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Feeling your pain, Mike. Here's to hoping both of us survive the week gonk

Yeah so... definitely it is probably not even LEGAL for them to make you work full time when you are a part timer, without offering benefits.

So I know it's hard and s**t and you've had an extraordinarily crappy day but you really have to be firm, and do your best to be calm, and tell them you will not be working a 40 hour week, benefits or not. Tell them you have no interest in being full time, and have them limit your hours.

They really can't make you work that much. Especially when it's a sort of job where you say 'okay I have this many hours free, fit me in where you can'.... apparently they can fit you in anywhere so they really just need to back off.

*Hugs you so tightlyyy*

I'm really sorry about Austin and all that, Lor. I.. really wish I had some advice for you but....... well... I love you and emotional s**t sucks but... you just have to keep getting through it.

I'd also advise you to really talk to someone like your parents or something because you seem like you really need to get things out to someone face to face. <3

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So... today my male cousin..... got drunk. And got on his dirt bike. And crashed it. Hyper-extended his knee and is laid up in the bed right now, 2 vicodin down and was smelling like beer all the way back.

Female cousin has pretty much lost patience with him- asked him not to drink tonight. But she has so much medical s**t going on... she FINALLY got surgery scheduled... they're going to take some tissue from deep in her nose and they can test it for this bacteria she is pretty sure she has- this is the only way to test for it. They dye it to find the dead/absorbed carcasses of the.. aspergillum or something.

Soooooo..... yes. I love being here but they've been kind of heated latetly. He's really grumpy and snippy and was scaring me yesterday when he was driving- I was half an instant from shouting at him to let me out of the car but calmed down. He forgot his wallet so was being pissy and driving pretty fast, taking turns kind of fast.

I will not get in a car with him again, unless I see he is not agitated. He's got problems from like.... PTSD from s**t that went on from his divorce but...

.... he really just needs to pull up his britches and get some help or make some changes. My female cousin really does a lot to be with his kids and do things with him and them while balancing her sickness and trying to get doctors to listen to her and s**t... she's pretty awesome.

SO. THIS IS WHERE YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO BE SUPER SUPER SUPER JEALOUS OF HOW AWESOME I AM.

Today I went to the state capitol, Madison Wisconsin.

AND GUESS WHERE I WENT?

................... :3 Willy St. Co-op...

... HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THAT IS???????



.......... DOES CHAD VADER, DAY SHIFT MANAGER MEAN ANYTHING TO ANYONE?

Yeah. That's where they film it.

I was like 'Omfg, I'm standing int he cheese aisle. This is where chad Vader said that they have a lot of cheese.'

and 'omfg I'm in the frozen foods aisle. This is where Chad Vader gave his most important lessons to his disciples!!!!!!!11'

It was pretty awesome, though I forgot to get my cousin to take pictures. XD Would have been kinda weird.

So yeah. Walked around the ... lake/river while my cousin was meeting her doctor to make the surgery appointment..

.. saw lots of jumping fish! Huge ones. and 2 turtles. One gigantic painted...

also saw an otter, like 7 feet from me swimming around the rocks.

So.... yep. IT IS ******** ALMOST 90 DEGREES HERE, YOU GUYS.

I AM HOT. HOTTTTTTTTTTtt.

v_V and Also I miss you.. but I will be home with laptop tomorrow? :3

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Edit: Lor, my cousin says that if they keep making you work 40 hours without giving you full benefits, it is illegal. You can like contact the... state work office...

and she recommends keeping a paper trail- schedule and if you have an agreement for part time.

Are you getting overtime? If you're not getting overtime then they're definitely doing something illegal.

I think it has to go on more than one week though. Probably at least 3ish..... you could maybe call the work offices for your .... county or state.... find that out.

That place really is s**t. Like one of the shittiest places to work, ever. :/

'Fun' sort of. I had chocolate milk and got to touch Chad Vader's cheese and that was kinda the high point... ahh....

I don't know.... you should really try to eat, and just maybe do something to relax....

Exercise can usually help, do some simple stretches, toe touch, sit on the floor and stretch your legs, do some crunches.

..um.... it's really late so of course this thing with Austin isn't probably going to be worked out tonight. Just try to......

I don't really know. Hmm... food and a bit of exercise will seriously help. Have some good food and not just ice cream or chips or fries or something, seriously. Hopefully you have some food in your house now so you can do that...

The exercise should distract your mind, and better food will probably help balance you internally a bit better....

It's weird little things like that which can really help.

Otherwise I'd suggest just laying down and clear your head. Don't dwell on things that happened today, think of something soothing like.... well whatever works for you.

I usually imagine floating on a raft down a river, spread my arms and legs out comfortably and imagine the water and sunshine. Try something like that, just clear your head, sleep.

Still recommend some food and a bit of light exercise/stretching though. Exercise can awaken endorphins and things- makes you more relaxed. You just have to try to get over the hump if you're feeling in the mood of 'tired and I don't want to' .... force yourself to do it and at least you'll feel a bit more tired afterwards, probably able to sleep better.

I love you. <3 I know it doesn't help as much as being there would but I do and I hope things are better tomorrow. <3

I kinda had some chicken and a pickle and some nice juice. Took an advil, too, because my back and feet hurt. I can't believe I have three more days of eight hours shifts left, man. And I can't believe Austin didn't call or text me back. I would have had a fine day/night if he just hadn't sent that text and been an a** about it, seriously.

Well thats the thing is he has work and school every other night but today. He should have come over to be with me once he realized how upset he made me, I just don't get it. I mean I understand if he's tired and doesn't want to come, but he should have said that right away once he realized he sent that text wrong or whatever... I can't fathom he could just go to bed and now be worried about me. I just can't believe it all. ;_;

I know I'm overreacting because of stress and all but that doesnt change how I feel, you know?

Im glad you are online Cass. You make me feel better. >: I just dont want to seem too needy and keep texting him but I hate going to bed upset. I don't geeeet iiiit. How can he go to bed knowing I am upset? x_x

I already played with Milo some cuz he can tell when I am sad, he always pops out to see what is going on. And I fed my snake, too, and he was like NOMS. I guess I will go try and read and try and sleep but... I dunno, man. I hope he calls me in the morning. Because if I cal lhim it's like... I don't know. He needs to call me and make me feel better, not me call him and me be angry. Seriously. Dammit.

<3 This computer is almost out of juice and it is too hot to unplug the fan, so I am going to go sleep.

Gotta get up early besides, get my stuff together to go to the Social Security officeee....

I hope tomorrow turns out like, 1,000,000x better for you than today, Lor. <3 Love you and goodnight <3 <3 <3