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 Posted: Thu Nov 04, 2010 7:26 pm
 ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. -------------------------------------------------------  Raffaele jumped slightly at the sound of his name. He hadn't expected any sound whatsoever, much less his name coming from Hunter's lips. But that meant, well that meant Hunter was still here, that he hadn't left, that there was still a chance everything really would be okay.
Wait, why was he, why was he by the door? Did Hunter not realize what had happened? Did he not remember?
But, how!? Raffaele certainly remembered! The exact events were still fresh in his mind. If Hunter didn't remember, well then Raffaele didn't have to tell him what had happened and Raffaele could make up some lame excuse that he had like, fallen down the stairs....
But wasn't not telling Hunter just the same as lying? Raffaele was pretty against lying, as it was a mortal sin.
Raffaele very slowly, and cautiously walked towards the bed. Once he was close to the blonde vampire though, he could no longer contain himself. Raffare sat himself on the bed and inched closer to the vampire. He leaned over slightly and pressed his lips against the cool skin of Hunter's forehead.
"Well no one took me away so everything is fine." It was fine, wasn't it? No, no it was not. Raffaele still had to tell Hunter everything, didn't he? He supposed he did...well actually, he didn't have to say anything because he was pretty sure Mariann would whether he wanted her to or not.
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Posted: Thu Nov 04, 2010 8:24 pm
 Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life.  Hunter chuckled and leaned forwards to wrap his arms around the priest, pulling him closer to him and resting his head on the mans shoulder in a hug. He was in an unusually cuddly mood, and altogether he just felt rather good. He wasn't really sure why but he certainly wasn't going to question it.
He purred and buried his face in Raffaele's neck, inhaling deeply and closing his eyes. "I love your smell." he mumbled into the mans skin and pulled him down to lay next to him.
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Troubled Monster Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Nov 05, 2010 9:28 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- Raffaele was starting to accept that every aspect of his life, would suck. It just wasn't fair! What had he done to deserve this? Hadn't he been pretty nice his whole life? How was it the one time Hunter was so super cute and cuddly, Raffaele didn't want to be touched!?
What was funny was how Raffaele recognized it. He knew he was a cuddler, knew he was a cuddle fiend, but right now he was sore, and everything hurt and he just wanted his own personal space.
And was that so much to ask for?
But he also realized what a prime opportunity this was---that he was unable to appreciate!
He made the tiniest sound of discomfort, which was really just disguised pain, when Hunter pulled him into a hug. Yeah, he liked affection, which was no surprise, but he didn't like pain! Still though, Raffaele endured. He didn't want to pass up the opportunity! Nor did he want to ruin Hunter's good mood...which ironically was at Raffaele's expense...again.
But it was okay because like, well affection from Hunter trumped everything!
Raffaele exhaled deeply as he composed himself. He knew it was wrong, and he knew it was an unadulterated feeling, but he sort of, got worried with Hunter's face, primarily his teeth, so close to his neck. Hunter wouldn't bite him again, it had been a fluke! Yes a fluke, definitely. But he still was sort of nervous.
Did that make him traumatized? Raffaele moved a hand up the vampire's back and tangled his fingers into the golden hair. He was sure he'd get over whatever trauma there was quickly, he had a knack for doing that. After all, if he could get over the his rape by a random, and scary, stranger within the hour, he could get over what Raffaele would call uninvited violence in the bedroom from the man he loved.
Raffaele closed his eyes and tried to focus on the closeness of Hunter's body to his rather than all the dull spikes of pain erupting randomly under his skin.
He blinked at Hunter's words and felt himself being pulled down next to the vampire.
"What do I, what do I smell like?" If this had been a while ago, in the begging of their relationship, Raffaele would have guessed his scent was a combination of dust, candles and vampire blood, but now, now he wasn't so sure. He'd been through more than he had while at the church so he figured he must smell, different, right? But if Hunter loved his smell, then there was nothing to worry about, at all. Because Raffaele just wanted Hunter to take joy in things, so whatever Hunter liked about him, Raffaele would keep, flaunt if necessary.
It got him wondering though.
"Hunter," he started as he brushed the tip of his nose agains the other's. "what do you like most about me? It can be physical or nonphysical, either one I don't care." He just wanted to know.
Raffaele clenched his eyes shut suddenly. A wave of pain had wracked through his ribs and it had been utterly excruciating. He didn't want Hunter to know how bad it had really been though because, well because he didn't want to ruin this. He liked being with Hunter like this, so he wanted to put off what would ultimately be a very dramatic conversation.
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 7:19 pm
Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life. Hunter was a bit perplexed at Raffaele's... it was hard to explain. He knew how much his lover like to cuddle, usually Raffaele was all over any opportunity he got, but this time he seemed a little hesitant...
Maybe... he just wasn't in the mood... but he was always in the mood... Hunter sighed and relaxed his hold on the priest, not letting him go, but definitely not holding him as firmly as he wanted to.
After announcing he liked the way Raffaele smelled the priest asked what exactly he smelled like... Hunter's brow wrinkled as he tried to figure out how to explain it without sounding egotistical... Hunter was a possessive b*****d, what was his, was his... was his ten times over. Raffaele held his own personal aroma, it smelled faintly of spices and faintly of earth, but mixed amongst that smell was Hunter's scent. It was all over the priest, marking him as Hunter's and Hunter's alone. "You smell..." he sighed and tilted his head to the side "You smell like your mine. My lover, and mine alone." he said, shrugging helplessly at his lack of a better answer.
Hunter sighed when Raffaele brushed the tip of his nose against his, closing his eyes."It's hard to chose..." he said finally, sighing. "Your innocence... your sweetness... you're everything I'm not, everything I will never be. You care about people and give of yourself till you can't anymore." he said, again at a loss of words of how to explain. "I don't think I could chose any one trait, everything about you is what draws me to you, why I care so much about you."
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Troubled Monster Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 7:59 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- Raffaele was silently thanking Jesus Hunter had loosened his grip. It allowed him a much needed lack of weight on his very sore bruises...and injuries.
"I smell, like you?" He asked sort of breaking into a tiny smile. That was, kind of funny wasn't it? That he smelled like Hunter's...which must mean he smelled like Hunter, in some way or another.
He pressed his forehead against the vampire's gently as he herd him start to answer his question. He had to tell him didn't he? He couldn't just let Hunter believe there wasn't anything wrong...because there was something wrong. What was going to happen when at night they were in this exact same position and Hunter was in that mood and Raffaele denied him what was ultimately his right as his lover? Hunter was not going to be happy, especially because there was seemingly no explanation as to why Raffaele would deprive him of sex.
He had to tell him, for a lot of reasons. But, Raffaele was scared to do so, he didn't want Hunter leaving him again. Perhaps, this could lead up into an explanation.
"So you'd want me to be with you always, right?" He asked running his fingers through Hunter's golden locks. "You wouldn't ever want to be apart would you?" He asked mumbling against Hunter's lips.
If he was going to tell him he wanted some reassurance!
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Posted: Fri Nov 19, 2010 1:44 pm
Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life. Hunter opened his eyes and blinked, a frown resting on his face now. What was Raffaele talking about... why was he talking about it. People didn't normally ask about things like that unless they did something wrong... Hunter's frown intensified and he pulled slightly back, a look of worry on his face. "Raffaele, I want to be with you for as long as you are alive. What's going on." he asked worriedly, suspicion thrown in as well.
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Troubled Monster Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Nov 19, 2010 2:10 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- Yeah, what was going on? Raffaele wished he knew exactly what he was doing, but these days he was perpetually clueless. Everything he did now was impulse, which he honestly hated. How was he supposed to explain this to Hunter? He didn't know what would happen, or what the vampire would do.
What would Raffaele do? He had no idea.
"You um," Raffaele sat up and looked down at the vampire before looking away at the wall with downcast eyes. "nipped my nose, and there was a little blood and you...lost control of yourself, I suppose." Was that the right way to put it? What else was there to explain what had happened without being incredibly too blunt?
"And you-" Raffaele's eyes widened for a moment. "You bit me."
Hunter had bitten him...bitten him! Raffaele wasn't stupid and he wasn't ignorant when it came to vampires. A vampire bite, turned a human into a vampire, and the transformation took place quickly as well! So why the hell was he okay!? Why was he still human!?
Raffaele looked back at Hunter as if expecting an answer to the question he had never voiced allowed.
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Posted: Fri Nov 19, 2010 2:24 pm
Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life. Hunter frowned, looking at Raff as if he was on crack. Blood and losing control, yes, he could believe that. But... biting Raffaele? There was no way, Raffaele was still very clearly a human. Hunter's eyes scanned the priest. It had been last night, so more than likely it had happened when they were fooling around. What... what did he do?!
He growled and moved towards Raffaele, taking his chin gently in his hand and tilting his head up, looking at his neck for a tell tale sign of a bite. There was none, he then released the priests chin and pushed Raffaele's shirt off his shoulders. There was the tell tale sign of a bite, the skin was even teared a bit, just a tribute to how extremely ******** up Hunter must have been last night. He pulled away from the priest and actually moved away from him on the bed. Sitting on the edge and looking down at the floor seriously.
It made sense now, why he was asking. Hunter instinctively shied away from hurting those he cared about. But he had already told Raffaele he wouldn't leave him again. A promise the blond had made rather unwillingly, but one he had made non the less. "What else did I do Raffaele." he asked seriously.
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Troubled Monster Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Nov 23, 2010 7:27 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- This was exactly what Raffaele was worried about.
He felt his body tense instinctively as Hunter moved away towards the edge of the bed. What if he left!? Sure the vampire had promised, but Raffaele knew better than anyone that promises were never ever upheld! There was nothing stopping Hunter from, from just up and leaving him!
God he would resent Hunter if the vampire left him. What had Raffaele done? Well he had done everything thought to be unimaginable and he had done it all for the man many would classify as a monster! He had no place to live, no profession, no future salvation, nothing! All Raffaele had were broken promises and love bites.
"What does it matter what you did!?" He asked sounding desperate all of a sudden. "I'm not dead, just bruised; human beings aren't made of stone like vampires but we aren't fragile, we persevere." Raffaele crawled towards Hunter's back. He just felt so, so guilty.
The human wrapped his arms around the vampire's neck and placed a trail of whispering kisses down his jaw and past his shoulder.
"I tried" he said, his voice breaking, "I tried to just, be smart about it, but I'm not a vampire, I can't-I'm just not strong enough-I just can't give you what you need-I'm sorry." Raffaele's voice shook as he tore himself off of the other man and turned his back to face the opposite wall.
"It just made me realize that, that I really am not good enough for you---you know?" He brought his knees up to his stomach and slumped over them with a heavy chest. Raffaele warped his arms around himself and lowered his head. "I'm just, I'm sorry. I want to be strong enough, and I just want to make you happy. I just wish that-I wish that if you wanted to n** me you could, or that if I got a paper cut, or a bloody nose, or something like that, you wouldn't have to leave the room! But I can't be good enough, I'm not a vampire, I can't become a vampire."
It was an onslaught of emotions, primarily because Raffaele realized a serious flaw in their relationship but also because he was coming to terms with the fact that there was something very wrong with his body.
"You bit me Hunter! You actually bit me and yet here I am warm and fleshy and-and weak! I don't get it! I-I'm so, I'm just sorry!" He hid his face in his arms. "I just remember being on the floor spewing up blood, just throwing up blood and it was like, it was like my body was expelling all the blood that your venom had tainted. I don't know why, Hunter, I don't know what to do anymore."
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Posted: Tue Feb 22, 2011 12:44 pm
Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life. Hunter's jaw tightened, his teeth clenching together at Raffaele's words as he looked away from the man. Thinking. What had he done? Why was Raffaele apologizing!?! He was always apologizing, like it was somehow always his fault. The blond growled lowly and turned, grabbing Raffaele by his shoulder and pulling him towards him, then down so that the blond was now pinning him to the bed, an agitated look on his face.
"Why do you do that. Why are you always apologizing when you shouldn't be? You act like it's your fault, like you have to be perfect when you don't." he hissed out, shifting his weight to avoid hurting the man and holding himself over him with one arm, the other moving up in an unusually tender gesture and stroking the priests face. At this point in time, he ******** hated himself. How could he do something like that to Raffaele. Raffaele, the man who did nothing but try to make him happy, the one who gave every part of himself to those around him without expecting so much as a thank you, if Hunter wasn't already sure that he had secured his place in hell, then this would have done it. "I'm sorry. I would never intentionally hurt you. I never wanted to see you get hurt again, and now I've gone and done this." he croaked out, swallowing as he turned his face away from the priests to hide the fact that he was started to cry. Cry of all things. "I'm not going to leave Raffaele, if that was what you were worried about. I'm just...." he shook his head, not sure himself about what he was or how he felt.
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Troubled Monster Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Feb 22, 2011 9:00 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- Raffaele felt the vibration of Hunter's growl send tremors through his body. A growl, well that was never really a good sign. And as far as Raffaele could tell, his initial instinct had been correct. Hunting was pinning him to the bed and he was pretty sure it wasn't because Hunter was 'excited'.
Initially, Raffaele panicked. He kicked his legs but a searing pain shot through his backside and he stopped that venture right away.
Why did he do that? Why did he do what!? "I'm sorry! I don't mean to do these things, I'm sorry I'm sorry!" And here he was, apologizing for apologizing. Perfect? Well he didn't want to be perfect he just-well what if he did something wrong? Not everyone was forgiving even if they were supposed to be. And what if his mistakes led him to some sort of disastrous situation, what then!? "But if I'm not perfect I'm worthless!" And there it was, the insecurity. Raffaele had grown up with a twisted sort of mentality. His parents had abandoned him, simply because he had the least to offer and the church had taught him that if he wasn't 'perfect' it was hellfire and brimstone. He was always anxious, always worried because if he messed up (which he already had) it meant (as seen throughout his life) tragedy.
Hunter was apologizing? But he didn't need an apology, that wasn't what he wanted, or needed. He just wanted security, and reassurance, that was it!
"Hunter, don't say that-it's fine, I already knew-I already knew."
He would have said more, but he heard the blond's voice crack. Was Hunter, was Hunter crying? What? Was that even possible?
"Shhh" He said quietly as he tried to lift himself up a little. He reached up to run his hand along the side of the vampire's face. "It's okay, it's okay. Hunter I," He shut his mouth, unsure if what he wanted to say, desperately wanted to say, would ruin everything. "Hunter, I love you."
It was like, everything had just been lifted off his shoulders. Raffaele felt, relieved, and light, and airy, and-and full of life, but he was also terrified. "So whatever you do, it's okay, because nothings ever going to make me hate you, ever. Just-just know that, that all I need is you, no matter what you do, or how you act or anything, okay?"
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Posted: Tue Feb 22, 2011 10:01 pm
Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life. Hunter didn't know what kind of sick upbringing Raffaele had, but even him with his superiority complex knew that nothing was perfect and everything had some sort of worth. Some more than others.
His body stiffened, however, at Raffaele's words and he hissed lightly, jerking instinctively away from the man as if burned. "Don't say that." he snapped out involuntarily before swallowing and explaining so he didn't hurt the man's feelings. "Just... don't.... I don't deserve it. I don't.... I can't love you back Raffaele...." he told the man, looking away ashamed and feeling as if he had let the other man down yet again.
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Troubled Monster Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Feb 22, 2011 10:16 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- "You don't-" Raffaele found himself very,unsurprised. Their relationship was, unnatural, in so many ways, and Raffaele knew that between him and hunter, he was the more affectionate-and well, head over heals. And though Raffaele wasn't happy with the outcome, he wasn't disappointed, he sort of, he had sort of known all along Hunter's situation, which was why he hadn't confessed earlier. "you don't have to love me Hunter, just don't leave me." He could handle one sided love, he could definitely handle that. Raffaele didn't need to be loved, he just needed to be cared for, a little bit, and he was sure that, that even though Hunter didn't love him, he at least cared for him.
"Let's just, let's just move on, you know? We've had problems before but we've always figured them out, so all of this, isn't any different. Can't we just, keep going?"
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Posted: Wed Feb 23, 2011 10:05 am
Hunter Ryan Black"Take me from this earth
an endless night-
this, the end of life. Hunter growled out a sigh and looked at the male over his shoulder. Life really was unfair to the priest. He was willing to just accept the fact that Hunter wasn't going to return his affections in the same way.
Why did he have to be so damn nice?
"If that's what you want Raffaele." was all Hunter could really think to say. He didn't want to cause the man more pain and suffering, even if it wasn't physical.
From the dark I feel your lips
and taste your bloody kiss."
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Posted: Fri Feb 25, 2011 6:03 pm
ι ηєє∂ ѕσмє мєαηιηg ι ¢αη мємσяιzє
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind. ------------------------------------------------------- Raffaele stole a glance at Hunter's reticent look and furrowed his brow. What he wanted? Well no, it wasn't what Raffaele wanted. He didn't want to pretend like things never happened-and he didn't want to not be loved; of course he wanted everything to be-well the way it was "supposed" to be, but he knew the truth and the truth was never particularly nice. But because Raffaele knew the inner workings of 'how things worked' , and knew that no matter how many hours he prayed, or how many good deeds he did, or how many sacrifices he made, that things would always fall out of place, he could take what he could get. He didn't want to live a lie after all. It would have been worse to eventually find out that Hunter had been lying to his face about loving him back. Raffaele would rather have the pain now than later anyway. At least he could recover, emotionally and physically all at once.
"Yeah, that's all I want."
So what if Raffaele, in turn, was a hypocrite? He was lying through his teeth, because no, moving on and forgetting and pretending it all was fine wasn't what he wanted at all. But what else could he do? He wasn't going to pull a fit, where would that get him? Sure he could cry or something along those lines, but that would only make him feel worse and make this whole exchange unbelievably awkward. He didn't want things to be awkward, he just wanted them to be, normal. He wouldn't cause a scene because that would just make this so much worse.
But, but Raffaele didn't want things this way either. He had given up a stable life to blindly follow some male vampire across the ocean to some island in the middle of nowhere. He felt like all he did was dote and swoon, and, and sigh like the daughter of some wealthy nobleman about to be engaged to Verona's own Adonis! He hated this! He felt so needly, and, and womanly, and weak, and emotional! He didn't want to need being around Hunter's scent, or being touched by a skin that didn't radiate warmth. He didn't want to need being ******** because lord knows he had been a damn good virgin for twenty two years!
Raffaele hadn't felt torn or guilty about his decisions for a while now but suddenly he was feeling like the world's biggest ******** up!
"That's what I want." He repeated, trying to convince himself this time rather than Hunter.
How was he supposed to look at himself in the mirror? How was he supposed to look at a man who had discarded all his masculinity and had thrown away everything promising on some leap of faith that had landed him with some-some killer who didn't even really-well who didn't love him?
Was he stupid?! What was all that education for!? Sure, he was better educated than 90% of the population but look where it had gotten him!? He was the biggest idiot he's ever had the displeasure of knowing! He was lustful too, to top it all off! He hadn't gone two days without sex since meeting Hunter, there was nothing pure and chaste about that! Oh and wasn't it wonderful that his bed partner ******** him and was a man-yeah that was really the way God had planned things to work out wasn't it!?
He felt so-so, soiled and dirtied, and stupid!
"I have to go to the bathroom." He said quietly as he picked himself up from the bed. But Raffaele didn't really have to go to the bathroom, he just didn't want to dote anymore.
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