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He shook his head, "Nah, I tried a hat once to cover up my hair when I hated it, it was still there. Plus, these things seem to like to grow in dark places, especially if they are damp and warm too. I mean hell, you think these things would be good for something, but no, just no. Nii got hurt really bad that way." He sighs again as he leans forward, crossing his arms on the table and laying his head upon them, "Great....now I can't stop thinking about what I did to her..."

Tac pulls his hand away with a jerk as he clentches his eyes shut, "No. Its not that simple. Not that simple. Her blood. Stains. Green cloak. Shoulders. The pain..." He darted up into an upright sitting position and tried to stand up from there, but fell to the ground in a heap.

((certain liberties taken with her permission))

After a brief moment Tac's eyes shot open, looking up into her eyes for a brief moment before he started yelling, obviously disillusioned or in an altered frame of mind, "NII! I told you to get on your hands and knees!" He quickly got up and kicked her hard in order to send her sprawling into a heap on the ground. He quickly came up behind her and grabbed her by the hair, pulling her head back with a jerk and yelling in her ear, "You are nothing but my slut! You have no free will. I am your master. I told you time and time again you haven't earned the right to be able to wear clothing of any sort!" He pushed her away and stood, moving to loom over her, giving her a swift kick in the guy as he called her a worthless slut, reaching down to tear her dress. He turned away and walked for a few seconds before turning back, taking a pistol from a harness that keeps them strapped to the outside of his thighs, cocking it and aiming it at her, "Dirty little sluts need to be punished, especially when they disobey their masters." There is a click and the sound of a gunshot, but Tac didn't fire at her, falling to the floor again at the last moment and dropping the weapon, firing off in a random direction harmlessly. He laid there curled up in a fetal position, rocking back and forth muttering appoligies to Nii. He was sorry he destroyed her mind. Sorry he raped her. Sorry he killed her.

Tac remained curled up and slowly rocking back and forth. Mystina just had to poke the bear. Well, demon. Tac thought he had come to terms with these demons he held within himself, but obviously not. Mystina's bubbly attitude and prodding the subject had reawakened the memories with an increased fervor. Had Tacitus any magic here Mystina would likely be dying or dead from a direct blast of a force missile to the gut, the same thing that sealed Nii's fate. Tac simply kept rocking, appoligizing to the dead.

Tac remained curled up, but called out to Mystina, "Don't go, please."

Tac slowly nods, but doesn't look back, "....are...you ok?"

He slowly turned, shaking his head as he uncurled a wee bit, "Don't be sorry. I guess I never faced my demons, just put them away.....I need a hug but I fear for your safety ..."