easily.." She paused, thinking of her reaction to Neko. That too she would never act on. "As far as hiding things, yes i have, and im sorry i have insulted you. I knew you would see but for some reason i thought differently, i thought i could cloud it as you said. I wont make excuses, and i wont kill your source. I wont fail you..." She took a deep breath and looked at the ring he held on his finger. It was hard to keep those emotions away...
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 7:39 pm
"Ah, and what string breaks more easily than the one holding a worthless trinket?"
Neko balled his hand in a fist, still holding the ring, and snatched it away, breaking the chain that held it. He tossed it aside without paying it any more mind, and looked around the place Ishi was creating. Blank. The ring returned to the spot on Ishi's chest, displaying her true feelings about it.
"I'm sure you're strong enough to stick to your decisions without having something to remind you to do it. Do you know how many times you looked at the crystal last night? I've been preparing a squad to move in so I can personally fulfill the mission I gave you, because I wasn't absolutely positive that you wouldn't have a change of heart the moment it left your sight. It's a sign of weakness, Ishira, and I know for a fact that you are not weak. You have amazing potential, but I will not give power to those who are not prepared to wield it. You are not prepared."
He leaned forward, pressing his lips against Ishira's forehead before turning around, hands clasped behind his back again.
"Ultimately, it is your choice whether I seriously train you or not. Prove to me that you are ready to take responsibility for the power you wield. Prove to me that you're strong-willed."
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Ishira Tsubasa Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 7:52 pm
Ishira watched him pull the ring from her neck. When he threw it her eyes didnt follow, she knew it would return to her. She knew that would show him things that she hid... He was right, she normally didnt need anything to keep her mind straight, but when it came to Tutsumi, it seemed that she did. She was happy to hear that he didnt believe she was weak, but the fact he was tempted to send another squad almost hurt. The touch of his lips on her head warmed her, and showed her that at the least he cared, even if it was a screwed up way.
"I looked at the pendant and kept it visible for one reason, and that was to get Reeve to see that its important to me. I know that there were times i looked at it when i felt i may lose myself, but that wasnt because i would betray you. I didnt want to do anything that would create another string but i needed him to see me in a different way. Im sure he noted each time i looked at the crystal as well." She tilted her head and watched him. Yes, there was weakness in some of her choices, and she knew she wasnt completely prepared. But she wasnt going to back down, she wasnt going to fail. "I have weakness's, i will get rid of them soon enough. I will show you that i wont fail, that i can be trusted.. I have never thought once to abandon this mission, and i do wish to continue my training with you. Reeve wanted time, im giving it to him."
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 8:08 pm
"Oh, I know. It's very clever of you."
He turned around with a soft, sincere smile.
"Perhaps the alcohol was throwing your emotions off. I acted hastily, and I apologize for doubting you. I'm just getting impatient. My preparations are complete, and I'm just waiting for you to drop the linchpin in."
He unclasped his hands and let them hang st his side for a moment, before grabbing Ishi's arms, and looking her dead in the eyes.
"But I feel you should be informed. If you want what you say you want, you will be tied to me by things much stronger than string. It truly is a commitment that can't be taken lightly. I'll ask you to do horrible things, things that should never be done, but must be done to gain strength."
Neko was serious, but not in an overbearing way. Almost like he was pleading with Ishira, showing a bit of emotion and worry for her well being if she chose to go down the road he paved.
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Ishira Tsubasa Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 8:25 pm
Ishira chuckled, she didnt blame him for getting impatient. In fact she had been too, but she was willing to wait just to make sure things were done properly. She grew more serious though as he grabbed her. She tried not to flinch and looked him straight in the eyes as he spoke, holding back the flush in her cheeks. She grew more serious as he continued.
"I wouldnt have done what i did to.. Hybrin if i wasnt committed to this. Im willing to go through what ever hell you throw at me Neko, i understood that the moment i asked you to teach me.. I didnt mean for my emotions to do what they did, but it was necessary to be convincing to Reeve that i wasnt there to harm him. I let the act take more control then it should have. Understandibly i need to work on the transistion between working with you and another. " She searched him, looking at each motion he chose to take. She tried separating her idea of Neko from the real one, studying. She wasnt sure if the emotions he showed were ones she was making up or if they were real. Neko rarely showed anything to her, so she was sure her mind was making things up. "I have no one here to keep me from doing anything. If i left things with my husband the way they were i would have hesitated. Now i will not."
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 8:35 pm
"Mm. So you still think of him as your husband?"
Neko let go of Ishira as his smile faded. He was serious, and still held emotion, but it was a different sort now.
"Would you kill your sister?"
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Ishira Tsubasa Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 8:45 pm
Ishira wanted to smack herself for using that word, she didnt mean it.. She didnt want to be with Tutsumi, had no desire to have him with her in anyway.
"Which sister, you know of two." She smirked. She knew she wouldnt have to explain her thoughts on Tut, as he said he could feel her feelings, and know her thoughts. So he would know she wanted no connection to him and that the word ment nothing to her. That is, if he was tapped into her. She looked at him, wondering if he knew and if she should voice it.
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 8:53 pm
"Good question!"
He raised up a finger, slightly excited now, seemingly.
"All of them."
His excitement turned to seriousness again, quickly, without the skip of a beat.
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Ishira Tsubasa Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 9:02 pm
Ishira some how knew that he was going to say that. She shrugged and smiled.
"No problem." Ishira was dead serious, she needed her links to other destroyed, even if it ment killing. In her current state she didnt care, not the slightest bit. Shed even kill Tutsumi if she was asked. Her eyes flickered and grew darker as she thought about it.
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 9:11 pm
"Alright. Think about that for a while. We need to be sure that it's you who would do it, not your darkness, or just you in a certain state of mind. It needs to be a wholehearted decision. You can't let your darkness or light take over. You need to remain neutral."
He smiled again, and rested a hand on her shoulder as he started to turn away, his form flickering again. He yawned.
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Ishira Tsubasa Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jan 08, 2010 9:18 pm
It was odd, having him lean on her shoulder. At the least she knew he was still tuned into her mind. So that ment he knew what she had ment before. She sighed, so she had to be herself? She wasnt sure which one of herself was truly her real self. Each felt good when she took their form. Each felt real. Even now, this felt like herself.
"Im neutral now, im not light or dark Neko." She looked over herself, making sure. The shadows did not consume her, nor did her light. Sooo wasnt this neutral? She had no emotions, that was all. But truly, after many years, this was how she would be, if no one she cared for was around.
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