eek HOLY HELL!!!! I'M IN CHARGE?!?! eek eek eek eek -is still in shock- eek eek eek eek confused Meep.... Why me? crying Oh well. I'll accept it. (keep reading below for why)
Well, Its been a long time since I've even visited Gaia. To tell the truth, I've been playing Ragnarok Online and taking care of my guild clan that I'm leader of (if anybody plays AnimaRO, look out for the ~Hybrid~Vagrants~ Thats my guild blaugh ). Other than that, I'm suffering pretty bad from anxiety for the love of my life. I wish I could hold her in my arms but circumstances keep us apart and I'll be moving even farther from her in July (keep reading below for that also). It feels as if I'm falling apart every day but I know that I'd bear the world for her so I'll bite my pain and keep on walking. Still, that doesn't mean I won't whine like a little girl about it. crying Since my heart just yearns so much for her and not an hour passes when I don't think about her. And if she ever reads this message, I love you very much honey~ Never forget this fact and never let go of my heart as I will never let go of yours~ I heart you Lily~ I can't wait to see you in December honey~
Okay. Now down to business. Well, I graduated from high school on June 10th. =^_^= And I threw a party and had to sing karaoke. I sang Black Magic Woman by Santana (dedicated to my lovely honey kitty Lily). It was a blast but I also realized that people don't know what to give you so they give you tons of cash for graduation (I recieved at least $1000 on that day. neutral And I'm not a materialistic person so I'll just save it for now and use it in July for school). It was a blast though. And we still have tons of food so I'm happy. but the thing is, I feel scared and even more anxious than ever now. I graduated but I don't feel any older or any closer to being an adult. I still feel like that ignorant kid that laughs at everything and that bothers me to a great extent. Maybe its just me. Whatever it is, I'm just gonna have to bite it for this next bit of info.
I'm not sure if I told anybody here this but I recently (actually it was in April or May) got accepted into St. John's University in Queens, New York. Orientation is in July so I'll be moving to the east coast in July. Its not the first time I've been to New York but the area where the college is located, is one of the toughest areas of New York (its situated in Jamaica Queens. Very high violent rates out of New York there). This has got my family worried and now they've freaked me out. sweatdrop But I'm still going. Can't just act like its not there. I'll be fine as long as I stay myself, don't do anything stupid, and be kind to everybody regardless. So in July, I'm going to New York and hopefully I can find a dorm room or an apartment and also a decent job so I can get some income. Then sign up for a credit card and work on my credit liability so I can get some good credit on that baby in later years. So yeah.
Well, thats all thats been happening to me. =^_^= And I guess I'll be in charge of everything until Imbar gets back. Or until July hits, in which I'm not sure when I'll ever get internet unless I go to an internet cafe. Then again, I'll most likely be working and studying since college is an entirely different ball game. Also, I'll be in the many New York clubs having fun! xp Hopefully I'll find a good jazz club with good tea and a nice environment where I can write. Then again, I'd probably fall asleep there and get robbed every night. xp
Well, I wish you all the best of luck and I'll be writing a lot in the RP and etc. section since I'm just burning with ideas!
